You're... the only one for me, up until now.

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7:30.

 

Two men stand on their respective places in patient. Both of them is having the same feeling of anxiety. Both of them are having the same hopes. And both of them are having their gazes down to their wrist watch.

The other one is on top of the resort, while the other one is just down; near at the beach.

 

Candle lightings, roses, gifts and… suits.

 

Just one more guest and they’ll be probably in heaven.

 

“30 minutes left. Why is so long?” a tan guy said and so as the older one…

 

“Jess… this 30 minutes left could be mean for me, if I’ll see you walk in that door.”

 

Two hearts, one goal… Jessica’s heart.

Who will have the chance? Could it be… Yul?

 

“Just as long I can have you back… I will never ever, hurt you anymore Jess. Past is past... I don't want to be blinded anymore. Now that I can have a big chance in your heart... I doubt if the Yul will still be here. It's the new me. I let go of you the last time, no more today. I promise you that.... Hopefully, I can still have a chance in your heart. Let me heal what I’ve done. Let me give you… the real me. The real Yul, that has been so blind from the entire time. It was you Jess…. That I know who will completely make me happy. I hope, you will give me another chance.”

 

Or… Yunho?

 

“Jess… I know we’ve been friends since then, and since then… you really don’t know how much I’ve been feeling this… I will take care of you like what I've been doing today. I will never... let this pass anymore. I don't want to give up on you anymore, since I know... you are cleverer now. “

 

Two hearts, beating for one girl.

 

Who will have his chance to have his happiness?

 

***

 

 

Watching the their friend walk off in their sigh, three girls almost have the same sighs~

 

“I hope Jess will be true for herself.”

 

“You say so Nicole.”

 

“I really can’t believe this though.”

 

Sunny and Fany, almost have the same eyes on Nicole.

 

“Waeyo?” they both asked.

 

"I didn't imagine that both Yul and Yunho are willing to fight for their love for Jessica... whereas... I... I don't know yet." She puased and look at Fany. "You know Fany unnie... Yoong is still... "

 

She sighed.

 

Fany understands and nods to the younger. "Nicole, it was the best decision for you not to continue your heart for Yoong... just like Yul did. I can see that he's indeed really realizing it, after such a long time. He let go for Hyun and decided to just focus for his first love. I can see that... he indeed sincerely love Jessica... so... I think, you should do the same too. Go for another one. We have still the time for this. You may never know that they're just around."

 

Sunny giggles of the statement and literally smack the eye-smiled girl. She wasn't in the place to do it, but she really fined it funny.

 

"Sunny yah! what the hell?" Fany scoffs.

 

"Hehe... I'm sorry, I know it's bad, but I just really help it. Nicole? You also like my Yoongie?"

 

"Yoongie?" Both Nicole and Fany exclaims.

 

"Yes! I am. Did you know that he promises to be with me, unless he'll find another one?" Sunny shared, in beam.

 

"Really?"

 

"And... he even also wants to marry me." She adds, giving Fany and Nicole disbelief stare over her. 

 

"Haha... I am telling the truth. But... unfortunately, actually... It was still a long time ago. He was still young. hehe... " 

 

"Ugh." Nicole and Fany rolled their eyes in annoyance

 

--

 

Footsteps are heavy…

 

Hearts are beating so fast…

 

With only one in mind, Jessica is determined to do who she is going to have a night. A meaningful dinner that could somehow give her an assurance that she will never regret doing it.

It took her a while to sort the things out. Doing this big decision could be mean that is why she wanted it to be this way.

Thoughts are flying like there no place for it, she can only wishes that these night would be meaningful to that person. It doesn’t matter now that she could hurt one of them; she just wanted to do what’s the best for them.

Clearly enough, she doesn’t, but… as she thought of them waiting patiently; she could no longer comprehend it and only wanted to finish it. So that in the end, she could say sorry… or could somehow forgive from what she’s about to do.

 

Breathing in and out, she looked up into the dark sky and mutters…

 

“You let me do this. I just wanted to be happy… I’m sorry… “

 

With that, the sound of an elevator opens, she step out and a smile curled into her lips.

 

With her make-up on, a white gown dress that shows off her back, a high heel shoe, and curly hair being loose on her left, she gradually took more steps forward. More heartbeats she can feel until she got the view outside as she opens it gently.

