You were walking into your closet, wanting to chose the right clothes for today. You were going out for a dinner with Suho and his wife, and your husband Baekhyun of course. But you just really didn't feel like going. You also knew that you couldn't hide yourself from the outside world forever but you just didn't feel ready yet. but you didn't want to disappoint Baekhyun because he had been looking forward to today for a while now. 

You were just going to try to act normal, or at least the closest to normal you could get and would laugh at jokes and join convesation and hopefully then the evening would be over fast. You already knew you were never going to be able to be your cheerful and happy self but how could you be yourself after loosing a kid just 2 weeks ago? 

As you thought about it you felt your legs getting weak and you leaned against the wall. You had been sad since then, but you had never told Baekhyun why. He had asked before though, but you had always just said that you were processing everything and that you needed some time, but that was not completely true. In fact, this was going to take much longer than both of you could expect. 

What the biggest problem was in this whole situation was that you blamed yourself for this whole accident. It was your fault the baby was gone and it haunted you. If you had been more careful that evening and hadn't fallen down and hadn't landed on your belly than nothing would have happened and you would still be pregnant today, but you weren't. And for you it was even harder than for Baekhyun to realise that the baby was gone. 

Baekhyun had had a very hard time also, mostly in the beginning when it had just happened. It was horrible to see him that sad over somthing you had done but he had always said to you there was no one to blame for this, but you didn't believe him. You knew it wasn't your fault, but it felt like that and that made your heart break over and over again. 

Every night you would cry yourself to sleep. Baekhyun always came home late these days because of his late schedules and that meant you were always alone. When you were alone you had more time to think and also more time to blame yourself. This was pushing you down much further than you had expected and you knew you needed help or else you were going to get depressed. You just needed someone to talk to and someone who would listen to you, and the perfect person would be your husband. 

You were sure that he was the only one who could convince you that none of this happened because of you and that he would understand. He knew how it felt to loose a baby, what did a stupid psychologist know about your problem? You needed someone who you could trust, someone you knew of that he would tell you the truth and at this moment there was only one person you had in mind who was able to do all of those things and that was B