35 | Starting Over

 

[No, Yoona she's not having some mental illness or anything. Rather, she had a traumatic brain injury from the past, that causes all of these visions, voices she's hearing and some migraines that she experienced. Additionally, she had a trauma from all the bad things happened in her life. If Seohyun hasn't mentioned it to you, she got this from her dive in a river. And to be honest, I believe this is all because she can't still get over or can't still accept. She's broken and needs to be fix. I know she's doing it to herself, but it's hard - it's hard when it happened from your childhood up until her teenage years. Imagine how hard it is for her? I really feel pity over my niece. You know what, All that you have to do is to take care of her - make sure that she's always okay if she experience such stuffs again. Talk to her also after she experienced another attack. I believe she can overcome this if she honestly share this to someone close to her heart. Yoona, it's all in your hands now. Believe me, you can make her stop experiencing these visions from the past.]

 

"What if I can't?" Yoona answered, anxiously. Taking a glance to Seohyun on the bed, sleeping, she heaved a sigh. "What if I failed to do so?"

 

[You know, she has never been this so happy Yoona. She always got no care to the people around her. Even if she's with her friends. All of them, they never made her this happy. So rather, they supported all of her decisions. It was a bad decision for them, but at least, they can see she's satisfied with her life. But when you came to her life, you know what's the difference? It's totally a big difference now. The used to be so rebel girl is now slowly going back to her sweet aura. It's like, the old Seohyun is back. She's getting there, don't you know that? Just continue staying by her side. In time, she can get over her past and continue moving on for the better. I want to see a brave Seohyun again, but not the rebel type. But rather, the person who knows the right and wrong.]

 

"Chairman Seo, you sounds like I'm a doctor or psychiatrist, you know I'm just a normal person." Yoona stated, truthfully.

 

[Aigoo, Yoona. I know you can do it - trust me. You're still going to be my in-law, don't you dare fail me.] 

 

"I never wish to be your in-law."

 

[What?]

 

Yoona chuckles quietly. "I'm just kidding. Anyway, thanks for your time."

 

[Wait, I'd like to advise to remind her about her medicine. It's for her to calm faster. She got it always in her handbag.]

 

"Yeah, I know about that but I forgot to hand it earlier. Again, thanks for taking your time answering my questions Chairman Seo. I'm taking care of her, No worries." 

 

[No problem. Just call me if something happen again. I'd like to help. Oh, In Guk - He's being transferred to a much secure ward now. He recently attempted escaping.]

 

"He did?" Yoona frowned, immediately alarmed. 

 

[But like I said, He's being secured now. Nothing will happen like earlier anymore. I will just call you if the police have mentioned anything again. I'm contacting you right away, No worries.]

 

"Okay. I'm hanging up now."

 

[Take care of her always.]

 

"That's not something to remind me anymore. I'm taking care of her, despite my injured arm." Yoona confidently assured.

 

[But Seohyun's condition is much something to take care of.]

 

"I know, I know. I'm hanging up. See you soon Chairman Seo." With that, Yoona hastily ended the call and tossed her device on her desk. She once again look back to where Seohyun is currently sleeping. But this time, she had a genuine smile, as she feels like fluttering - watching her sleep. 

 

Suddenly, the door opens, revealing Mrs. Im, holding a tray of food. She got up and accepted the tray. But her mother refused to give it to her due to her arm injury. Rather, Mrs. Im put it on top of the night stand.

 

"Will she wake up tonight?"

 

"She will, I'm sure of it." Yoona answered.

 

Mrs. Im checks on Seohyun's sleeping face - she can't help it and pout - feeling guilty with what she did. "Omma, you did not do wrong. It should have been me - I should have tell you about her past in the first place. So you would be aware how she reacts to certain sensitive topics."

 

"You know, she screamed her mother. I think it's because of me why she made a mental breakdown earlier. I made her think of her mother? Parents?"

 

"Yeah, it seems the case. Her parents had never been good to her Omma, that's why doesn't really want to talk about it. She hated them. Plus, you scold her - it must have brought her back to the past." Yoona replied, in concern.

 

"Poor Seohyun-ssi." Mrs. Im sighed, looking down to an innocent young girl. She's not so close with her, but as a mother, she felt sad about her past. "It must be hard for her."

