Haneul’s POV

“No no no!! Yong Junhyung! Wake up!! You can’t just die like that!!” I yelled.

“You said you’ll create forever with me. You promised me. You stupid liar. Big, fat liar!” I cried.

“WAKE UP!!!” I yelled, shaking him like as thou he was some rag doll.

The nurses pulled me away from him so that I would not hurt him further.

“WAKE UP!! PLEASE!!!” I begged as I cried.

The doctor tried to revive him, but no matter how many times he shocked him, he still gave no responses.

“Junroro! Please! Please!!” I cried, kneeling next to him, shaking his arm.

“Please~ I beg you. Please. I’ll give you two roomful of Coke! TWO!! Or even three! Four!! FIVE!! How many do you want!?” I cried.

“Just… Please.. Anything you say… How can you just leave me like that? We’re not even done talking! How can you be so rude!?” I said.

I cried into his chest as I pleaded.

“He’s back! He’s back! We need to get him to the operating theater now.” The doctor shouted.

I looked up, glancing at the machine. His heart was indeed beating again despite him being still unconscious.

“Junroro, thank you! Thank you so much! Thank you!” I kissed him all over his face.

“Miss, we need to move him.” The nurse said.

“Sure, sure! Just.. One minute.” I said.

“I love you, I love you, I love you. I can’t be inside with you this time, but if you dare give up again, I’ll run into the operating theater to smack the hell out of you. I did it once and I would do it again. I’ll haul Chinese at you and confuse you to the end. No, no I wouldn’t do that. Instead, I’ll cry so much I go blind. Remember you said you want to be the appa Tae Hyun and Ji Eun can look up too? You want to teach them how to rap as well, so in future if they got bullied or got misunderstood by their teachers or whoever, instead of yelling back, they’ll rap. They are going to make such cute rappers. You want them to rap alongside with you too, remember? You have not even taught them how to. Ji Eun can’t even pronounce properly now. And Beast, you said you want a Beast that never dies. But what is going to happen to Beast if their rapper is gone? It’s not Beast without any one of you. So you gotta be strong. You still have so much unfinished work. You’re going to be an amazing rapper. You’ll make it big. Beast will make it big. And us, we’ll be infinite.” I whispered into his ear.

“Miss..” The nurse called out again.

“Yes. Alright.” I said.

“Be strong, Junroro. Please. For us.” I kissed his forehead.

I stepped aside to let the nurses take him away.

“What’s going on?” The other boys asked as I stepped out.

“They got to operate on him.” I said.

 I looked over to find Ji Eun sleeping on Kikwang, Tae Hyun sleeping on Hyunseung and Jace sleeping with his head against the wall.

“Can someone send the three back?” I asked.

“How about you?” Yoseob asked.

“I’m going to wait for him.” I said.

“Are you okay? You look sick.” He said.

“I’m not sick. Just tired, perhaps.” I said.

“Do you want to go back to rest?” He asked.

“No. I’ll just wait.” I said.

“Go downstairs and grab a drink then?” He asked.

“No. It’s fine. I’ll just wait.” I smiled at him.

“Then I’ll bring the drink to you instead.” He said, running off.

While Hyunseung, Kikwang and Dongwoon took Ji Eun, Tae Hyun and Jace back, Doojoon, Yoseob and I stayed behind.

“Thanks.” I said as Yoseob handed me a cup of drink.

As we waited, no one spoke. We were in our own world until loud walking, as thou someone was stomping down the corridor distracted us.

“Can someone tell me why is it that we are always having our MBLEAST gathering here!?” Seungho yelled as he stomped towards us.

“Hyung…” Yoseob pouted.

“Are you okay?” He asked me, his gaze soft.

“Alive.” I said.

“The next time I’m called here, it better be to see my little niece or nephew.” He grumbled as he slumped into the seat next to me.

“Grumpy old man. You hungry or something?” I asked.

“Very! I was eating lunch halfway, and then Kikwang called me! I choked!” He said.

“Someone go grab this panda some food.” I said.

“I’ll go, I’ll go!” Doojoon said.

“Me too, me too! Hyung, come!” Yoseob said, dragging Seungho along.

“I just got here! I’m going to YAH MPFHH!!” Seungho struggled as they covered his mouth, dragging him away.

I laughed at the sight but sighed the moment they were gone.

I don’t know how long has passed but when I opened my eyes again, the rest of Beast and MBLAQ were here together with Jace, Ahjumma, Ji Eun and Tae Hyun. I had been sleeping on Seungho’s shoulder for God knows how long. They all stared at me as thou I were some object from space.

“You’re awake.” Doojoon smiled.

“How long have I slept?” I asked, cracking my neck.

“Quite awhile.” Seungho said, massaging his shoulder.

“Sorry~” I rubbed his shoulder.

“Why are you here?” I looked at Jace and Ahjumma.

