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Red Skys and Royal CardsHey, so if this is hard to read since it's tiny, you see those A's at the top, yeah those things, use those to make the font larger by clicking on on of the bigger A's and you should be good. Sorry for the small print, not sure exactly how to fix it right now other than this option.
Kris’ POVAs I sat on the railing of the roof looking out over the school, I couldn’t help but think back on the time I have been here. My body has already adjusted, about an hour ago I felt my whole body relax and I gained full control again. Over the years with Tao, I’ve had the most exposure to this side of his power. And while I still hate it, my body is able to adjust to time much faster than the others.
My feet hung over the side of the house as I let the wind blow past me. A heavy sigh escaped my lips as I let my thoughts run free through my head. Things have changed, more than I ever imagined they would. I never thought things would turn out the way they have.
I never thought that Sky would actually keep her word so well. Never thought it possible that she would be this kind to us and not react like other Dealers would. I thought it impossible that I would ever feel anything but hate towards my Dealer, but with Sky I have feelings I never thought I would feel again.
And it isn’t just me that are having these feelings show themselves once again. It is affecting all of us and I’m starting to give in a little to it, and that isn’t really a good thing. Rational thought doesn’t mix well with these emotions and I need that rational thought back.
I can’t let my emotions guide me, not when my life is what gets affected. I’m a Warrior, nothing will change that and if I let myself feel these emotions, it will only hurt more when Sky is gone and I have to shut everything off again. To forget about her and move on to serve another Dealer when the time comes, that is going to be hard if I act on these feelings.
I know just as well as the others that any feelings we have towards Sky will only make it harder for us to let her go when this is all over. At the end of the day, we are still Warriors who are bound to serve the Dealers that own us until we are destroyed or are never found. This is our fate for all of eternity and we can never lose sight of that reality.
I can’t find any fault in my feelings for Sky, and I know they are only going to grow but I do worry about what will happen when she is gone. Strong emotions, or emotions in itself, are not things to be messed with and once the “seed” is planted, it will be hard to get rid of. If ever Sky finds a way to affect any of us emotionally, or the day she falls in love with another Dealer and has a family, and when she dies it will be so hard for us to overcome and recover from.
Emotions shouldn’t be messed with and are rather destructive. Take for example when my brothers found out that Tao was supposedly dead, they couldn’t deal with the emotions that it brought on. Destruction and devastation was the outcome of that event.
Imagine what the loss of the girl we loved would do to us?
And matters just had to be more complicated just for what we felt for her. Things couldn’t have just been as simple as us falling for her. Simple emotions could be hidden if we feel like it. But no, this was more complicated than that, even more than it should be.
Not only do almost all of us have strong feelings for our Dealer we also had to be double bonded to her. A bond that could never break; a bond that should not exist. Double bonding with Warriors almost never happens, first off Dealers just don’t know how to do it and if they do they are not going to even bother it because it will be harder to destroy your Cards since it will cause the Dealer a small amount of pain to break the bond.
Secondly, it doesn’t really increase the Warriors strength and thus, is a nuisance in the opinion of most Dealers. That last part however, seems to be an exception for the twelve of us though. Our double bond with Sky is what caused us to unlock our true Specialties, although we weren’t exactly supposed to have them unlocked by her.
And while this double bond might seem all well and good – and in some ways it was – it had a few downsides. We could feel our Dealers’ high levels of emotions that would alert us to something happening, and while that seems like a good idea, it really isn’t. Her fear, her hate, and her love is all amplified and sent to us. When she falls in love we will all be haunted by those feelings that we would is wish she felt towards us as we serve her.
There is no escape from it.
One point I can’t seem to decide whether it is good or not, is the fact that we can feel Sky’s pain. We know when she’s hurt, where she’s hurt and how badly she is injured instead of it just being a searing, crippling pain. So what would it feel like if your Dealer is in the face of Death? Even with the normal connection that a Dealer forms with their Cards when they first kiss and Claim them, it feels like you are being ripped apart and forced back into your Card. But with a double bond, will we have to experience that same pain our Dealer i
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