 

--

 

The sounds of thunder, filling the entire island is getting most of both guys.

 

Pacing back and forth, a tan guy is almost wanted to go to the bathroom; her hair is already messy with the wind blowing him constantly. He’s getting impatient with only 15 minutes left, but he could do. This is his moment and would wait until that guest of him stops by and wanted a dinner that he wishes could last. He won’t just let this chance to go waste, Yunho is sure going to ask Jessica, and she doesn’t want that to happen. He had enough, Yoong… and now Yunho. That just plain ridiculous if he will just allow another man to take her away from him. Yes, he was stupid because he didn’t ask her right away from the last time because of someone that makes him really confused.

Now that it was clear for him, he only wants to make this girl to be happy with him by him side. He only want him to feel the happiness that she wanted for so long. He was sorry, and he wanted it to correct. There’s no more stupid Yul.

 

Moments passed, it was finally the time.

 

“Hey!”

 

A familiar voice echoed his ears as he turned, surprised.

 

--

 

It’ll rain sometime soon.

 

Yunho watches as the hand of his quarter watch strikes one last time, before it says…

 

8:00

 

“Hey!”

 

The same time the clock strikes, a voice makes him smile as he turned his head.

 

--

 

“Jess… “

 

 

 

--

 

 

“You came.”

 

--

 

 

One proud smile.

 

 

One sad smile.

 

--

 

“Yul… “

 

 

--

 

“Yunho… “

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

“Oppa… “

 

 

 

***

 

 

“Why are you here?”

 

An arching brow raised in the tan guy’s face, as if really doesn’t want the person to come.

 

“Oh, I just wanted to ask out too.”

 

“Hmm?”

 

“What time is Jessica arriving?”

 

Yul rolled his eyes. “Anytime soon. Why?”

 

Jinwoon nods. He can’t help but to giggle over the tan guy’s hair. It was almost so undeniable that the latter didn’t even bother to fix it. “You should’ve brought something to fix your hair.”

 

“Jinwoon-ssi… can you leave now? Jessica is arriving soon. I’ll just call if I need something.”

 

“Oh talking about something. Do you want me to get you umbrella? It’ll rain sometime soon.” Jinwoon worriedly suggested.

 

“Nada… get me if it already rains.” Yul answers, sitting by his chair. He took another glance by his wrist only to find it it…

 

8:15pm.

 

“Something wrong?”

 

Yul glares at Jinwoon for having him a little out of time. “Yah! go now! Jess is coming!!!!” he shouted, taken Jinwoon a back, before he complies and walks away the latter.

 

Another frustrating groans appeared by the tan guy as he constantly look around the beach. The light from his side is getting blur for him to see Jessica walking in his place.

 

“15 minutes passed… that means… “

 

 

***

 

“I don’t get this… I really am. You choose me… over Yul?”

 

Yunho asked for the second time. Though he was so happy to see the blonde by his place, he can’t really help but to asked it out.

His happiness just can’t put that he wanted an assurance, which he wasn’t dreaming. That Jessica is indeed by his side, sitting across his table with a smile under it’s big umbrella for them.

 

“Oppa… I can’t just reject you, can’t I?”

 

Yunho chuckle heartedly, he instead poured a glass of wine before answering… “You just really make me happy tonight Jess.”

 

“I’m glad… I am giving you that Oppa.” Jessica answer, fidgeting over her fingers.

 

Handing the glass of wine, Yunho shared a smile together. Jessica grabs the wine and put it down by the table before she turned her sight to her left. The place she got in was more likely a warm one as the older one gives her a jacket along with a blanket. Yunho also places an umbrella to cover them up if the rain starts to pour.

Unfortunately, he can’t really appreciate the effort. Her mind was for someone else. She was worried.

 

“Jess? Are you okay?” Yunho asked, giving her plate of food for the two of them.

 

Jessica smile.

 

“Anyway, uhmm… hope you like this. It’s your favorite.”

 

“Thanks Oppa.” She said and got quite right after.

 

Yunho nods. But as he took notice, the blonde sure is quite for a while now.

 

“Okay… let’s eat then?” He offers, shrugging the thought of the blonde. Later, he knows it’ll disappear.

 

Jessica shoots a smile and gladly took a lead.