“I wanted to come.” Ahjumma said.

“And how could I sleep not knowing if he is out of danger or not. Plus, the kids woke up and were asking for Junhyung appa.” He said, gesturing at the two who were leaning against Yoseob and Dongwoon’s chest.

“They fell asleep again.” Mir said.

“Oh. How long has it been?” I asked.

“About five hours.” Joon said.

“You guys don’t want to go back?” I asked.

“Why? You want to chase us away so when he comes out and wakes up the both of you can enjoy some lovey dovey moment together?” Seungho asked.

“You know I don’t mean that way, but I don’t mind…” I smiled.

“Don’t worry. We’ll disappear the moment we know he is well, okay?” He winked at me.

I stuck out my tongue at him. Ji Eun and Tae Hyun woke up after awhile, they climbed all over me, bombarding me with questions as to what happened to Junhyung. All I could say was that he is unwell. They surprisingly did not complain that the wait was long. They just played with the others while waiting.

An hour or two passed and everyone was starting to feel restless. I guess everyone wanted to barge into the operating theater to see if he is okay or not, but luckily the operating lights went off, stopping us from doing it.

As if on cue, we all stood up the moment the doctor appeared. He seemed a little shocked seeing such a crowd.

“Is he okay?” I asked.

“He’s fine. We got the bullet out, but although it wasn’t his heart, it was still pretty near.” He said,

We all nodded, smiling in response.

“Thank you.” I said.

“You’re welcome.” He bowed, walking off.

“Ah, wait!” I called out for him.

He turned over, looking at me.

“Where’s the… bullet?” I asked.

I could feel all of them looking at me from behind.

“What?” The doctor asked.

“The bullet. Can I have it?” I asked.

“Erm… Sure… I’ll have the nurse clean it before passing it to you.” He said.

“It’s alright. I’ll clean it myself. Just hand it to me.” I said.

He looked at me weirdly before stopping one of the nurses. He took the bullet from the plate, wrapping it in a paper towel before handing it to me.

“Thanks.” I said, looking at the bullet.

“Why do you want that?” Jace asked.

“A reminder.” I said.

“What?” He asked.

I shrugged my shoulders and kept the bullet in my pocket before heading towards Junhyung’s room. He was asleep peacefully, as thou nothing happened and he was just sleeping.

Everyone found a comfortable corner in the room and settled down, keeping ourselves busy while occasionally glancing over to see if he has waken.

“Appa?” Ji Eun called out suddenly.

“Yea, baby~” I asked her as I played a random game on my phone.

“No, Umma. Not you. Appa!” She shook my arm.

All of us stopped what we were doing and turned over to Junhyung.

His eyes were half open. He was smiling through the oxygen mask, his arm raised halfway, waving weakly at us. I dropped my phone and rushed towards him.

“Are you awake? Can you hear me?” I asked him.

He looked at me before giving me a small nod. I slammed the emergency button while cupping his cheeks.

“Thank you for staying alive. Thank you so much.” I whispered, planting a soft kiss onto his forehead.

The doctor came in to do a check on him.

“He’s good. But he needs to stay calm during this healing period. It is normal for him to feel breathless even when speaking. Just keep him calm. Not too excited or too angry. Staying in a good mood is essential for healing thou.” He said.

We thanked the doctor and turned back to him. Tae Hyun and Ji Eun were already crawling onto him. They seemed to know where he is hurt because they were avoiding his chest.

“Appa~” Tae Hyun called out.

Junhyung pulled off the oxygen mask, smiling at them.

“Hi~” He said softly.

“Appa, does it hurt?” Ji Eun asked, pouting.

Junhyung shook his head. She crawled over carefully, planting a kiss on his cheek. His smile was so wide.

“I guess we’re not needed here.” Seungho said.

“Ahh.. Hyung~” Junhyung whined.

“Are you endorsing the hospital? Why are you always here?” Seungho asked.

“Maybe my… manager secretly… did..” Junhyung said.

“If you can kid around, that means you’re okay, I assume?” Seungho said.

He nodded, looking at everyone else in the room.

“Please.. Stop staring.” He said.

No one realized it was the case until he voiced out.

“Who else are we supposed to look at?” Yoseob asked.

Since everyone was around him, I headed for the door as they were talking.

“Lionny~” Junhyung called out.

Everyone turned to look.

“Yea?” I asked.

“Where.. are you.. going?” He asked with a slight pout.

“Just out for awhile. I’ll be back.” I said.

“You didn’t even… talk to me.” He said.

“We’ll talk all night later.” I winked at him before heading outside.

I went to the toilet nearby and took out the bullet. I washed it clean. I looked at the time. It was 4PM. I headed outside quickly.

When I came back to the hospital, they were all ready to leave.

“Where did you go for two hours?” Ahjumma asked.

“Just.. out.” I said.

