When you cry, my heart cries

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 4 hours passed, Seohyun tiredly opens her eyes. Her eyes scanned the surroundings instantly. However unconsciously, her tears suddenly stream down.

Probably because she was reminded by the truth she just learned—the truth that she isn't just the girl for Yoong. There was someone who truly owns him. It hurts, and she isn't even want to accept her fate. How cruel it was for her. From everything she had gone through with her love for a certain doe-eyed guy, this would most probably be the worst she is facing. 

The pain in her head is slowly subsiding, but the pain in her heart isn't going to just disappear. Can she still handle it?

 

Getting up slowly, two hands supported her which took her by surprised. "Mrs. Im."

 

Mrs. Im didn't respond and just supported her to get off from her hospital bed. She tried to describe what's in Mrs. Im's expressions, but she couldn't. It was blank like a bond paper that stares at her. There was nothing word from her as she was handed by a paper. She took it, and then again, her heart shatters. This time, it's a record of Yoong's medical examinations. It was at the age of 20 when he got into a car accident according to the files. 

 

"So basically, Yoong married at the age of... 18?" 

 

"Yes."

 

She was confused. "Wait... how come he knows his childhood experience then? The broken marriage you had with his father? How did he know about that? While it was only Yoojin he doesn't really remember? I am confused." Seohyun asked.

 

"Miss Seo, Mister Yoong is experiencing a severe type of amnesia. People having this type forget everything; it is a total memory loss. They forget their name, events and they can’t even recall who they are before the amnesia. Their identity is somewhat locked up somewhere in their brain and cannot be located as of the moment. However this can be reversed as the brain heals itself but the amnesia can last for days or even years."

 

"And if you may ask, Miss Seo, It took me a year to gain back my son's memory about her family... he just remember his childhood and nothing at all. I just didn't bother Yoojin at all since it was my happiness that my son is no longer remembering her, until one day you came to his life—It isn't like I don't like you at all Miss Seo, but my son is legally married to Yoojin and I think it was only you who will suffer from this truth. What if someday, Yoong will finally remember Yoojin? It'll be most likely you who will end up broken. So before it happens, I advised you to break up with my son. Leave him alone with Yoojin." Mrs. Im said firmly, more like commanding the younger one to leave her precious son.

 

It was too much to handle, the younger abruptly left the room, with tears streaming down her cheeks.

 

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-Cafeteria-

 

"Yoong, what's the matter?" Donghae asked as he sat down across him. He just went back from his daily workout when he stopped at the cafeteria, noticing a friend alone. "It's 8 already, why are you still here?" he added.

 

Yoong stirred up with a weak smile. It has been 2 hours passed since he started to stay up late at the cafeteria. "Hyung, I’m worried. I think there' a problem." he shared softly along with a sigh.

 

"Problem? to whom?"

 

"Hyunnie. I noticed she wasn’t calling me back on time. Like yesterday, and then now. Hyung, I think something was wrong. She seemed to… bother on something?" Yoong's confusions are on top of a hill. As her boyfriend, he knows when will the latter isn’t okay or not. His instinct wants to believe that his girlfriend is indeed having a stress not only in studies but in another way-despite from its constant denials.

 

"Oh come on Yoong, your girlfriend just seem stress with school works I guess. I remember you told me she had a project? She might be having some stress with that. Don't worry, it’ll just pass." Donghae comforted.

 

"I hope so." Yoong sighed

 

"You know what you should be busy thinking today?"

 

"Hmm?"

 

" Yoong! Christmas is coming; don't tell me you don't have any plans?"

 

"Uh... of course I have... but... I still don't know how to do it."

 

"So you have?"

 

"Just a simple dinner."

 

"You are kidding me, right?"

 

"Why would I?"

 

"Yoong, are you a good boyfriend or not?"

 

"What do you mean?"

 

"Damn so slow. What do people do when it's Christmas?"

 

"Hmm... spend time with their love ones?"

 

"Besides that."

 

"Uhmm... buying gifts you say?"

 

"Exactly! You don't have plans on buying gifts for her?"

 

"I didn't actually think about that. Omo! Why I have to miss it?!!!"Yoong groans for missing something so important.

 

"Because you are just too occupied with random negative thoughts." Donghae remarked, chuckling a little.

