“A hotel reservation?”

 

“Yes.”

 

“For what?”

 

“For a celebration of Taemin’s arrival?”

 

“We don’t need to do this.”

 

“I know, but as Taemin’s 2nd mother, I would like to.”

 

“Hyun, this is only a waste of time.”

 

“How that a waste of time? Yoong, the child is so precious.”

 

“Yeah, I was there already. But we can just do this at home. And for two days? I don’t have enough time.”

 

“…”

 

“Fine, we’ll celebrate his arrival but not tomorrow nor this Saturday. You know we have a commitments that days.”

 

“I just do think that we should bond each other. I miss the time when were in Rome.”

 

“I do too, only that… today is different. We cannot tell the time when will be busy.”

 

“…”

 

“Look, I’m sorry I can’t do this.”

 

“I see… you won’t have time for us.”

 

“Yah—“

 

Thud.

 

The nurses outside Yoong’s office surprisingly jump to see the younger girl left the room with a slam of the door. Their ears heard it clearly; the two had a fight and end up the girl left her fiancé. Their eyes followed the disappearance of the girl, clearly noticed that she was not okay.

 

All of them are shaking their heads, disappointed at their favorite residency doctor.

 

“What are you guys doing here?” Yoong’s voice makes all of them disappear in the hallway, walking respectively to their works.

 

The doe-eyed guy didn’t bother, walking out the hospital until he saw his fiancée just right in the sliding door outside, talking to someone. He didn’t bother to call and listen only to her conversation.

 

“Where? What happened? Are you serious? Okay, I’ll tell him. Be there in a minute.”

 

“Who are you talking to?” His girl turned around to see him solemnly.

 

“Yul Sunbae. Yoong, we need to see Jessica unnie.” She said, shaking. Yoong furrowed his eyebrows of confusions.

 

“Yes? What happened?” asked him.

 

“I don’t know the detail yet. Let’s just get there.” Seohyun walked passed at her but he was able to catch her wrist. He didn’t wasted time and calls a cab for them. Later then, they found their selves in the backseat in silence.

 

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Yoong who can’t take off his eyes towards his fiancée took her hand on his. Only to be snapped away. Just earlier, they’re so good taking the x-ray, not until when the younger asked for 2 days of break. Their world darkens and fought about it. He can’t help and be regret at his decision.

 

“Hyun, I’m sorry. Okay, we’ll do the—“

 

“No. Don’t bother it anymore. I don’t think we can do the hotel reservation either. Jessica unnie is not good.” Said Seohyun, interrupting him. He can sense some sadness but he didn’t barge.

 

“I’ll make up to you the next time. Hmm?” his hand squeezes hers, genuinely as he brought it back into his. The younger look at him with a small smile.

 

“Come here.” He pulled the younger into his embrace, rubbing her arms for a comfort.

 

“Don’t worry, Jessica Noona will be fine.” He added.

 

“I hope so.” Seohyun closed her eyes for a while.

 

But Yoong hasn’t done yet. He spoke again regardless to the hotel reservation his fiancée ask for. “Okay, we’ll have a break this Sunday, do you want that?” Seohyun didn’t answer.

 

Yoong who notice the silence bend over to see his fiancée sleeping already. He smiled and went back to his seat, pulling closer her to his warmth.

 

“You know, I can’t believe what you did earlier. You almost .” He giggles reminding himself how he almost gives in to the temptation. His eyes suddenly caught his fiancée’s cleavage to which he gulped in to the sight. “You got ier, and I’m proud to say… it was really good for you.” he added, feeling his heart beats overwhelmed by the change of the younger. “But you should be careful okay? Don’t let other guys fantasize you, or I will be their number one enemy. You know you’re only mine.”

 

Unknown to him, his fiancé isn’t yet asleep. Seohyun smiled in proud to have heard all those words from her fiancé.

 

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Yul wasn’t in his right mind. He keeps on walking from back and forth. His two hands over his head are on it, supporting him while his eyes are visibly creating tears. Cheeks are dirty because of the blood that he got from Jessica’s hold on him earlier on.

His mind was filled with worries, not only for Jessica but also for their baby. He got so shock when he saw that devastating sight of his girlfriend. It hurt much even when he saw droplets of blood in her legs, which commonly say, miscarriage.

 

“Please be safe, please be safe.” He keeps on praying, clasping his two hands against with each other.

 

As he did it, Jung and Kwon Family arrived asking for his girlfriend’s condition. He could simply looked down and tell them that Jessica was currently in the emergency room. He couldn’t yet tell the detail while his girlfriend was there inside.

He sat back at the bench, couldn’t still speak while his family and Jessica’s are almost as the same across him, praying for Jessica’s safety.

