June 30

Trust is the glue of life. It’s the most essential ingredient in effective communication. It’s the foundational principle that holds all relationships. Trust in not an obsession, it’s an extension of love. When we truly love someone, we give them our heart to hold in their hands, and when that love is returned, that very trust is balm to our souls.

Heavy work already started days ago and it only means that I’ve been in a lot of tension packed and awkward moments (seriously) already. I cannot even believe that I was able to survive a whole day of suffocation. Working with Brady and Alfie is really insane and I feel like I’m already sick in the head officially for they are all over me and I’m just so done with the things that they do just for them to get noticed.

Well, I don’t give a damn on whatever they feel like doing. Thing is, as much as I want to ignore them, I can’t, for I have to communicate with them all the time and I’m trying my hardest to be professional, but then again, I can’t help myself from being so personal.

This morning is one heck of a challenge for me. Yes, for a very rare moment, I don’t feel like working at all. It’s like, my mind is telling me that I should get out of bed and prepare for a whole day of tiring work while my body is just saying the total opposite of it. So what I did was, I forced myself to sit up, rubbed my eyes hard as I can then and drag myself out of bed.

“Babe…I’ll prepare breakfast…I’ll call you once I’m done” I told him before getting out of bed.

“m’kay” he muttered and I kissed his cheek.

In all fairness to Jiyong, he’s already calm about the whole “SuitorS” thing and he’s not even giving a damn on what they do. Thing is, he doesn’t want me to entertain any of their stupid actions, which is so hard, for there are times when one of them buys me coffee and they’ll give it to me personally and waits until I finish all of it (it’s Alfie). I even threw a lot of flowers already for Jiyong not to see them in my office (it’s Brady, he really has a thing with flowers).

“Mum!” the boys greeted upon seeing me.

“Oh! Why are you all in costume?” I asked curiously.

Well, Jiyong and I tripped on some costumes and bought one for each kid and I must say, they really love it (except for Isabella and Gabriella). DK and Karielle are Disney princesses and the boys are Superman, Batman and Spiderman.

“We just want to wear them” Danny answered and I ruffled his hair.

“Mum!” he shouted in protest.

“Come here baby boy…let me kiss you” I teased, while reaching my arms out to him.

“Mum! No! I’m not a baby anymore” he said and the twins giggled.

“Hyung…you still are” Russelle told him.

“In the eyes of mum” Gabrielle added, making me laugh.

“Anyway…where’s your noonas?” I asked while looking around.

“They’re still in their room mum…actually…they are so loud awhile ago” Danny answered and started slashing Russelle with his sword.

My girls are really being so secretive nowadays and I don’t even know what they’re hiding. They also keep on teasing DK about having a crush on TOP and whenever I ask her, she would deny it as if her life will be in danger once she admits something (it’s cute though).

“Hey girls!” I said the moment I opened the door.

“Hey mum!” Isabella said and immediately hid something under her pillow.

“Good….Morning” I said with my eyes still fixed under her pillow.

“What’s up mum?” Gabby asked with a suspicious smile that can really make you feel that something is going on.

“Girls” I called and they all looked at me “You all know that you can trust mum with everything…right?” I asked and they nod slowly.

“Well…I just want to ask” I said and the girls looked at each other as if they are talking with their eyes.

“Are you hiding something from mum?” I asked and they just stared at me nervously.

This is really one thing that I fear about. I don’t want my girls or any of my kids to hide something from me. The reason why Jiyong and I acts like cool and hip parents is because we want our children to be open to us and free to say whatever is running in their heads. Yes, we both know that there will come a time where our boys and girls will find other people to tell secrets to, but we are crossing our fingers and praying hard that our openness to each other will not fade at all.

“Mum…we’re not…hiding…anything” Isabella said and I looked at her intently.

Out of all my seven kids, Isabella is the only one who can’t lie to me at all. Why? Because I know how she lies and even the twitch of her eyes will give you hints that she’s really hiding something from you (Jiyong can do this with Gabby and Danny as well).

“Can you lift your pillows up?” I asked and they looked at me nervously.

“Mum…fine!” Isabella said in defeat, making me chuckle.

And there it is. What I saw really shocked me, but made me smile at the same time. Well, Isabella is hiding a picture of her and Aiden (her guy friend) under her pillow and it’s not just any other ordinary picture, for my daughter is kissing the boy and I’m sure, SO SURE that once Jiyong sees this, he will flip out and lock his daughter in her room forever.

“He’s cute” I said, still looking at the picture.

“Who took this shot?” I asked curiously.

“Our teacher…she’s also the one who gave that to me” Isabella answered and I nod.

“How come you’re the one who kissed him?” I asked again, making the two younger girls giggle.

“Because unnie have always wanted to kiss Aiden mum” Gabby answered, earning a slap on her arm from Isabella.

“How about you two? Are there secret pictures below those pillows as well?” I asked suspiciously and Gabby brought hers, out.

Gabriella Kwon is really one of the funniest and weirdest human being this world has ever created. She’s not keeping a guy’s or any kissing picture, instead, she’s keeping her own picture that was taken during one of her photo shoots for YG RUNWAY (yes, this is how my daughter loves herself).

“Wow…this is really different” I told her and she giggled.

“I got that from one of our photo albums mum…I don’t know…but I feel like looking at it every day” she said and I looked at her weirdly.

“Gabby is really vain mum and we all know it…she looks at that picture all the time and points out the changes on her face every night” Isabella said and I sighed.

“You know what babies? You guys are beautiful…there’s no need to check on your image every night for you’re not changing at all….your skin is still radiant…it still glows…you look healthy…you don’t have dark circles at all…so if I were you…put that back in our photo album and