 

"Right, I need to buy something for her. Yay! Thanks hyung! You’re the best! But wait... I don't know what kind of a gift I shall give." The doe-eyed guy once again sighed out of frustration for being such a fail boyfriend sometimes. Being the man in the relationship, he considers himself as the one to handle it. Moreover, he should be the responsible for any kind of romantic dates.

 

"No problem with that. Just anything you think she'd love to receive from you. What kind of things she's in love with these days?" Donghae asked.

 

"Hmm... besides with books, she has nothing to love anymore. Well except for me, because she love me. hehe..." Yoong grins in proud.

 

"Ugh, too full of yourself. Just give her everything that came to your heart then."

 

"Hmm... what about... dress?"

 

"That's common Yoong."

 

"Tch, I have given a necklace, and a promise ring already... what else is a romantic gift then?"

 

"Romantic you say? Okay... why not… just simple letter? Have you done that?"

 

"It's common too Hyung, hmm... I need some gifts that will be made by me. Oh right! I know now." Suddenly the doe-eyed guy snapped a finger as an idea came in an instant. Without any words, he suddenly left the cafeteria without anymore looking back, as if in a hurry.

 

"Yah! Tell me first!!!" Donghae was left with anticipations.

 

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Lifeless.

 

A girl was seen in a pathway walking towards the next campus. As the cold weather engulfed her, the same time with her heart is starting to get cold. The fresh tears that are constantly dropping are somewhat the only thing she can felt warm. Step by step, she was getting slower as her mind is flashing back to the entire memories she had with a certain doe-eyed guy. The more she let herself reminisce, the more her heart is aching.

The guy she wishes to be with forever would suddenly break her heart unknowingly to the truth, Ridiculous. at once, she wants to feel that it’s so unfair for her part because of the long time she had gone through with her relationship with the doe-eyed guy, however, she sometimes feel Yoojin’s suffering from missing a husband. She once experiences it and she completely understands to be away with your love ones.

She was half worried for her heart and half concern to Yoojin’s situation.

At time like this, she wishes to go back to the start. She wishes to go back when she and Yoong are still this happy, no problems coming their way.

But if fate is really like this, can she just accept it?

 

It's painful to accept, she reminded herself.

 

 

As she walks down the hallway with her two hands under her pocket, she shakes her head to shrug the thought of how cruel it was for her. She tried to brighten up her mood, walking to another empty hallway. Her left hand lifted to wipe all the tears in her eyes, gently as she could. She turned to another way once again to have finally been able to meet students walking pass at her. With a little smile for a respect to familiar passers, she successfully passes through another hallway and got down finally to have glimpse of the cafeteria’s lights. A smiled crept into her lips once she was reminded by Yoong’s voice over the phone earlier.

Walking in a slow pace, she suddenly stopped and brings her phone out. It was lucky and Yoong was indeed calling her for the nth time of the night. Bracing herself, she answered it with a timid voice.

 

“Yoong.”

 

[Where are you now? I’m outside at the cafeteria waiting.]

 

Seohyun take that as a note as she dragged her feet in a fast pace. “I’m on my way.” She breathlessly said.

 

[Okay… I’ll be waiting]

 

She heard him say before she had finally seen his silhouette. But before she could actually near to him, she spotted a tree across right her. She then thought of any game and hides herself there.

 

“Yoong, find me.”

 

[Yes? are you in the mood for games?]

 

“Hmm… what do you think?” she giggles as she watches her boyfriend turning her body around. She keep shut while she witness him desperate to find her.

 

[Yah! where are you? can you just show yourself?]

 

Seohyun smiled bitterly out of a sudden. Those eyes from him don’t seem so bright and she thinks it was her fault. Her plans earlier to prank him were set aside out of a sudden when her tears unconsciously drop once more.

 

Should I just forget what I know earlier and fight for this? What about Yoojin? She thought while she keeps her eyes to her boyfriend.

 

[Aish! it’s getting cold baby!!! Just show yourself.]

 

Yoong whined which never fails her to giggle a little.

 

She remained at her spot, watching in awe to his doe-eyes, nose, cheeks, then down to his lips. Each seconds passed, her heart is telling her to continue. Each seconds passed, her mind is illuminating all the negative thoughts.

A bitter smile across her face, she wiped the tears that are freely dropping as she decided to just show herself.