Krystal who arrived late with Suzy and Sul didn’t ask anymore at the silence between both of the families. They only sat by the side of the tan guy, comforting him.

 

Less than an hour passed, the doctor finally emerge from the emergency room, looked for Jung Family especially.

 

“What happened to my daughter?” Mister Jung showed up instantly as they were called. Yul was behind, having the same question. Literally, all of the family members are anticipating for any result.

 

The doctor look one by one to Jessica’s family and her boyfriend especially, before his eyes landed to Mrs. And Mister Jung.

 

“I’m sorry to say… “Then his eyes diverted to the tan guy. “Nurse Kwon, you loss the baby… but Miss Jessica Jung was pretty Okay.”

 

All of them were shock and almost immediately, they dropped in their seats, crying to have loss a little angel. Yul and Jessica's angel.

 

The tan guy’s reaction was solemn for a moment, before he attempted to kill the doctor unto his neck. Luckily and Mister Jung and Kwon stopped him from doing so. He almost kicked him also if it wasn’t for their strength to drag him back to his seat.

 

The doctor advised them to stay for a while and Jessica will be off from the emergency room in a while.

 

“Thank You doctor.” said Mrs. Jung, sad at the loss of their little angel.

 

Yul who wasn’t listening keeps on stomping his feet, totally mad from what happened. His overflowing tears can’t be stop as he keeps on sobbing and cursing his disappointments.

 

“I killed my own child.” He cried out, showing his disappointed towards his self. He gritted his teeth, smacking his forehead and even did attempt to scream out. “I’m sorry Jessy. I’m sorry~” he keeps on mumbling his miseries. Hating his own for being such irresponsible. His one week child didn’t even last because of his carelessness.

 

“Damn that car!!!” he screamed and screams while the people that care him and her lot could only stare at him with empathy.

 

“No, this is only a dream. Right? This is only a dream. Krystal, wake me up. Punch me.” he suddenly suggested, turning his body around to Krystal. The younger who is also in tears punched him in his face, causing for him to fell in the floor laughing bitterly with tears in his eyes.

 

“Oppa, it isn’t your fault. You save Unnie. And that's matters most.” He heard Krystal as he get up and eyed the people around him.

 

“Did I? But I wasn’t able to save my baby. I wasn’t able to protect my child! My eldest didn’t either have the chance to see us. To see the world.” Yul continue to cry while laughing bitterly. His heart couldn’t contain the pain that he so wanted to kill his own life.

 

“Mom, dad… I’m so sorry. I’m helpless.” He drops in front of them, looking down. Mrs. And Mr. Kwon pulled their son up, giving him his needed comfort.

 

“Shshshs… it’s not your fault honey. No one wanted this.” coax Mrs. Kwon.

 

“It’s like… I kill my own brother again.” Yul mumbles in his cries.

 

“No not, don’t think like that.” Mrs. Kwon further comforted her son, embracing him tightly while she could simply shed a tear too. Mister Kwon was also bitter, rubbing his son’s back thoroughly.

 

The Jung Family could only stay in their seats, waiting for Jessica to emerge from the emergency room.

 

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Yoong was holding his fiancée endlessly; from paying their fee to the driver to walking inside the hospital. He didn’t let go of her, afraid to lose her hand the moment he would.

 

“What happened?” But he only ended his hold on her when they arrived in front of them. Yul was already sitting in his seat, calmed. He looked up into them and stood to face both of his friends. He smiled bitterly to the younger, placing his two hands over her shoulders; his head hang low as another series of tears flows in his eyes.

 

Seohyun who doesn’t like the feeling, pulled Yul for a hug.

 

“I lost the baby, hyun.” Yul mumbles, under her arms. “Yoong, I killed the baby. My child.” He adds, to Yoong’s surprised.

 

“How’s Noona?” asked the doe-eyed, shocked.

 

“She’s still under medication.” Said Krystal in the side.

 

Seohyun brought her sunbae back to his seat, comforting him further while the doe-eyed stayed in the side of the Jung. Yoong could only shed a tear as well, watching his best friend’s miseries. His eyes averted to the people around, but only the same situation he could see—sad to the loss of their angel.

 

He put his head low while supporting it between his palms and his elbows. He keeps his tears flows like a river there, without creating such sob that would be mean by his weakness.

 

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Later in the night...

 

“Guys, let’s eat dinner.” Mrs. Jung informed after her daughter was already been transferred in a ward. There they are, inside the ward, waiting for Jessica to open her eyes. One by one, they complied and took each pack dinner from the table to have their dinner.

 

Only Yul stayed outside couldn’t face his girlfriend. He was glued to his seat, vague the moment he witness his girlfriend entered her ward. He feels so shame out of a sudden and couldn’t brave enough to walk inside or even greet her.