I looked over at Junhyung who did not seem too happy.

“Tsk tsk~ You got a big baby to settle.” Jace whispered.

I elbowed him in his ribs.

“You guys leaving already?” I asked.

“We’ve been here enough. It’s not us he wants to see.” G.O winked. I cringed a little at his wink.

“Not to be offensive, but how is it every action of yours seem so…” I looked at him.

“Seems like his pigeon folder, right?” Mir said.

“I didn’t say that, but about there.” I laughed, so did everyone else, including Junhyung.

“I’m so sorry, G.O. Maybe it’s your moustache.” I said.

“Fine, fine.” He mumbled.

“Junnie, rest well. We’ll come by again later at night or tomorrow.” Doojoon said.

“You don’t have to, actually.” He mumbled.

“Kicking us out now. Very well! We’re leaving!” Doojoon yelled, but he was laughing.

“Take good care of him.” Ahjumma told me before heading out.

“Appa, bye bye!” Tae Hyun and Ji Eun yelled, running back to give him a kiss before heading back to Jace.

Soon, it was just the both of us.

“So, I finally get to have some time with you.” I said, sitting beside him, holding his hand.

“I would have been happier if you were here with me all the while.” He said softly.

“I’ll be here with you the whole night, what more do you want?” I poked his cheek lightly.

“How are you feeling? Does it still hurt?” I rested my hand lightly on his chest.

“It’s not painful.” He said.

“Wait till the medication wears off.” I laughed.

He did not say anything, but just look at me.

“What?” I asked.

“Where’s my Coke…, Pikachu and… Iron Man suit?” He asked.

“HAHAHAHAHA! Really, Junroro? Really? Is this the first thing you’re gonna ask me?” I cupped his cheeks.

He nodded.

“Your Coke is here.” I took out a small bottle of Coke from my bag.

“This.. is not a… room full.” He said.

“Just this first, is it okay?” I asked.

He nodded.

“But since you can’t drink it now, I’ll drink it for you.” I said, opening the drink and gulping it down.

He looked at me as thou I betrayed him.

“My… Coke…” He whined and pouted.

I laughed at his tantrum.

“Just a sip.” I said, putting the straw at his mouth.

He bite onto the straw, not wanting to let go.

“Come on, puppy. Let go.” I said, pulling the straw out from his mouth, but he bit down hard, shaking his head.

“Junroro.” I said sternly.

He took another sip before reluctantly opening his mouth to let me pull out the straw. He kept looking at it even after I put it away.

“Stop staring at it.” I said, pushing his face to the other side.

“Iron.. Man.. Suit?” He asked.

I pulled out two t-shirts from my bag. One with the red Iron Man amour design, another plain one with just the lighted part on the chest. He pouted at it, obviously unhappy.

“Not.. Like that.” He said.

“Junroro, you’re making my life difficult.” I said.

“Just make do with this, would you?” I pleaded.

He shook his head.

“Please…” I pouted.

He sighed and nodded.

“Then… Pika… chu?” He asked.

“Wait.” I said, running into the toilet.

I peeked my head out after awhile. He was staring at me. I stepped out with my palms over my face in a Pikachu suit.

“Ha… Haha… Ha..” He laughed like a sick grandpa.

“Stop laughing!” I hissed.

“Pass… I approve.. This.” He continued laughing.

“You and your ridiculous requests!” I said.

“Say ‘Pika’.” He lifted my chin.

“What!?” I looked at him.

“Pika~” He said.

“Stop it, Junroro!” I pouted.

“Never… mind then.” He looked away.

He sure knows how to play his game well, doesn’t he?

“Pika~” I mumbled.

He looked over and sighed.

“PIKA~” I said.

He smiled and nodded.

“Again… Again…” He said.

He made me repeat ‘Pika’ so many times to the point it wasn’t embarrassing anymore. At least he is well and alive. I don’t mind having to dance around in that suit.

“What’s… this?” He asked, taking the necklace on my neck into his hand.

While I hunted for his silly requests, I went to a shop to have them make the bullet into a necklace.

“Why are you.. wearing this?” He asked.

“To serve as a reminder.” I said, touching the bullet at my neck as well.

“Reminder?” He looked at me.

“A reminder that today, I almost lost you. Today, you almost lost your life, tomorrow might be my turn. Life does not wait for anyone. Life is short and unpredictable. Who would have known that a simple girl could do something like that?” I said.

He looked at me, not saying anything.

“And, I also want to be reminded that without you, my life is nothing. You threw yourself in front of me to protect me. I would have been dead if not for you. You saved my life, and I owe it to you.” I said.

He shook his head.

“You don’t.. owe me.. anything.” He said.

“I want to look into the mirror every morning and stare at this bullet to remind myself how lucky am I to have you and nothing else matters.” I said.

“Does that mean… It’s like a golden ticket?” He asked with a slight smile.