 

“Omo! There you are!” but as she decided to show herself, the doe-eyed guy beats her. She dragged her heavy feet towards her, and wraps her two arms in his neck.

 

“I thought you were—“

 

“As long as there's a single part of you that needs me, I know I am going to love you, completely.” She whispers, pouring her heart as she tightens the embrace.

Yoong simply smile, returning the embrace he had been missing for the entire day. Oblivious, he whispers… “Let’s talk to mom tomorrow. I have talk to her earlier and she agrees on it.

 

Seohyun slightly node. She slowly pulled over, meeting Yoong’s doe-eyes so close in her. “I’ll be glad… to talk with her with our relationship. But for the meantime, let me give you this night.” She whispers, locking her eyes through those brown orbs.

 

A smile appeared across Yoong’s face as he lifts his two hands, caressing his girlfriend’s cheeks. “You look so tired… are you sure you still want to spend the night?”

 

Shaking her head, the younger answered. “Trust me, I can still handle it. Don’t tell me, you don’t want to spend us the night?” the worries over her eyes seem so visible for the doe-eyed guy, so she change it quickly as she could, showing a bright smile.

 

“Nada. I know you still don’t have dinner. So where are we going?” grinning away, Yoong crawls over his arms over her waist, pulling her closely to him.

 

“Hmm… your favorite French restaurant just nearby?” Seohyun suggested, still showing the best smile she can share for her one and only.

 

“Okay… but wait… “ Yoong noticed. He opens for his bag pack behind and brings a scarf out to proceed on wrapping it under his girlfriend’s neck. “It seems you forget your scarf.”

 

“Uh… yeah.” Seohyuh slightly scolded herself mentally for forgetting her scarf. I left it at Doctor Leeteuk’s office. Should go back. She thought while staring at her boyfriend, fixing her scarf.

 

“There you go.”

 

“Let’s go.” Upon having the announced, the young brunette slides her fingers to Yoong’s right hand, intertwining it with hers—she gently dragged her to the nearest restaurant she and him once had.

 

Unknown to them, Mrs. Im was not that far. The bodyguards was about to chase for their young master, but she decided to let it go. “Let them. Miss Seo already knew, she will leave my son in time. Let’s wait for that to happened.” she had uttered, before she walked back to her way to Yoong’s dorm.

 

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They arrived on time the restaurant opens a jazz music that keeps the entire place romantically at peace. They can see some oldies and few were only students as they find their spot in view of the University’s river. They settle down, call for a waiter and then ordered their favorites.

 

Just a simple dish for two, they had their smiles across their face.

 

“You are starting to love this restaurant huh?” Yoong commented, reaching for the two precious hands from his girlfriend. He gently squeezes it, giving her a warm.

 

“It’s you who introduce me here.” came Seohyun’s response, giving back the doe-eyed guy’s warm hands. Her eyes are not living his as she replied.

 

“Oh. Speaking of mom. I just want to try it out… you don’t mind to have it tomorrow lunch, right?”

 

“As long as you will be there. It’ll be always okay. But are you sure she’ll be there?” knowing Mrs. Im better, Seohyun sure the latter will ditch the meeting.

 

“Honestly, she told me she wants to find a time. I was actually surprised because she had been avoiding the topic the moment she got back.” Yoong shared his thought. It was indeed surprising for him when he heard his mother agreed to his plan for a talk. He thought, it will be a good start.

 

“Well, I think it’s time for a change? Auntie might realized something, isn’t it?” came Seohyun’s quick response, though she knows behind of these meeting. She was quite concern.

 

“Hmm… you have the point. I just wish this will continue. Because… baby, I have to say something.”

 

“What… is… it?”

 

Yoong’s fingers continue to give his girlfriend a warming comfort as he stared at it on top of their table. “Mom… she-she wants to spend with me this winter break without you.” He huskily said as he slowly looked up to meet his girlfriend’s blank stare at him.

 

For a quick blink, Seohyun’s heart slightly aches at that confession. She remained quiet, not knowing how to react as she looked away.

 

“And you know I wouldn’t let that to happen, baby. That’s why; I decided to have a talk tomorrow with her. let’s convince her to have us in the winter break instead. I mean, it’ll be great right? If it was you and me, with my mom celebrating Christmas.” Yoong added with a promise.