 

Yunho’s POV

 

As I give her a cue to start eating, she wasn’t this kind of bubbly girl I expected that would talk more even before we started eating. I don’t know, but I feel her hesitant on coming here.

That beautiful smile she always gives me somehow gives me another reason that she chooses me just because she likes me back. But as the night came really fast, the more I got her real intention.

I keep on glancing at her, making sure that she’s enjoying the food, and I always got caught for only to show me a smile. I thought I’ll be dying with these every smile. It such a smile that would make me really feels breathless. Her hair that is so nicely loosens up over her shoulder is giving her a y aura with her shoulder showing off.

It took me a while to consider her every movement as well; it’s like dancing to me dazedly, on everything she is doing. Every time she swiftly moves to have a bit, every twirl of her hair, her fingers… and a lot more. I took notice all of these until it got me. I was deeply being dazed by her. She was perfect tonight. A total goddess in my eyes is in front of me, having me for her dinner.

I don’t how she makes me feel this way. I feel like such a fool.

 

“Oppa Hey.”

She gently nudges on me, snapping me to reality. “Uh… “ I tried to say something, but I got tongue tied. Next thing I know, she grabs a napkin and tried to wipe something…

 

“You have a sauce in the corner of your lips.” She said, wiping it gently. I froze on my spot as I let her wipe it. The way he gives me a small smile is keeping me flush. I never know I really could feel this in front of her. it was as if, I’ve been fallen deeply in a hole and don’t know how to get out anymore.

 

I keep on blinking away while she still had eyes on me. I wanted to say something, but I guess I got influence by her silence.

 

She keeps on glancing to the beach side which I do think, she’s worried by Yul. The rain started to pour which makes her hug her entire body with her arms. I decided to move closer and took her by her hand. I guess I startled her when she looks at me surprisingly. I smile in response.

 

“I’ll get you warmer.” I said, she smiles.

 

“Thank You Oppa. You’re so kind.” She said along with that beautiful smile once again. It caught me off guard once again as I gazed at her so dazedly.

 

“Jess… you’re so beautiful tonight.” I said, only for her.

 

She giggles. “And you are so handsome oppa. Wait, let’s finish our desert.”

 

I also giggle at her reaction when she notices us already side by side. but I don’t want us to feel more colder with the desert I prepared. So I stood and grabs two cups for the two of us, just nearby our table too.

 

“Tea? Well be more cold if we’ll do deserts.” I said, and she agrees. I poured it to her cup and so I to myself.

 

Sitting back beside her, I keep my hand on her right while she keep her silence. I really don’t know how to start again, but I could myself really wanting to ask her. But, I think I should last this long first, before I can ask her.

Having my thoughts one, I speak for what seem to be a way to have her longer with me...

 

“So… how was the break so far for you?” I asked, sheepishly. She gently look at me and let go of my hand actually when I got it tighten.

 

“It’s good… and fun. Everyone is giving me more reason to stay her longer, how ‘bout you oppa?” she asked.

 

I smile and answers… “The same… especially that you are here with me.”

 

I think I got her, when she looked away and slightly smile by herself. I really couldn’t see her expression, so I move forward my chair and faces her across.

 

“But… it’s not that really good Oppa. I was worried with Yoong. Where the hell is that guy?” I can see her worries over her friend.

 

“Don’t worry much Jess, we’ll find him. Yul’s team is sure going to have a result later, let’s just wait.” I said, cheering her up.

 

She sighed and looks at me. “Oppa… how can I be selfish?”

 

“Eh?”

 

“I was thinking for Yoong for the entire time while you are here with me. I’m sorry about that.” she said and got silent for yet the 5th time? Or not?

 

I didn’t say anything for a minute too, until I asked…

 

“Jess, why are you so shy out of a sudden?”

 

“Eh? I am?” she played innocent.

 

“Yup. Like what are you doing Jess… do you mind sharing it?” I asked out, couldn’t longer see her really quite.

 

She shook her head before a response was heard from her. “No Oppa… there’s nothing to worry. I’m sorry if I’m quite really this entire dinner. I think, I’m just tired... over Yoong’s absence for this day. That is how I am quite.”

 

Suddenly the rain pours too hard, giving us a reason to scoot closer with each other, in prevent for us to get soak. The rain is really that hard that would constantly give us some small drops of water in our place.

