Upon my request, Chin ho drove me at my apartment first before they go to the YG building. I know, I’m such a dumb and I will surely be scolded by President YG for not obeying his orders, but I just cannot face him or any other people right now. I begged Ji eun and Cho hee to tell me or better translate what the fans were screaming awhile ago at the airport.

*In the car*

“Cho hee…Ji eun…can you tell me what the fans were trying to tell me awhile ago?” I asked them and they stared at each other.

“Ma’am…it’s nothing…they’re just….uhmmm” she tried to explain but failed.

“It’s alright…just tell me…don’t you think it’s much better if you’re just gonna tell it..at least I have a clue on what to answer them” I said and tried to joke but I guess it’s not working.

“_____________...you don’t have to know them” Ji eun told me and I shook my head.

“Please?” I begged and they both sighed.

“Actually…Jiyong made me promise not to tell you any of it…but since you want to and you have the right to know…fine” Ji eun said and I prepared myself for intense bad mouthing.

“What?” I asked when she stopped talking.

“OK…well, they were saying that you should back off and leave Jiyong” she hold my hand and I listened to her intently “they were actually shouting “Break up now” she continued.

“Okay…it’s not that bad at all…and there’s no need to break in the first place…we’re not together….I thought it was something like bad words…I am actually waiting for them to call me a ” I said and they both laughed.

“Ma’am…actually, there are a few who shouted that…but don’t mind them” Cho hee said and smiled at me.

“There are hurtful words that were said awhile ago….I just can’t remember them all” Ji eun said and I know that she is lying.

“C’mon girls….tell me some more…I know there are more…break up and leave him is not even hurtful enough” I said.

“You’re not good enough for him…. You don’t deserve him…. He deserves somebody else…I think that’s it” Ji eun finally spitted it out.

Yeah…they did hurt me, it pains me more now. I’ve never thought that this will happen to me and that it would be this intense. I know there are some fans who are really against any relationship their idols would have but I just have to take it positively and think that there are a lot of fans who are happy about it. First and foremost, G-dragon and I aren’t even dating. Yeah. I know, we are acting like a couple, but, we don’t have labels. No need to break up and I know so well that I’m not good enough for him and he deserves much better, but I didn’t even pushed myself to him.

At last, I’m home. I felt really excited when I opened our apartment’s door, of course, the girls are not here for they are at the office by now or still documenting the other members. Even if I have only been away for 3 days, it seems like it’s been years. I missed my room, my bed and my closet specially my shoes. My mood lighten the moment I stepped a foot in our apartment. I swear! I can stay here for a week and won’t bother to go out. With everything that’s happening with me? I can only choose to stay here and zone out from the whole world.

I decided to call the Railey and Daryl for I really miss them.

“SIS!” Railey answered excitedly once she picked up.

“Wassup?” I asked and God knows I’m trying really hard to sound happy and normal as possible.

“Well, I can say that you are already here in Seoul” she said.

“Yes dear…I have arrived an hour ago….so…where are you?” I asked once again.

“Here at the office…Daryl is with the members at the recording studio…where are you?” she answered.

“aahhh…I’m here at home” I answered while unpacking my  things.

“What are you doing there? Get your slim right here now!” she said and I laughed.

“I’ll go there later…maybe? I don’t know…I’m really tired right now” I reasoned out.

“Wait….did anything happened? I mean…are you sick or what? This is so not you” she said in a for-your-information tone.

“I’m not sick and I’m not gonna rest here doing nothing…I’m gonna update some papers that I have here” I explained and I can feel that she’s not buying it.

“OK…that’s….wait….sis…tell me…did something happened to you and G-dragon?” she asked curiously.

“What made you say that?...nothing happened OK” I said and she scoffed.

“Then why do I have this feeling that you are hiding from someone?” she asked. OK. She’s not giving this up easily.

“I’m not hiding…get that?....I just missed being at home” I explained once again.

“Nope…not believing you” she said and this time she’s annoying me already.

“What do I have  to do just to make you believe me?” I asked her and I swear! She has to believe me, or else, she’s going to call Daryl and make her ask the same questions up until I admit or something.

“Go here now….I’ll tell Chin ho to pick you up” she said.

“Fine!” I said. I gave up.

After that talk with Railey, I went to the bathroom and took a quick bath, then I went to my closet to pick out an outfit. I know, I’m not in the m