 

“Do you think she will allow it, Yoong? She doesn’t like me at all.” Seohyun replied a bit in concern.

 

“Look at me.”

 

Seohyun complied, staring back at him.

 

“She will… I know she will. Because you know why? I wouldn’t care to escape this University with you, if she still insists It.” it was simple, but it came so firm in his voice. She knew it will be really hard for her once she’ll let go. Those determined voice from Yoong isn’t just ordinary, it came from his heart. No matter how she wants to deny it, Yoong is Yoong. He would die if she let go.

 

“I don’t know what to say. You serious?” She instantly pretended not getting the idea.

 

“You heard me. I will be doing it if in need.”

 

“Okay… I get it. Thank you… Yoong.” Seohyun smile a little of gratitude.

 

“Anything for you, you know I—“

 

“Alright, enough. I know it already, hmm? Let’s… proceed… for our dinner.” Doesn’t want to continue hearing his words, she interrupted right in an instant—covering Yoong’s mouth.

 

Their food finally arrived, to which they happily accepted it. They started to eat their dinner with a little chitchat here and there. Occasionally, Yoong would feed her from time to time. In returning the favor, she herself also did as her lovers did. Sweet and simple, but yet, their hearts are filled with joy—though one of them aren’t as happy. In their hearts, there is only one thing—love.

 

Sweet smiles, giggles and quite little chuckles, the two ended their dinner with a cup of tea. Their hands are still there, not even a second they attempted to let go while a singer was singing a love song in front of few costumers.

 

“Aigoo… I miss singing.” Suddenly Yoong mutters enough for his girlfriend to show a raising eyebrow, breaking the silence they build for a while.

 

“I mean you see… it was through music when we know our hearts better. I will be denying if I didn’t miss Professor Kwon too.”

 

Seohyun suddenly remembered something back when she still had this personal training with Professor Kwon. “Since you mentioned Professor Kwon, I think I can show it to you now.” She beams. Though it’s only for 3 months of training, she knows she can do it, especially to a certain special someone.

 

“Hmm? what do—“ Yoong didn’t finished her sentence once he witnessed his girlfriend stood up from her chair and dragged herself to the center stage. A rising eyebrow can be seen in him, to witness her talking with the staff. “What is she doing?” certainly, he was amused.

 

Later then he smiles brightly when his girlfriend took the spot of the singer. With his finger supporting his chin, he didn’t lose his sight to her eyes.

 

“Umm… this is going to be my first time to sing to someone who… have been… melting my heart ever since. And… this is going to be my first time, to sing in front of you here. so… Uh… bare with me.” Yoong giggle a little at the shy introduction of his girlfriend. It was a surprise for him even to see her with a guitar, he thought the latter doesn’t know how to play.

 

Their eyes met and he gestured her to continue.

 

With their eyes lock, the younger says. “This song is called… forevermore.”

 

She started to strum the guitar accompanied by a piano right behind her. She brought close enough for her to start sing the song, as her eyes were locked to his. She was in dazed.

 

 

 

There are times when I just want to look at your face

With the stars in the night

 

She started with a sweet smile.

 

There are times when I just want to feel your embrace

In the cold night

I just can't believe that you are mine now

You were just a dream that I once knew

I never thought I would be right for you

I just can't compare you with anything in this world

You're all I need to be here with forevermore

 

Yoong’s POV

 

I don’t know what to expect, but when she started to sing, her eyes started to sparkle. I could be mistaken but as time passes, tears suddenly appear, soaking her cheeks. I was surprised and wondered why is she staring at me like she was… afraid of something? I don’t understand what I am watching right now. I just remained in my seat, bewildered.

 

All those years, I've longed to hold you in my arms

I've been dreaming of you

Every night, I've been watching all the stars that fall down

Wishing you would be mine

 

She was already sniffling, to my concern but she still continues. The people around me were somewhat moved as I am too. I hold back my tears, just letting all my worries went away and stared at her endlessly.

 

I just can't believe that you are mine now

You were just a dream that I once knew

I never thought I would be right for you

I just can't compare you with anything in this world

You're all I need to be here with forevermore

Time and again

There are these changes that we cannot end

As sure as time keeps going on and on

My love for you will be forevermore

 

The moment the stopped for a while as the music just