 

“It seems that we really can’t stay here for a long time.” she said as she looks at the rain.

 

“No, I think the rain symbolizes, for us to be together for a long time here.” I quickly disapprove. She frowns and looks at me like I did utter such words that means for something.

 

“What are you talking about Oppa?” she asked.

 

“Uh… no-nothing… hehe.” I said, quickly avoiding her gazes. I’m seriously out of my mind. Why did I reject to answer it? I got tongue tied once more.

I just grab my cup of tea to avoid her questioning stares. The warm cup that envelopes my hand, to my entire soul isn’t really helping.

This nervous heart is really giving me a hard time to cope this intention of mine.

 

“But Oppa… I guess… you have something to tell me?” she asked me, which really caught me off guard. I looked up and find her staring at me meaningfully. I guess she really reads me now.

 

Sighed.

 

Clearing my throat, I put down the cup of tea and look at her seriously and sincerely. Few more breaths, I started to move my mouth to speak.

 

“I know… I ask you because I want us to have dinner. But… have you ever thought the reason behind this?”

 

She shook her head. “I just want to grant your request Oppa. That is why I am here.” she really so vague. How can I say that she likes me back?

 

“I see… “ I disappointedly said as I look away.

 

But as I did it, she took me back by surprised again when she holds me. I got a look at her right in instant.

 

“Oppa… actually… I lied.”

 

“De?”

 

Lie, that means… one thing.

 

“It’s not Yoong… it’s… Yul.” She said and I think I was hit by lots of knifes when she said that. If she was thinking of Yul the entire time, that just means…

 

“I’m so—“

 

“Jess… I love you.” I said in a quick, afraid that she’ll reject me with her next words. She got a tear down her cheeks in an instant when she heard me. My heart, it aches out of a sudden. Why is this? I wanted to know. “Jess.. do you hear me? I love you… and… I want to ask…. Do you ever think, of being.. my girlfriend? I mean… I’m asking you… Miss Jung, will you be my girlfriend?” I asked holding her two hands so tight, totally forgetting that I should be gentle asking this to her.

When she mentioned Yul, it got me to think that I should I asked her right away.

 

“Oppa… truthfully. I came here just to say to you that… I am sorry for giving you hope. “

 

Suddenly the thunder strikes again making it harder for me to hear her. “What?” I asked so loudly.

 

The rain keeps on getting hard, which keeps her tears streaming down like a river. I keep my hand on her, waiting for her to say it loudly. I was nearly going to break my tears too, but I keep my plan. I don’t want her to see me cry.

 

Silence~

 

Minutes passed when the rain is somewhat getting clear for us to stay in this position, Jessica speaks once again.

 

“Oppa… I know I’ll be the worst girl for you if I’ll say… it wasn’t you… when I feel like missing someone. It wasn’t you… when I feel like… I wanted some hug for a comfort…. And it wasn’t you… when I feel like… to hold someone’s hand. I’m sorry to say this, but Oppa…. It was all along, Yul.” She said with those teary eyes. Eyes that laid on me, feels really so sorry… and I too. I can feel the pain in me. The pain she had with Yul the last time was no longer there, but hopeful that she will have him tonight. Might be.

I keep my hand on her, as I break down and started silently sobs.

 

“ Yes, I do… like you. But it wasn’t enough to call it love.” she just gives me more pain at the moment. It’s just too pain that I couldn’t looked up to her anymore. Her hold on me is pleading to be release but I want her stay. Just for tonight. I want to feel her hug.

 

“Oppa I’m so sorry, but I guess I need to leave. Thanks for the dinner.” She whispered.

 

I did let go of her hand but I stood to grab another umbrella for her. I got her surprised when she took notice my tears. She wipes it and says…

 

“Oppa… hope you forgive me.”

 

I shook my head and say… “It’s okay… I’m ready for this. I’m sorry for keeping you for a long time here.” I said, but not the real me.

 

“Thank you Oppa.” She said with that warm smile again. I give her the umbrella but when she was about to leave, she receives a call…

 

Ring... ring.. Ring…

 

She picked it up and fined it Yul calling him. I think it was lucky enough that she pick it with loud speak.

 

“Yul?” she answers him.

 

But as I was about to brace myself for her to continue her words, Yul cut her off…

 

[“If I’