“What golden ticket?” I asked.

“Like… If I upset you.. You’ll look at it and… forgive me?” He asked cheekily.

“Uh? You’re already thinking of upsetting me!?” I asked.

He shook his head frantically.

“Have I told you I really love this tattoo?” I asked, touching the tattoo on his forearm.

“You do?” He asked.

I nodded.

“Did it hurt to get it?” I asked.

“Pain is… inevitable in any… process. But as long as you’re… doing something you love…, the pain is worthwhile… and can be turned into pleasure.” He said.

I looked at him.

“Deep.” I smiled.

“Example…” He said, pointing to his chest.

“Pain…” He said.

“Love…” He said, pointing at me.

“Equals… worthwhile.” He said.

I looked away, burying my face in my palms.

“Did I… say something… wrong?” He asked, putting his hand on my back.

I shook my head.

“Just… Just don’t ever, ever do something like that again. I.. I cannot lose you again. I’ll just drop dead.” I said.

“You know what… is death.. afraid of?” He asked, wiping the tears off my cheeks.

“What?” I asked.

“Lions… Lions that… Roar… and speaks.. fast paced.. Chinese.” He said.

“What are you saying!?” I couldn’t hide my laughter.

“I told death… My girl is a lion… And she speaks Chinese... that you cannot understand.. You better let.. me go.. Or else.. She’ll wreck havoc.” He said.

“And then?” I asked.

“He didn’t… trust me. But you yelled… And he got a shock.” He said.

“And so?” I asked.

“He hid… behind me, and… pushed me back… to you.” He said.

“Aren’t you scared then? Of lions that roar and speaks Chinese?” I asked.

He shook his head.

“Because… You love... me.” He smiled.

“Full of yourself.” I mumbled.

“Only… for you.” He smiled.

“Oh. Decipher… your Chinese.” He said.

“What Chinese?” I asked.

“What you said… just now..” He said.

“Ni zhi dao wo hen ai ni, dui ma? (你知道我很愛你，對嗎？)” I said.

He looked at me.

“You know I love you, right?” I translated.

He nodded

“Wo hen ai ni. Wo mei you gen ni tan bai guo, dan shi wo hen xu yao ni, wo bu neng mei you ni. (我很愛你。我沒有跟你坦白過，但是我很需要你，我不能沒有你。)” I said.

“I love you very much. I never told you this but I need you, I cannot live without you.” I translated.

He smiled and nodded.

“Wo… Zhi dao.. (我。。。知道。。)” He tried to pronounce.

It wasn’t that fantastic, but not that bad either. At least, I understood him.

“Ni bu zhi shi wo de ai ren na me jian dan. Ni shi wo de ying xiong. (你不只是我的愛人那麼簡單。你是我的英雄。)” I said.

He stared at me blankly, waiting for my translation.

“You’re not just my lover. You’re my hero.” I said.

He shook his head, but couldn’t stop smiling.

“Wo men dou hen xu yao ni. (我們都很需要你。)” I said.

He frowned a little, trying to understand.

“We need you.” I translated.

“We?” He asked.

“Yea. Me, Beast, Tae Hyun, Ji Eun, Jace, Ahjumma, your parents, my parents, your fans, and…” I said.

“And?” He asked.

I took his hand and pressed it against my belly.

“What?” He asked.

“And…” I gestured.

“What?” He asked again.

“Ni yao dang ba ba le, bai chi. (你要當爸爸了， 白癡)” I said.

“I am not… hungry.” He said.

“When did I speak about eating?” I asked.

“You said… Ni… That means you, right? And Chi.. means eat, right?” He asked.

I rolled my eyes and sighed.

“Out of the eight words I said, you decide to use the first and the last to decipher the meaning of the entire sentence? Is this how you understand things? Just putting together what you understand and concluding its entire meaning? Are you serious, Junroro?” I asked.

“But… that’s all… I understand.” He pouted.

I leaned in to whisper into his ear. After I was done, I smiled at him. He gasped, his eyes widened, his mouth opened and the heart rate monitor went crazy with jumping lines and endless beeping.

“I said, you’re going to be a daddy soon, idiot.”

*Haneul's 癡 and Junhyung's 吃 is different. Same pronunciation, but different meaning. One means idiotic/silly/foolish/dumb/blah blah blah~, while another means eat. Just want to let you know but don't bother yourself with it. Chinese is complicating, I know. But it's a beautiful language :) And yea, remember I mentioned before Haneul is Chinese? Here, her proof~ Should she speak more chinese from now on? XD

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Haneul: But since you can’t drink it now, I’ll drink it for you.

Junhyung: *looking at the Ironman t-shirts* Not.. Like that.

 Junhyung: *Haneul in a Pikachu suit* Pass… I approve.. This.

When Haneul speaks to Junhyung in Chinese~