July 30, 2017

Having someplace to go is home, having someone to love is family, having both is a blessing. Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take but by the moments that take our breath away. Nobody was born to be parents, we only become one when we have children and it is not until you become a mother that your judgment slowly turns to compassion and understanding.

It’s my special day today! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME! I’m a year older and things are getting better, my life has become one happy thing and I’m having a blast.

I’m on my eighth month of pregnancy and as days go by, I’m starting to feel scared and excited all at the same time. My body seems to be telling me that I’ll be done with the pain in no time and I’m getting myself ready for that huge pain already and I’m super ready to kiss this baby bump goodbye and welcome my little girl, Gabriella.

Well, my marriage is going smooth (at least for now) and thank God, my family is still intact. I’ve decided to take things slowly and spend time with Isabella and G-dragon more so I only go to work four times a week and although I’m not used to being a full time mum and housewife, I try my best to at least be one and so far, I’m doing good.

Things are a little crazy in terms of the people around us but we’re able to handle small matters well and we’re trying to be a normal family. G-dragon and I are freer now and we see to it that we let Isabella experience everything without any limits. Yes, there are a lot of cameras and fans following us whenever we go out as a family, but they’re not hurting us or even disturbing so we just let them be, while we do our own thing.

About G-dragon and I, we’re taking things step by step. We’re discovering things about each other that we haven’t discovered before and our love is getting stronger and stronger each day. Thing is, even though I’ve cut down my time of work to have more time with him, he’s the one who is so busy these past few days and there are even times where I never get to see him for a whole day. I also learned that I need to trust him more. Honestly, after the online magazine launch months ago, I’ve doubted him a lot and I even started being sneaky and cold, but he talked me out of doubts once again and he made me realize that I’m just being too paranoid. But of course, I’m still on a red alert for I don’t know when Lauren is coming back. I know that she’s going to have her revenge and she’s going to ruin our beautiful marriage, I’m not yet ready for it but I’m going to fight.

“MUM! MUM! MUM! MUM! WAKE UP!” Isabella shouted and I’m telling you, I nearly went deaf.

“WAKE UP MUM! HAPPY BIDEY!” she continued and it made me smile.

She’s still having a little problem with her pronunciation and we’re trying to correct her already. She really is the cutest thing on earth and I’m so happy to have her.

“Babe?” G-dragon spoke out while holding my shoulder.

WOW! He’s here! Actually, he called me last night to say that he’s not going home today coz they’ve got a lot to do in the studio.

“Wake up beautiful” he said and I know that he knows that I’m already awake.

“Hey!” I greeted them and Isabella shrieked in excitement.

“Happy Birthday babe….I love you” G-dragon said and he kissed me.

“Thank you babe….love you too” I replied and he smiled at me.

“Baby girl…greet mum!” he said.

“HAPPY BIDEY MUM! I LOVE YOU THIS BIG!” she said and made a big circle in the air and I kissed her.

This is super overwhelming, after years of spending my birthday with Isabella only, at last! I got to spend it with my husband and I’m so happy.

“Why are you here? I thought you’re busy?” I asked G-dragon.

“Yah! Aren’t you happy that I’m here?” he asked and I hugged him.

“I’m super happy babe…this is what I prayed for last night…and I guess God heard me” I said and he hugged me tighter.

“I can’t miss this day…I really have to be here” he said and I kissed him.

Who in the world will not be touched if your husband tells those things to you? He’s really the sweetest man I’ve ever met and I’m falling in-love with him more because that.

“Are you hungry?” he asked while rubbing my tummy.

“I don’t feel like eating actually…it’s been going on for days now” I said and he looked at me worriedly.

“Babe…you should eat…Gabriella needs food…and I’ve noticed that you lost weight already” he said and I sighed.

“I don’t know…everytime I eat…I feel like throwing up” I told him.

Truth is, this pregnancy is the hardest and most sensitive. I became picky and my cravings are still in full swing and I’m telling you, mine are weird coz instead of craving for food, I crave for G-dragon’s smell and it really is hard to sleep without him beside me and everytime I see his face, it makes me so happy, happier than normal. There was even a time where I called him in the middle of the night when he was in the studio, I was crying and was begging him to come home coz I really miss him. Weird, right?

“I asked YG hyung to give me two days leave so that I can take care of you…I’m really alarmed by your eating habits already” he said while caressing my cheek.

“But you’re about to start your recordings right? You know…I’m fine…no need to take a leave” I said and he shook his head.

“No…let me take care of you this time…I promised to be a hands on husband and dad…right? So I’m going to live it now” he said

“You’re really a big pile of love Kwon Jiyong…I can’t believe that you’re doing this” I said and he smirked.

“I’ve been doing this secretly to you…it’s just that you’re numb” he joked and I slapped him lightly on the chest.

“You’re the best husband EVER!” I said and he clapped proudly.

He really is the best right? I mean, even though he’s busy and a lot of things are going on in his world, he doesn’t forget to take care of us and although his time is all eaten by his work, he’s still making it a point that he’s not missing any important day like birthday’s and check-ups.

“AH! Wait here” he said.

“Baby girl…come!” he said and Isabella went out of the room with him excitedly.

I know that they’re up to something and I’m really excited about it. I’ve noticed that Isabella is really like her dad, she likes to surprise people and she’s doing it almost every day. Well, yesterday, she surprised me because she already knows how to use the restroom for potty.

“HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU! HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUM! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!”

OH MY GOSH! My two babies are really all in with their surprise and it made me cry BIGTIME!