 

"Omma, so please... Kindly refrain pressuring her. To be honest, she's not good in cooking. Not to mention, sports. She doesn't act like my ideal type, just like I've mention. In short, she's out of my league. But things are really unexpected, I fell in love with her. I hope you would like her as well soon." Yoona cutely pleaded, pouting in the process. Mrs. Im just rolled her eyes and shrugs her shoulders. Before she just left the room without any words anymore. Yoona stared back at her girlfriend, only then she realizes she is slowly opening her eyes. It made her quickly climb on the bed and check on her. "Hey, you're awake. How are you feeling now?" She worriedly asked her precious girlfriend.

 

"Water." Seohyun lowly answered.

 

Alertly, Yoona reached for the glass of water next to the food and ushered Seohyun to sat up. The girl is letting out such a huge yawn while sitting up. She took the glass and drink it. Yoona is agape, as she watches the latter drinking it non stop until the glass is empty.

 

"Wow. Did you just went for a run?" Yoona giggles, amusingly, taking back the glass and put it back to the tray.

 

"Babe, I'm hungry." Seohyun cutely voiced out while staring to the beef soup, shrimp fried rice, grilled beef and some side dishes around it. Pretty much like a korean cuisine. Her stomach eventually growled as she looked at the tray. 

 

Yoona chuckles hearing her girlfriend's words and stomach. Picking up the tray, she opened the stand under it and place it between Seohyun's legs. The younger girl did not say anything anymore as she started to eat - like a hungry machine. Yoona giggles, admiring her girl, even for the fact that she eats a lot. Well, she understands. It's barely midnight now. She can't blame her. Luhan and Sulli who had dinner with her earlier were both worried too when they found out what happened. Good thing and both youngsters understands Seohyun's condition.

 

"Aigoo, I think you just beat me as an alligator now." She commented, loud enough for Seohyun to stop and glared at her. "Hehe, I was just kidding. Go on, Boss. I'll just watch you here." She said, awkwardly smiling.

 

Handing the spoon to Yoona instead, Seohyun instructed, "Feed me."

 

"Me?"

 

"Who else, Yoonggator?" Seohyun glared at her.

 

"Oh yeah, of course. I wa just kidding." Taking the spoon, Yoona scooted closer and first feed her girlfriend with the soup. The latter gladly opened and take the food all the way down to after munching on it. Seohyun giggles as Yoona gives her a sweet smile. Heck, it continues on and on, until she's satisfied. Yoona has to go out and bring her a glass of water again.

 

"Whoa, your mother is really good at cooking, Babe." Seohyun said, as she handed Yoona the glass back again. She had a satisfied burp and giggles afterwards. "I feel like I've tasted a food from a five star hotel."

 

"Of course, Omma used to be a cook in one of the hotels here in Seoul, You know." Yoona beamed, sharing such stuff.

 

"No wonder." Seohyun sighed, as she suddenly pout as well and looked down to her lap.

 

"Wae?"

 

"I don't even remember how my mother cooks. It's a sad truth."

 

Yoona frowned, upon hearing the girl's confession. "Is this - Is this the reason you had a breakdown earlier?"

 

"No. Something just came up to me and made me remember everything my mother did to me. She's a good mother, but it's not enough for me to call her she's really like your mother. She's strict, easy to get mad if I commit a mistake and sometimes... she will force me something that I don't like to do. I know she's only force as well because of my father, but if she loves and care for me, I think she wouldn't do it, right? I feel like she had never loved me. Like when I was engage with Donghae. She really insist to engage me with Donghae." She paused and looked at Yoona in the eyes. "Before wedding day, She locked me at a dark basement. All I did that day is to cry and cry, and eat everything she will send to the basement." Her eyes watered, but she quickly wiped it off.

 

"No, it's okay Hyun. Let it out. Tell me something about her more, then." Yoona reaches her girlfriend's cheeks and wipe it the tears for her instead.

 

"You know why she did it? To ensure that I won't be escaping until the wedding day. That's the worse part she did to me. I swear, if not for Uncle Leeteuk, I would have been married. Uncle is so kind and help me get out the ceremony before I could tie the knot with Donghae. Of course, my mother opposed to it. No, it's not only her - it's also my father - because Uncle and my father are siblings. But Uncle still insist. He brought me home and never brought me back to my parents' house. My Grandparents are against to the cancellation of it as well, but when Uncle proposed about a business I have no idea what, my Grandparents seems to like it. Until then, my parents never tried to contact anymore. As if, they're happy I'm out of the mansion." She continue to shed tears, while she also help Yoona wiping them off. "I think the only thing that is happy in my life is when they brought me to the beach. It always reminds me of my birthday. I was five that time when we celebrated in the beach. It's only the three of us, happily running around the sand - making sand castles and chasing each other. As if in the world, it's only us. That's the last thing I remember that is happy from the past. The rest, they're full of... " She couldn't continue her words anymore, as her chest got heavy again. And right then, she throw her arms around Yoona's neck, crying once again. "Yoongie... you're only my family now... I hope you won't change your heart to me. Please, don't push me away like my parents did to me... Promise me... you won't ever leave my side..."