 

The pain was unbearable when he knows he loss his eldest, much more if he’ll get to see her. It’ll double his pain.

 

“Best friend? Why are you still here? Noona is inside.” Yul looked up with a bitter smile to his best friend.

 

“Is she awake?” asked him in a mutter, lifeless.

 

“She hasn’t, but she will later, said her doctor.” Yoong sat by his best friend’s side, offering him a cup of tea. Yul pushed the cup aside.

 

“I don’t want to drink that.” Yul rejected nonchalantly.

 

“Are you okay, bro?”

 

“I will not be okay anymore Yoong. Never.”

 

Yoong sighed and put the other coffee on the side. “It’s okay best friend. You guys can just do it again. It was luck that Jessica Noona was safe.”

 

“Yeah, we can. But Yoong. The fact that I loss my first child… My eldest… is a pain. The excitement to be a father for my child has died; it will no longer be the same as this anymore.” Yoong patted the tan guy’s back, comforting him. “Can you feel it? I’m so helpless here. I haven’t done more for my child. It hurts. It really hurt so much.” He cried again for the nth time.

 

“Son, can I talk to you?” Yul shake his head towards his father who approach them. He stood, wiping his tears.

 

“Son listen—“ before he could let his father say more words, he dragged his best friend away from the hospital. Mister Kwon mocks a scoff at his disappointments towards his son.

 

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Yoong was struggling to let go somehow being drag by the tan guy.

 

“Hyung, where are we going?” asked him, curiously at the sudden actions from him. Yul didn’t respond until they finally exited the hospital, he let go.

 

“I need some refresh. Can you accompany me?” Yul bitterly asked for someone’s support and his best friend is the only person he knows can give it to him.

 

“Oh, okay. But wait, I’ll tell Hyun first.”

 

“No need for that.” Yul didn’t wasted time, dragged his best friend again to take a cab. Yoong flopped himself beside his best friend, worried.

 

“Hyung, at least they are aware there!” Yoong reasoned, afraid to worry his fiancée. Yul who doesn’t bother brought his phone out and dialed a number.

 

“Who are you calling for?” asked Yoong, noticing his best friend doesn’t matter to tell the others.

 

Yul sush his best friend before he answers his call. “Yeah, it’s me. Umm, just like the last time. Reserve me a table. Oh wait a room instead.”

 

Yoong’s eyebrows furrows, thinking that it wasn’t good. “Are you planning to go to a bar?”

 

“You get it.” Yul chuckles silently, putting back his phone in his pocket.

 

“What? Yah! This is not good best friend. Let’s go back!”

 

“Nope. I won’t. If you don’t want, then you can go back. That’s if you don’t care for me.” Yul mocked, still determined to go for fun.

 

Yoong hisses in frustrations. He stared out over the window while he searches for his phone. Unfortunately for him, his phone was in his fiancée’s care. He groans and turns to glare to his best friend.

 

“Fine. I’ll accompany you. But only this one. No more.”

 

Yul smiled, tucked his best friend into his arms. “You’ll see, we’ll have fun.”

 

Yoong let go abruptly, pushing him to the side. “I’m not going to allow that.”

 

“Fine~” the tan guy put his two hands up in the air. He steps aside, giggling to see his best friend so concern for him.

 

“I don’t know how to explain this for my fiancée.” Yoong mutters.

 

“Whip.”

 

“What?”

 

“Oh, did I say something?”

 

“Aish! You know, I wanted to kick you.”

 

“You know Yoong, sometimes you should not stick always to your fiancée. It will not be healthy.”

 

“Whatever.”

 

Yul shake his head out from his amusement. He just shrugs him and continues to sulk in the side, keeping his mouth shut. While Yoong on the other hand can’t help and look at his side, sad to see him like that.

 

“Hyung, don’t lose hope. You know you can have a baby again.” the doe-eyed guy said one last time, before he also keeps his silence.

 

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Jessica opens her eyes weary. The moment she opened her eyes, she asked about her child.

 

“What happened?” she asked no one in particular. Mrs. Jung, who seated beside her, reaches for her right hand, smiling so bitterly in her.

 

She looked around, only to be met by tears from all of them. Mr. and Mrs. Kwon are not crying but were smiling bitterly on her. Krystal and her friends are shedding tears whereas Seohyun couldn’t look at her. Nicole, Jinwoon and Hyo were almost as the same as Seohyun.

 

“I don’t get this. What happened?” Jessica shouted, confused at their tears on her. Mrs. Jung’s hold on her daughter tightens.

 

“Jess, your… your child honey… was gone.” Said Mrs. Jung, doesn’t want to prolong the confusions inside her daughte