ADVANCED MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE! This is my special christmas chapter and I hope you guys like it:) Once again...MERRY CHRISTMAS!

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12-25-12

189th day and my first Christmas in Seoul.

There are millions of people in this world, but in the end it all comes to one. I still panic sometimes, forget to breathe, but I know that there’s something beautiful in my imperfections; the beauty that had he held up for me to see. The strength that I will never be able to say.

 MERRY CHRISTMAS! Gosh! Time really pass by so fast! It feels like yesterday when the girls and I were crying at the airport because we’ll be in a foreign place that none of us have ever gone to and now, here we are, building our own lives in that foreign place and making it as our real home. A lot of things have changed especially with me. I have to say goodbye to the perfectionist girl and say hello to the go with the flow lady that I am now.

It’s so wonderful to wake up on Christmas day with the one you really and truly love. G-dragon’s face is really angelic when he sleeps. 3 days ago, I’ve got the biggest and most wonderful gift ever! I am pregnant, and I’m totally loving the feeling that I’m carrying a life inside of me. Well, I haven’t told G-dragon about it yet, I am planning to tell him on the day of their Big Show Concert on the 29th, I know that, that day is special for him and I want to make it more special.

“Baby girl…Merry Christmas” G-dragon turned to face me and hugged me.

“Merry Christmas babe” I replied and kissed his forehead.

“Jiyong…wait…I’ll just go to the bathroom” I said and got out from bed as fast as I can.

I’m having morning sickness! It’s not consistent though, there are days that I’m off without it and there are ty days that all I do is go run to the bathroom and puke. It’s totally disturbing and uncomfortable and my nose is also sensitive to different smells and it really is freaky.

“What’s happening to you? Are you feeling sick?” he asked when I came out of the bathroom.

As much as I want to tell him about my pregnancy, I have to stick with my plans (I know it’s really stupid of me not to tell him right away), I’m giving him hints though but I think up to now he’s still clueless of my condition.

“My stomach is just bad…but I’m fine now” I said and he nod.

“Do you want to sleep more Mr. Kwon?” I asked him and took a sit on the couch.

“I’m still sleepy but I don’t want to sleep anymore” he answered and I smirked.

“You’re totally weird babe…what do you want to eat for breakfast?” I asked him as he joined me on the couch and hugged me.

“Pancake and sausage” he answered and I chuckled.

“You’re really becoming me everyday…before we met I’m sure you rarely eat pancakes and sausages” I told him and he laughed.

“That’s really true” he said and kissed me on my temple.

“OK! I’ll make pancakes and cook sausages for you” I said and he grabbed my hands making me fall back to the couch.

Gosh! He really needs to be super careful with me! I’m damn pregnant!

“Babe! That hurts!” I shouted and he laughed then hugged me.

“Baby girl…are you sure you really want to cook? I mean…it’s Christmas and I don’t want to be homeless today” he joked and I slapped his thigh so hard that it had a red mark on it.

“AISH!”

“Babe…I’m really sorry” I said while rubbing his thigh “Trust me with cooking this time…I promise not to burn the whole house” I continued and he smirked.

“Fine…I’ll get my phone ready in case we need to call for the fire department” he said and I stick my tongue out at him.

I’m really confident with my cooking skills, Omma has taught me a lot already and she is proud of me because I’m learning so fast. We made Bulgogi 2 days ago and it was so delicious that Appa finished everything up in a snap. Too bad G-dragon wasn’t able to taste it for he was still in Japan during those days.

OH MY GOSH! The moment I walked in the living room, the Christmas tree that the girls and I decorated for 3 whole hours was ruined and it is already on the ground. It was really a big mess and I already have a suspect in this crime. GAHO!

“Babe! Babe!” I called out from the living room.

I’m too lazy to walk and all I did was sit on the couch and stare at our ruined Christmas tree.

“Why?!” he shouted back.

“Come here! I’ve got a surprise for you!” I said and he came running in.

“What the hell happened here?!” he asked in surprise.

“I don’t know…I guess you have to ask your son about it” I said while pointing at Gaho who is sitting on the single couch.

“Yah! Wae?!” G-dragon asked and he looks like a dad scolding his kid.

“I’m going to die once Gaho answers you…I swear!” I joked and he sighed.

“What will we do now? It’s Christmas day and our Christmas tree is a mess” he looked at me and I stood up to comfort him.

“That’s easy…we will fix it after we eat breakfast” I told him and he shook his head in disappointment.

“Pick up all the things there and I’ll call you once I’m done cooking…OK?” I asked and he nod.

OK. This is it! I will make pancakes and cook sausages. I’m really in my hype mode while cooking that I found myself singing Haru Haru with my own composed lyrics (I still cannot pronounce the words well).

“Oh girl..I cry…cry…you’re my all…say goodbye…bye” I sang with a little dance.

“Oh my love…don’t lie…lie…yo my heart…baby girl” he came in singing and it shocked me.

Can someone kill me now? Why does he have to hear me singing their song and dancing? Why? I’m super embarrassed and all I want to do now is for the ground to eat me.

“Babe! Why are you here?” I asked in shock and he hugged me from behind.

“I will get a trash bag…and got shock seeing you having your own performance here in the kitchen” he said and I slapped his hand.

“Jiyong…singing is my hidden talent…and haru haru is my favorite song of all time…it’s just pisses me off because the composer of that song is really a big mood killer” I said and he hugged me tightly.

OK. As much as I want to be hugged tightly, I’m worried that the baby will get squeezed or something (am I too paranoid?).

“Jiyong…I’m cooking…don’t disturb me and go back to cleaning the mess that your son did” I told him and he kissed the side of my neck.

“OK…Love you” he said sweetly.

“Love you too” I said and smiled at him.

The pancakes are PERFECT! I’m not kidding! I swear! It tastes like pancakes and not just any ordinary flour made food. The sausages are also in good shape, it’s a little burnt but it still tastes good.

“Here you go” I said while placing the plate in front of him.

“WOW! This smells good” he said and smelled it.

“I told you…I’m good” I said and he nod playfully.

“Jiyong! I made that for you and you’re making a joke out of it?” I said in a pissed tone and he came near me and hugged me by the neck from the back.

“Thank you baby girl…I’ll finish it all” he said and I rolled my eyes at him.

“Fine” I said and he laughed.

After eating, we cleaned up the table and washed the dishes. G-dragon volunteered to wash it but I’m really in the mood to do chores today so I told him that I want to help and he willingly agreed.

“Gosh! The girls and I decorated this tree for 3 hours…Jiyong…3 WHOLE HOURS” I said and he laughed.

“It’s OK baby girl…I’m sure Gaho is already sorry for what he did” he said and I sighed.

“Let’s start this! I still got a lot of things to do” I said and he looked at me curiously.

“Why?” I asked.

“Are you going somewhere?” he asked while fixing the Christmas tree’s leaves.

“I’m meeting the girls later” I answered nervously.

The truth is, I asked the girls to go last minute shopping. I’ve already bought some and wrapped it but I haven’t bought a gift for G-dragon yet. I ran out of time because I was too busy fixing the magazines mess days ago.

I’m really into decorating the Christmas tree that I forgot that I’m pregnant. I just found myself climbing the stairs to put Christmas lights around the tree.

“Jiyong! I think you have to do this” I told him.

“You’re the one who keeps insisting to cli