07-12-12

22nd day in Seoul.

Love is a holy cause. Love is spiritual. It’s about self- sacrifice and commitment and discipline, you cannot have true love without discipline and respect. So just love, make mistakes, and have wonderful times, but never second guess who you are, where you have been, and most importantly, where it is you are going.

So, it’s another day for me and my messy (Love) life. Gosh! It’s been days since I last had a good night sleep. I kept on rolling and turning around on my bed, like a dog who can’t find an area to poop. Okay, that’s weird, I just compared myself to a dog, What?! Haha!

“Where is that freakin camera?” I almost turned all my things upside down and still I can’t find it.

“Railey!!” I called out from inside my room and soon enough she’s already walking in.

“What? Are you having a massive headache again?” she asked while chewing on some apple.

“No… I’m fine….it’s just that….have you seen my camera?” I opened one of my drawers and started digging in.

“I haven’t seen it since you arrived from Jeju” she answered and sat on the edge of my bed.

“Shucks! This can’t be! Arrghh!” I am desperate, please in camera, show up now!

“Sis…calm down…OK? I’ll help you find it” she stood up and opened my untouched luggage (I’m still not in the mood to take all things out from that bag).

After I don’t know how long, we still couldn’t find my lovely camera. C’mon! The reason why I agreed in going to Jeju is because I want to document G-dragon while working and doing some solo stuff, all my work is in that camera and now, I can’t even start working because I don’t know where it is.

“! This is not happening” I shouted the moment I went to the kitchen.

“Sis…we’ll find it…OK? By the way…where did you put it? I mean…are you sure you were able to bring it along with you” Daryl asked me while cooking hotdogs.

“I am super sure that it was with me….I even took pictures with G-dragon on the plane” I answered her and munch on some pancake.

“Woah! So…you two are really something huh? What’s the real reason why you’re so desperate in finding that camera? Is it because…you and Jiyong have some “not so appropriate for others viewing” pictures that you two will keep in secret?” she teased.

“Sis…what are you talking about? Not so….what?” I waited for her to answer as she drinks water.

“Not so appropriate pictures…are sweet..intimate pictures that you took together…you want some example?” she looked at me with her you-really-want-to-know face.

“Fine” I stared at her as I wait for her answer.

“Ok…uhmmm…pictures of you while kissing, hugging…something like that…or…you’re both then you take turns to snap a shot…or both of you half while lying in bed..got it?” she said flawlessly and I just can’t believe that she just said that.

“Why on earth will I let him take a picture of me ? Sis! You’re totally insane!” she is totally insane, I mean, c’mon!

“I’m just teasing you! Don’t take it too seriously….you really have to chill…breathe…and relax” she looks like a yoga instructor with her hands going up and down.

One reason why I don’t want to tell the girls about me and G-dragon is because I’m totally sure that they will tease me forever.  I still can’t believe that the Big Bang members and my 2 best friends already know this “exclusively dating” status of me and him. I don’t even know what to expect the moment I see them in the building. What am I even thinking yesterday? Why did I just blurt it out?

Out of desperation, I decided to head to the office earlier than the girls. We’ve agreed last night that we will go to work later this afternoon to give our hangover’s a time to fade but I think mine will be stuck in my head for a lifetime so, I’d better live with it. My closet is not so beautiful and attractive today, why? I’m sporting for the “stylish young magazine editor” look, so I chose to wear my Whitles top, Givenchy Jacket, Day Birger El Mikkelsen jeans, Balmain boots and matched it with Chloe tote, Sho London ring, Swell Brown earrings and finished it off with my newest paparazzi trademark, House of Harlow sunglasses. I blow dried my hair and let its wave do some magic.

“Wow! No wonder…Jiyong likes to stare at you” Railey who is doing some work on her computer, glanced at me.

“Sis…are you gonna tease me about G-dragon the rest of my life?” I asked her while fixing my hair.

“OH MY GOD! OH MY! SIS! _________!” she shout so loud that my whole body shaken.

“What?!” I turned to look at her an