A/N: This is a Taeyeon request. I was asked for a happy ending, but I think I failed... 

This was a tuff one but I hope you guys will enjoy it

It was too hard for you to handle, and sometimes you wondered just how much longer you were going to be able to take it and to deal with it. It was another image that would be burned on your eye lids for a very long time, something that would keep you awake at night because it would haunt you in your sleep. You knew it made you a horrible best friend, because the least you should do was being happy for him, but you just couldn't. Just the thought of not having him around you was something you couldn't handle and seeing him being pulled away from you made your heart break into small pieces. For such a big part of your life, it had been you and him, the two of you against the world, you had been able to survive everything. 

But now that you were older and other people had slipped into your life, you could see that he was drifting away from you, and that hurt you more than words could say. A good best friend would understand and would give him his space, realizing that was what she had to do to make him happy, but having to do that was almost the same thing as torturing yourself. The biggest problem was probably that you had already crossed a very important line, which was that to you, he meant more than just a friend. You stared at the two of them from where you were sitting and you told yourself you had to look away, because you were only making things harder for yourself. If you wanted to stop hurting than you had to stop looking, and you had to stop caring, but that was easier said than done. Since you and Baekhyun had been friends since kindergarten, it wasn't easy to cut bands with him, because you knew that you would hurt him as well and the thought of him being hurt was just unbearable. 

With a big sigh you looked back down on your plate and just continued to move your salad around without eating it, for one reason or another you just weren't hungry and because of the lump in your throat you couldn't swallow. Even the smallest thing seemed hard today, and you had no idea what you could do to put yourself over it. You best friend was sitting two tables away from you, while normally you always had lunch together, that had been your thing ever since you had gotten into high school. But for the past few weeks Baekhyun had been a little absent on your table, because he was way too busy with the newest woman in his life, his girlfriend, Taeyeon. Just her name made your cringe and you knew it was unfair of you to hate het like that, because the worst thing was that she was a great person. 

She was extremely pretty and had looks to be extremely jealous about. She was incredibly innocent and cute, which made it even harder for you to dislike her this much and beside all of that she was very sweet and she had the heart on the right place. People would look at you strangely if you'd tell them that you didn't like her, but you just couldn't help yourself. She had stoled your friend away from you and she had tugged his heart away before you had been able to confess your feelings to Baekhyun. It was cliche and you knew it, a best friend who promised never to fall for him but in the end she still did and then it would all be too late. Because now he was sitting there with her instead of with you, holding her hand, laughing with her jokes and sending her adoring looks. He loved her, you could see it by the look he had in his eyes, a look he had never given you before. 

You wished that you could be here, but instead you were sitting here at this table all by yourself, hating a girl who didn't deserve to be hated and looking all pitiful because you had just missed your chance to be together with the love of your life. It was only then that you noticed that your eyes had started to water and that a tear was sliding down your cheeks, how far had you been in your own little world? You were sick of feeling like this and feeling sorry for yourself and you weren't going to remain sitting here and waiting for him to come back, because it would probably be until lunch time was finished that he would be sitting there. You were tired of playing the third wheel while you didn't want to and you didn't want to feel replaced anymore. Baekhyun was in love with someone else and it was time for you to accept that you had lost him and to move on. 

But how long was that going to take and what were you going to have to pay to do that? Would you be able to get over him while he was being your friend and he would be around you or did you need some time alone for this? Were you going to be able to save your long time friendship or was this going to ruin everything? You had no idea if you were going to get out of this, but for now you just wanted to get out of here and be by yourself for a moment, because you had the feeling you were going to go crazy. You collected your stuff and grabbed your plate before going to the trash can and throwing your uneaten salad away, it had been such a waste of your money. It felt bad to leave him here without telling him that you were gone, but you could impossible tell him why you were leaving, so you decided that it didn't matter. He wouldn't miss you anyway and he still had his girlfriend who could keep him company, it didn't matter that you weren't there with him. Before you could change your mind you walked out of the canteen and went straight towards the nurse office to tell her that you weren't feeling well. 

She gave you a look and then send you a heart warming smile before writing you a note and sending you home with some wise words. "Some cry movies and chocolate ice cram sweetheart, that's the best way to handle a heart break." She said and handed you the note. You stared at het for a second but then decided that it was best if you'd just turn around and walk away. How did she know that you were suffering from a heart break instead of from some other little illness which happened to students during this time of the year like an allergy or something? Was it this obvious that you had just lost someone precious and that you needed some time to get over it? 

With the note in your hand and your bag on your shoulders you walked through the hallway and tries not to make any eye