My Apologies
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i apologize for taking a few days to update, and i'm going to go ahead and apologize for how slow updates might be for a while. i'm not really sure how to explain it, but.. like, i don't go to school and i don't have a job so i have from when i get up to when i go to bed to write (and draw / also i usually stay up thirty/forty hours before going to sleep, so that's a lot of time that i could be using to work), but ive been so.. stressed? drained? im not really sure, even when i sit there and try to figure out what's wrong. i've got a huge to do list (that i'll post below) involving drawings and writings, and i'm trying to get myself to do everything, i've even forced myself to not get onto tumblr or dA and barely youtube and aff to try and get myself to focus, but i'm still taking forever. i've been so emotional (mostly really, really extremely angry and depressed) and even self-destructive lately, but dom hasn't called for a therapist and just alkjghfdjkhl. and i've still got that stomach thing going on and it's getting worse, but the doctor hasnt called back and :(( i'm really letting go and everything's becoming a burden and it's becoming a little difficult to get my words out for writing even though i'm trying to get everything on track and trying to get my together, but i just.. i dunno, honestly..
and to show im not being lazy or anything, here's my to do list (copied and pasted from the document file saved on my computer):
vmin ;
i. "you accidentally chained your bicycle to mine and now i can't leave without you coming back" tumblr prompt
ii. vmin au about Jimin being bullied, and Tae being one of the bullies, and then he falls for him... He doesn't need to bully him" tumblr prompt
iii. akatsuki no yona!au
iv. " you see me climbing onto the ledge of the my window on the forth floor and tries to stop me from doing anything stupid but actually this is the only place where wifi works i'm not afraid of heights but you look pale do you need to lie down " tumblr prompt
v. " yesterday night I was 100% sure that this was my car and climbed into the backseat and slept because i was too drunk to drive. when I woke up oh yeah this is nothing like my car and a stranger is driving it how can he not notice me " tumblr prompt
vi. city in the sky!au | half vmin!cen half ot7!cen |
vii. scene in you were gentle blue and i was fiery red (together we were pretty purple) tumblr request
viii. "Every time I get in a fight you patch me up but now I'm the one patching you up after you tripped on thin air." tumblr prompt
ix. universe gods!au (***WORK IN PROGRESS***)
x. part three to angst
xi. fluff loosely based on jimin filling out taehyung's profile
xii. club!au ; taehyung owns a popular club, jimin's a popular club rat that decides to visit taehyung's club when he goes to daegu ; inspired by and to be lightly based on jay park's mommae
assassin!au ;
i. seokjin character chapter (***WORK IN PROGRESS***)
ii. taehyung character chapter (***WORK IN PROGRESS***)
iii. namjoon character chapter
iv. yoongi character chapter
v. jeongguk character chapter
vi. jinkook relationship development chapter
vii. kookiemon relationship development chapter
viii. sugamon relationship development chapter
ix. jihope relationship development chapter
minecraft!au ;
i. yoonjin intro chapter
ii. kookiemon intro chapter
iii. vmin into chapter (***WORK IN PROGRESS***)
iv. hoseok intro chapter
v. ot7 chapter
vi. fillers
soul eater!au ;
i. vmin intro chapter
ii. kookmonseok/bro!namseok/kookiemon/junghope intro chapter
iii. yoonjin intro chapter (***WORK IN PROGRESS***)
iv. ot7 intro chapter
v. fillers
children of the flowers!au (for sea);
i. jimin intro chapter
ii. taehyung intro chapter
iii. seokjin intro chapter
iv. yoongi intro chapter
v. namjoon intro chapter
vi. jeongguk intro chapter
vii. hoseok intro chapter
viii. ot7 intro chapter
ix. vmin chapter
x. sugamon chapter
xi. 2seok chapter
xii. junghope chapter
xiii. jinkook chapter
freakshow!au ;
i. jimin intro chapter
ii. taehyung intro chapter
iii. seokjin intro chapter
iv. yoongi intro chapter
v. namjoon intro chapter
vi. jeongguk intro chapter
vii. hoseok intro chapter
viii. ot7 intro chapter
ix. fillers
drawings ;
i. dom's tattoo
ii. dom's request (***WORK IN PROGRESS***)
iii. city in the sky!au concept art for better description (***WORK IN PROGRESS***)
iv. universe gods!au concept art for better description (***WORK IN PROGRESS***)
v. redesign all 12 characters for project
vi. design all 30+ (?) things for project
now im not saying i havent been writing at all, it's just im getting distracted-ish and just— everything's a mess, and my parents are starting to drink a little bit (not that much considering we have hardly any money) more again and fight when isn't helping anything
again, im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry and i really really hope none of you guys will be mad at me or hate me for all of this, im really trying super hard to get everything on track and clear my mind ;;;__________;;; i hope this horrible state doesnt last long or, at least, get worse because then.. well im sure my suicidal side would get worse but!! you dont need to worry about that, because i have not been thinking about it for a while because ive been too busy. again, i hope this doesnt last long/get worse and i hope you guys dont get mad or hate me ;;;;v;;;;
with love,
tae
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