“You don’t understand.” You whined against your friend, Lay, who was sitting across of you. He lifted his eyebrows at you, thinking you were crazy for saying that to him. If course he understood, but that wasn’t what you had meant. You shook your head at him, letting him know you weren’t going to do it and tried to hide yourself behind your book. Lay pulled it down and gave you a serious look. “Come on _________-ah, this is your perfect chance to tell him! There will be a party, everyone will be wasted and you’ll see it’ll go much easier after you had had a little bit of alcohol. And if you won’t tell him then I’ll need to help you with it, and believe me I will!” You frowned at him, biting your lip while thinking about what he had said. Even if Baekhyun would be a little tipsy at that party, that still wouldn’t be able to erase it after you had failed, so you shook your head once again. 

Lay sighed loudly and leaned back into his chair.” Ssssttt!” You both looked to the side and made an apologizing bow towards the lady that was sitting behind the desk. You focussed yourself on your book once again and were convinced Lay was doing the same after being scolded. But it only took a few more minutes before he pulled your book from in front of your face again and put it closed onto the table. “You have to tell him.” There was something in his eyes you didn't understand, but you couldn’t make out what he was trying to say with those cute eyes of him. Even though Lay was your friend, you didn’t seem to know him well enough for that. There was only one person in this world who could tell you anything without using any words and that was your best friend Byun Baekhyun. “And I’m telling you I shouldn’t. I never should’ve told you in the first place, you can’t stop talking about it ever since you know it.” 

He rolled his eyes at you, as if your accusation was completely out of place. “That’s because I’d think the two of you would make a perfect couple.” That was exactly what you thought, but how could you know if that was how he thought about it as well? Baekhyun was one year older than you, he could date a senior if he wanted. He was great looking and you didn’t think of yourself you were so pretty. You just had had the luck your parents had already been friends before the two of you had been born and ever since you had been friends with him. Then you had become best friends and then a few years ago you had begun to have different feelings for him. You liked him so much, everything he did made your heart flutter. You knew it was wrong to have these kind of feelings towards him because he was your best friend. So you couldn’t let him know you had these kind of feelings for him, not if you wanted to keep his friendship.

Just the idea of loosing him made you want to cry. You’d rather have Baekhyun in your life as a friend than that he wouldn’t be in your life at all. You were sure that if you’d tell him about your feelings he would turn you down and things would become awkward in between the two of you, you couldn’t let that happen. If you would lose him then you wouldn’t know what to do with yourself, so you told yourself it was better if you’d keep your secret to yourself. But then Lay had gotten it out of you a week ago, and ever since then he had been trying to convince you to confess your feelings to him. You had no idea how he could be so sure about this. You and Baekhyun were both a part of your groups of friends and if you confessed there would be a chance that would all fall apart. Another reason why it was a bad idea for you to tell him about how you felt. You could tell so many reasons why you shouldn’t do it, but only one why you should, but still that one was weighing as much as all those reasons who told you that you shouldn’t. 

“I’m not going to confess to him Lay, it’s a really bad idea. The fact that I’m wasted is not going to chance my opinion.” You said moody and Lay sniffed at you while shaking his head. He always seemed disappointed when you turned down his offer, you had no idea why he always reacted like that. You opened your book again, looked up the right page and started to read again. For the first time in an hour you had been able to shut him up and finally you could try to find the information you needed. “If you won’t tell him maybe I will.” Lay suddenly said and you dropped your book while staring at him with big, furious eyes. “Don’t you dare Yixing!” You said, a little too loud since the lady behind the desk stood up from her share and shot the two of you an angry look while pointing at the door. “You two, out!” She yelled and you shot your friend a glare who apologetic bowed his head at the woman. You left the book on the table, took your bag, swung it over your shoulder and speed walked out of the room. 