 

Yoona can't say anything but a reassuring nod. She held her back, rubbing her continuously. Comforting her like she usual does to her. She wouldn't be like her parents - never. However, she still thinks Seohyun needs to open up also to her parents. To be able for her to leave the past, she has to accept it and forgive them. In this case, this will set her free. And hopefully, all the visions and she can hear will stop. But it's not going to be easy. It needs time. And she hope that would be soon.

 

As Seohyun finally calmed down again, she chuckles, pulling back from the hug. She find it funny, but at the same, it's making her chest light. As if, sharing it to Yoona is a good advise, other than keeping it in. She cupped her cheeks and embarrassingly said, "This isn't suppose to be the situation - me being like a sick person, which it should be you, Babe. This is a bad thing, right?" 

 

"Nope. It's not." Yoona giggles and fixed her girlfriend's hair. "It's nice to hear you sharing all of these - don't you know that?"

 

"Chincha?"

 

Yoona kissed Seohyun's forehead gently and whispered, "Chincha. So from now on, you can't keep it from me. From now on, you should share it. Everything that is making you like this. So after this, you feel good again. My Seotiger is back again. Araso?"

 

"Yes." Seohyun answered lowly, feeling so lucky to have Yoona by her side. It's really different if she's sharing it to someone she wished to be by her side always. It felt so great and it always made her smile after the breakdown. Yoona is surely her hero - isn't she? "I love you, Yoonggator." She stated sincerely.

 

"I love you too, Boss Seotiger." says Yoona softly, capturing her girlfriend's upper lip. She pulled back and flashed a genuine smile.

 

Seohyun couldn't hold it and pulled Yoona again to kiss her deeply - which caused her to fall back and Yoona on top of her slightly. They pulled back giggling and rubbing the tip of their noses momentarily.

 

"I'm glad you trust me on this, Boss." whispered Yoona as she peck lightly to Seohyun's lips. She keeps on doing it while they're conversing.

 

"I did not fall to a wrong person - didn't I?"

 

*smooch*

 

"You did not. You did a good and perfect choice, Boss"

 

*smooch*

 

Seohyun giggles at Yoona's actions. But she liked it anyway. "I did a good choice choosing an alligator."

 

*smooch*

 

"Speaking of alligator, Should I bring baby Yoonggator to the office?" Yoona asked, giggling before pecking at Seohyun's red pair of lips.

 

"Why?" 

 

*smooch*

 

"Because I want everyone to know in the office that we have a baby now." Yoona answered sheepishly.

 

*smooch*

 

"Aww, so you're now going to tell it to the world?"*

 

*smooch*

 

"I will be back Monday, Boss. Why not? Besides, the commercial is spreading, don't you think I still can deny it?"

 

*smooch*

 

"And about tomorrow."

 

Yoona stopped from kissing Seohyun's lips, as she stared at her with her obvious concerned look. "Yes. I guess I couldn't stop it anymore. I have to tell Jessica."

 

Seohyun kisses Yoona's lips this time. "That's my girl." As she felt proud over her. She wrapped her arms arond her neck and was about to pull her down when they heard a knock - Yoona's face is inches away from her. Both have their eyes to one another.

 

"Yoona, is Seohyun awake now?"

 

"Your mother?" came Seohyun's soft voice.

 

"Yeah, obviously. Um, hold on." Yoona quickly sat up. But Seohyun also did.

 

"Wait, can I talk to her?" The younger girl stopped Yoona through her hand. 

 

"Wae?"

 

"I want to apologize with what happened. And my lies." Seohyun answered instantly. But before she could leave the bed, Yoona stopped her this time. 

 

"No need. I already explained what happened and she understands your condition. For now, stay back. You have to rest." Yoona explained, determinedly.

 

"But--"

 

Yoona muffled her girlfriend with a quick kiss. "Don't be stubborn, Okay