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Red Skys and Royal Cards
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  I’m a stubborn, hotheaded, impulsive and I know it.  I’ve spent years with only my parents and maybe one other person at my side.  I learned pretty young that most people only get close to you to get something from you, in my case it was getting closer to my cousins.  So I had to learn to deal with that, and I did, but because of it I don’t open myself well to others, example would be how I acted towards Lay.

  Taking help is hard when you have to admit that you are weak and actually need it.  Showing you're weak makes you open for attack, and it’s become a force of habit.  I have so many bad habits twisted into my brain that I have had to rely on for so long, that I’m struggling to break all of them and open up to these twelve wonderful boys.

  After my cousins left I had no one.  I hadn’t made any real friends when they were around because most of the kids used me to get closer to them.  So having them gone meant no one had any reason to be around me.  I made my walls and kept to myself and I never had any problems living like that.  But what I had relied so heavily on was what was tearing me away from these boys.

  No matter how I looked at it, unless I could start opening myself fully to these boys, I was going to push them away.  I had to get the fact around my brain that they do care for me and won’t see me as weak when I ask for help.  I need to be able to rely on them as much as they can rely on me.  I want to help these boys the best I can, but that wont work unless they have some trust in me.

  I need to start letting my walls down and let them in.  Sure, we won’t tell each other every little detail about ourselves, but we need to build an actual relationship somewhere.  If anything I learned form the previous incident, it was that the only people I could ever rely on where these boys, they seem to care for me and aren’t going anywhere.  So I need to let them in.  Swallow all my pride, at least around them, other people are a different story.

  Trust is earned and these boys have earned my trust, so it’s time I give it to them.

  I tried to shift a little, though it was made painfully clear that I wasn’t going to get to do that.  I was sore everywhere and the now bandaged gash on my back felt like it was being stretched as I moved.  Note to self: no moving.  I looked around - that was currently possible because my head was resting on my arms in front of me.  I was on top of the bed; the covers had been stripped so we could get the bloodstains out of them.  I had my feet at the head of my bed and my head resting at the foot of my bed so I could face out at the boys around me.

  The boys sat themselves around my bed on the floor and some in chairs, all where I was able to see them if I moved my head a little.  It wasn’t crowed exactly, but since I didn’t have a wide range to view everyone, they had to move a little closer together.

  Lay was sitting as close as he could to my bed where I could still see him and he could help me in a second if I needed him.  He sat there and just watched me, more closely than the others did.

  “I’m sorry about earlier.”  I said to him.  I felt bad about what I said, I’m confused as ever, and I took it out on him.

  “It’s fine, Sky.”  He reassured me, but it didn’t help ease my guilt by much.  “Really, don’t worry about it.”

  I sighed, “Are you sure?”

  He smile warmly at me, “As long as you are fine, nothing else matters.  So please, don’t beat yourself up about it.”

  “He’s right, Sky, it isn’t all on you.  We should have stayed, even with you telling us to go.”  Suho spoke up, “We had the choice to stay and we didn’t, so don’t blame yourself alright?”

  “I guess.”  I muttered, but let the topic drop.

  We stayed silent for a while; I watched the boys and they in turn watched me.  A few fidgeted as they sat in the silence that was starting to get really uncomfortable.  Baekhyun finally broke the heavy silence, “What you did was stupid, in case you weren’t aware.”

  I laughed softly.  Yes, it was pretty stupid.  Letting myself get hurt is probably one of the stupidest decisions I’ve made, but I wasn’t really thinking at the time.  “I’m aware of that fact, but thank you for pointing it out again, Baekhyun.”

  “What happened to you could have been a lot worse and you could have died.  You understand that, right Sky?”  D.O added.

  “I know, but it didn’t and I’m healing now so we will take it day by day and I’m not going to let it happen again.”  Yeah, no more purposing getting hurt, it was stupid the first time and I already realized that the boys got crazy when I got hurt and I don’t need them worried or upset anymore.

  “You’re not going out of our sight for the next few days.”  Chanyeol commented, “You’re still hurt, and it will be easier to get more hurt on your own.”

  So long as I still have some time alone I see no reason why I can’t bring them around with me during the day.  Just because I’m injured doesn’t mean I can’t still go to classes, I just won’t be able to participate as much as I hope to.  “That’s fine, but give me a little space at home and not all of you can be with me all day.”

  “If that’s your only conditions, then deal.”  Xiumin said, “But Lay is with you no matter what.”

  The others all nodded their heads in agreement.  I understand why Lay has to be with me and if they all thought it was a good idea, then so be it.  Lay seems to know what he is doing medically so it might be a good idea that he says around in case anything happens.  Other than having to have Lay around should I rotate the o

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With how crazy the world is right now, my updates are slower. I will not abandon this, please have patience and I promise to update again soon. Stay safe everyone please. Many Blessings, Wynter (8.20.20)

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ShawolBlinger4life
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Chapter 176: Still reading this in 2024! Hope you are doing well
YEOLLIEZEL
#2
Chapter 176: I am an avid fan of this great story. I am still waiting for an update even after almosr 3 years which means this is a very very great story 😊
poprocksgum
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Chapter 176: it’s probably my 10th time or something reading this. Been missing sky and her warriors 🥹 i hope you are well!
soshi16
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Chapter 176: I re reas this nth time 🥺🥺🥺🥺
PunkRock123 #5
Chapter 11: Heyy, i dont know if you know already but fhere is a fic that practically plagiarized your entire writing. The only difference is the mc background and the card appearance order. But the timeline and many sentences are the exact same. Here is the link https://www.asianfanfics.com/story/view/1331812/descended-fromthe-stars
PunkRock123 #6
Chapter 174: oh my goshhh, a long time ago i remember i would always check for updates everytime i go on aff. I really appreciate you to update after 2 years and me reading this again after 5 years O.o its crazy!!!
YehetOhorat1994 #7
Chapter 176: hey wynter! ive started reading this fic years ago, as an early teen and now my teen years are almost ending. this story had brought me so much joy and strength, and is honestly one of the best ive read ever!! keep doing what you do, being a nurse definitely isnt easy at this time, so dont rush to put out updates, though we’ll all definitely be waiting eagerly for the upcoming content!! love what youve been doing so far, keep it up ♡ thank you for the hard work you put in as a nurse too, im sure everyone sppreciated it
iorifae #8
Chapter 2: omg this fanfic brought back so many memories 😭 the last time i read this was like when i was 12 (?) , i still remembered this fanfic cause man i was so in love with exo back then even noww~~ , im glad you still keep this story <3
PuffyBunnyIsLazy
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Chapter 23: Hi Wynter~!
It’s been awhile and I hope that you’re doing well. I’ve noticed since all of the craziness that’s been happening that lots of people are reverting back to the things that brought them comfort when they were younger. This chapter reminded me of that and I wanted to say that this fic of yours is definitely something I truly hold near and dear to my heart.

It reminds me of simpler times in middle school and high school and all the times I’ve read this to escape reality. Your story brings me comfort and joy each and every time. Throughout college I’ve been trying to re-read this from the beginning whenever I can (I’m probably on attempt three or four now? Lol), but I never really had enough time to due to school. As I’m trying to read every single chapter again, I just wanted to say how thankful and grateful I am to you for creating this story. I and many others have thoroughly enjoyed it over the years, and will continue to for many more.

You are truly an amazing and talented writer, and it’s admirable how you can create worlds and bring this much happiness to so many people with your words. It’s crazy to see how much things have changed (for EXO) since the beginning chapters, but that’s just part of life haha. I sincerely wish and hope you’re doing well and that you’re taking care of yourself. Much love <3