“__________-ah, wait! I wasn’t serious!” Lay started as he tried to catch up with you while you walked through the hallways. Because of his fault you had just been kicked out of the library, now how were you ever going to finish your homework? But that wasn’t the thing you were angry about, and he knew that. What if he would tell him? That would even be worse because then it seemed like you had asked someone else to tell it for you because you hadn’t had the balls to do it yourself. If you’d ever get the crazy idea that you wanted to tell him, then you were surely going to tell him about your feelings by yourself. You didn’t need a helping hand, surely when you didn’t want one. “You better weren’t! I know how you are when you’re drunk Lay and I swear to god if you tell him then our friendship will be over. Do you hear me?” It was clear he had noticed your threat was real so he pulled a serious face and nodded at you. You let out a deep breath and tried to relax and let go of your anger, but you weren’t there just yet. 

The two of you were staring at each other without saying anything when you heard a voice coming from behind you. You turned around and saw Baekhyun waving at you, a ball put under hi other arm. He looked so hot in his soccer uniform while the sweat was running down the sides of his face and his hair was wet at the front and a big mess. These were the moment you wanted to run up to him and hug him, but instead you just smiled at him and waved back. One of his team mates ran up to him and began to mess up his hair. They laughed at each other and after giving you another look he turned around and ran back on the field. You could look at Baekhyun playing soccer all day long, you could actually look at him doing anything all day long, as long as you could look at him. “Is he picking you up tonight?” You jumped a little when you turned around and noticed that Lay was still standing behind you, you ad completely forgotten about him. 

“Uhm, yeah I think so.” You mumbled and looked back at the field to look for Baekhyun number four on any of the backs. Lay chuckled at you and began to walk away. You gave his back one last stare before running after him so you could keep up with him. “He doesn’t want to drive himself because he thinks he’ll drink too much so I have to go with him to drive him back home.” You explained and actually it made you sad that was the reason why he took you with him. You wished he’d take you with him because he wanted to introduce you to all of his friends, proud because you were his company. “Then you should make sure you’re not going to drink too much yourself, because then you’re both stuck there.” He joked and you shot him another glare, which only made him laugh harder. It would all be fine, you’d just have some fun tonight with your friends. You and Lay were on your way to the school gate when you suddenly felt a hard punch against the back of your head. “Aaahhh…” 

You reached out your hand to touch the back of your head and turned around to see what the hell had hit you. The soccer ball was laying at your feet and you stared at it while trying not to cry. “Are you okay?” Lay asked carefully as he tried to look at your face which you were holding towards the floor. You watched how someone picked up the ball in front of you and then stopped in front of you and leaned over. Baekhyun’s worried eyes appeared into your sight and your eyes widened while pulling your head back in shock. “_________-ah, are you okay? We didn’t mean to hit you! It was an accident. Are you in pain?” You felt him pull your hand away and replace it with his own. You blinked your eyes while looking at him and he clearly looked at your face while putting a bit of pressure onto your head. You hissed when he found a sensitive spot and he gave you an alarmed look. “I’m so sorry. You should put some ice on that bump when you get home.” The way he touched you, with so much care made the blood stream towards you cheeks. You told yourself not to blush, but you just couldn’t help it. 

“You should tell me if you can’t go to the party tonight. We can do something at your place, it doesn’t really matter.” You could feel yourself blush even more when you looked into his eyes and saw true worry inside of them. The thought to spend some time with Baekhyun alone today instead of having to share him with other people. But you couldn’t do that if you wanted to keep yourself to do the you made to yourself. So you smiled at him and shook your head. “It’s fine Baek, don’t worry about it.” You said and he smiled at you while nodding. He checked your head once more before taking a step back and giving Lay a nod, as if it was just now that he had noticed him. “I’ll pick you up at nine then.” He said and then he walked off again, back to his training. You watched him walking away and you sighed deeply before turning around to your friend. Lay gave you an accusing look before shaking his head and walking away. “What?!” You said while going after him…

It was five minutes for nine and your heart was beating like crazy. Only five more minutes and then Baekhyun would be standing in front of your door to pick you up. Just like every time you went somewhere he went, you had made sure you were looking on your best and you just