"Hoseok..." You whispered in shock.

You were basking in the glory of your boyfriend. Wondering how it came to be that he was so attractive and for the most part yours. Something in him was glowing. He was shining. You didn't know if it was the sun playing tricks on your eyes or what. You didn't understand it. He was.... Dazzlingly handsome. Something in him changed and you didn't know if it was for the better exactly. All you knew was that the boyfriend that was sitting in front of you wasn't the same one you were used to seeing. 

"Jagiya...." He looked ready to cry and it confused you.

You wanted to cry, he shouldn't be the one crying! He grabbed your face a little roughly as he made sure you were looking at him. He let out a sobbing cough and you looked at him strangely. Was he acting or were these feelings real and accurate?

"Hoseok?" You questioned in concern.

The shake of his cold fingers pressed into your cheeks made your heart hurt in ways you didn't understand. You were in pain seeing his sadness. His lip quivered and his eyes were just starting to form those bloodshot veins that caused concern. You placed a hand over his and rubbed them gently in what you hoped was in comfort. You felt the blood drain from your face as he only seemed to cry harder. Something was definitely wrong and you couldn't help but feel like it was your fault. 

"I'm so sorry!" He wept as his head dropped.

All you could see was the top of his head and it did nothing but make you sit there frozen. He couldn't even look you in the face he was swimming in so much depression. 

"Hoseok." You grabbed his face, pleading to have him look up at you, "what are you sorry for? You did nothing wrong!"

"Yes I did!" His shout made you flinch, "I'm a horrible boyfriend! I wasn't there when you left, I wasn't available to text you, and I didn't keep in contact our even made an effort to!" He whimpered. 

This was why he was crying? 

You let out a deep sigh, "Hoseok..." but your words were falling on deaf ears. This was going to take a lot more than just saying his name. 

"I'm so sorry..." He sniffled.

Your stomach bubbled as you readied yourself to get his crying to come to a halt. You took in a deep breath and lifted his face to look at you. He couldn't even see, his tears were blurring out the entire world. 

"Sweetheart... You are not a horrible boyfriend, I couldn't ask for a better boyfriend." You tried to reassure him.

Doubt was clear in his eyes and you could tell more devistation was going through his mind then what he told. You wiped his tears with your thumbs and gently pressed your lips to his, a flutter of a kiss. You held him close for a moment. When you pulled away you saw that his tears had stopped completely, but so did his breathing. His eyes were blank looking past your face. He was completely frozen. 

"_________..." He mouthed your name slowly.

You looked at him curiously, "You okay?"

His eyes finally shifted and landed on yours, "Yeah... I'm okay..." He bit his lip, "I'm good..."

You couldn't help but feeling that he didn't like your actions. You looked down at your hands, a little shy as tears threatened you. You just wanted to make him happy and instead it seemed to just make him nervous and a little sadder. You checked the time on your phone and was ready to make a swift escape even though he still had so much time. You turned to him and closed your eyes to gather your words. You opened your mouth and didn't quite get your words out as you felt someone's lips pressed to yours in an almost gentle way. These lips quivered, they were soft and they promised respect and kindness. You could feel his love and desire for you flowing through his lips. He was scared he was a screw up but he loved you all the same and with everything he had. You both talk and explained everything the other missed and you both agreed to stay in better contact. With a chaste kiss you both hugged and walked you seperate ways, only to keep looking back in a longing manner. 

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