You couldn’t stand this anymore, the waiting was driving you crazy. He had told you that he would call you, as soon as he had figured everything out, but that he had needed some time to think about this. Which you understood, hell you wanted him to think about this because you didn’t want him to regret the decision he would make. If he would have decided as soon as you would have told him then this relationship wouldn’t have been healthy. But you wondered what was still healthy about it after all, since how things had turned out. You felt so bad and so guilty, it was eating you from the inside. But you didn’t regret telling him, he deserved the truth, he deserved to know. You had no idea how you could make it up with him, but to say that you were sorry and that you had been wrong. It had been a horrible mistake and you regretted it more than anything you had ever done before. 

As you stared at the phone that was lying on the table you couldn’t stop but biting your nails. You were so nervous and scared, what if this was the end of your relationship. You groaned as you let yourself fall back against the pillows of the couch and tried to distract yourself, but you couldn’t think of anything els. You had done a horrible thing and you couldn’t turn back time and undo it. You had been such an idiot, but you had felt lonely and you had felt alone, so you hadn't been thinking straight. Besides, if it hadn’t been him then you were sure that things would have gone differently. Yes, you had cheated on your boyfriend, and you felt miserable. You had used all your courage to tell him the truth, but you had seen the hurt inside of his eyes and that you had broken his trust. But the worst thing you had seen inside of them was understanding, as if he thought that it was all his own fault. 

It was true that one of the reasons because of your slip was that he wasn’t home much and that you were alone most of the times, but that wasn’t an excuse. The fact that you cheated on him with Chad probably made it all even worse for him. Chad was your high school crush, but he had rejected you when you had asked him to be with you and he had never made it seem as if those feelings had ever changed. And at the moment you had tried to get over your first love, Baekhyun had been there and slowly you had fallen for him. But Chad had fooled your with his charms and he had made you do something you thought you would never do. Baekhyun had tried to hard to help you to get over him, an then you did something like this in return? Your eyes watered as you thought about it, and you actually felt horrible, you were a monster. How could you do something like this to the person you loved? 

But what were you going to do now? You had told your boyfriend because you had wanted to be honest with him, because you thought he deserved to know what had happened and you had lashed out at Chad for dragging you into this, though it wasn’t only his fault but it was yours as well. But now you were here, sitting on your couch, crying and staring at your phone, waiting for him to call you. If he would even ever call you. You wouldn’t be surprised if he would never want to talk with you again, and if he would never want to see you again. You would understand and you would have to live with it, but you would never be able to forgive yourself for your mistake. You couldn’t believe that you had ruined your relationship because you had once wanted to be with the guy you had never been able to get. But you had forgotten a very special detail, which was that he didn’t want you and that you would never be able to get him, ever. 

Besides, Chad wasn’t the guy you wanted to be with anymore, there was nothing to choose. You loved Baekhyun now and he was the only person you still wanted to be with, there was no one else but him. You wished that he was here right now and that you could tell him that. You were scared to call him, because you didn’t want to bother him and you didn’t want to seem impatient, as if you weren’t able to