10 | Maybe...

 

 

  "... be mine officially."             "Y-Yes?"   As her world stops, her heart just also stop from beating. Her eyes were only fix to those pair of deep brown orbs Yoona posses. Yet, She couldn't process the words very well. Although she heard them right. As if she's suddenly dreaming, her mind refuse to understand. But her heart just tells otherwise. Seohyun feels like going insane now. She doesn't know what to do or what to say.    Yoona on the other hand realized her words, feels like her heart is fast from beating again. She slowly let go of the other girl as she find herself stepping back, searching for something on the floor she couldn't figure what. Roughly, she ruffle her hair and abruptly looked back to Seohyun. She can see the girl still staring at her - oddly staring at her. As if she had sin? But knowing her words well, she felt her cheeks blushing. She felt like biting her lips.   "D-Did... I honestly...a-ask you that?" she asked, that came so low.   "Are you sure... and... serious with those words?" asked Seohyun, quite breathless, as she finally got her world back after a while. She feels like crying, jumping, and even rolling around out of happiness. But she keep it low - wanted to make sure. What if, Yoona is just playing around? It'll be so embarrassing for her part.   "Huh? Uh... I-I... d-don't know." Yoona replied a bit hesitant and a bit lost. She keeps blinking, trying to understand what exactly she just said.     "Huh?" It took a while but Seohyun scoffed as she finally realized, it was only an impulse. Meaning, out of the deer's strong emotions, she had let those words out of . She had let those words escape without realizing - without actually thinking about it. However, she felt like asking her. "D-Do you like... me? I mean, more than... a friend?" She brace herself after asking her.   Yoona's face literally brightens more at the thought of liking indeed her best friend. Does she? Or doesn't she? "M-maybe? I-I... don't know. Um, but I guess I do. I'm not really sure." but she end up rumbling with her words, couldn't think straight. Couldn't actually figure yet what was happening to her heart right now.    The young girl's heart feels like breaking at any moment - but she refuse to understand Yoona. Rather, she ignore it. She turned around and only took three steps away from her when the girl got her wrist and pulled her back. Before she could hear something from her, she beat her saying, "Don't ask something you are not sure... Yoona. Anyway, have some good rest. I'll just have fun, like what you've wanted me to." and immediately pulled her hand off the girl, walking out the room afterwards.   Yoona was left dumbfounded - still so lost. She reached on the bed again and put her hands on her forehead, as she tried to understand her feelings - why does she feel so upset with Seohyun's words? and why does she feel like she wanted the girl to only feel happy around her? her fear when the girl would ignore her - she felt her heart crunch and broke into pieces - how so? Just when did actually felt this? And above all, why did she ask her the questions? No matter how much she'll think of it, she couldn't find an answer.   She frustratingly rolled on her chest and bump her forehead to comfy pillows. "Think straight, Yoona. Stupid. Stupid. Stupid!!! Think straight!!!" sighing, she rolled back, straightly blankly to the white ceiling. Thus, she recalled that one wish she had to those shooting stars.       Flashback...   Yoona made sure that the moment a falling star would appear above the sky, she would gladly wish. So when the sky shows two stars falling, she immediately clasps her two palms and close her eyes instinctively as she wished - I wish I won't fall for Hyun. I wish I won't fall for my best friend. I wish I won't fall for Hyun. I wish I won't fall for my best friend. She keeps on repeating the two sentence over and over again until she decided to open her eyes - she giggle when she found herself staring into the same eyes from Seohyun.   "What's your wish?" she cheekily wanted to know the young girl's wish.   "Secret." Seohyun however doesn't want to share, causing for her to pout. But she giggle once again when the girl also did.    "Omo! Another stars!"    Looking up, Yoona quickly grabbed Seohyun's two hands and hold it. Together, they did the same time.   I wish my heart would stop from feeling this way - coz I know I'm falling for her~ I'm falling in love with my best friend~   End of Flashback...     "My wish did come true... for four years, I forgot my feelings for my best friend... but... aigoo... this is ridiculous. " Yoona muttered, as she rub her temples.    Groggily, she got up and had a little flinched over her head when she felt a little pain as she started to walk to the balcony of the room. There, she looked up, hoping to see stars again that would fall. But to her dismay, some noises disturb her. She looked down and found the others were on the pool having some fun time. But she caught two particular persons by the bench, talking so seriously. It caused her clenched her fists as she grit her teeth - realizing it was non other than Yuri, talking with Seohyun.   "What is she doing with my fiancee?" she bitterly say, couldn't get her eyes off of the two girls, enjoying each other's company. She scoffed and hissed, smacking her forehead literally. But damn, she just couldn't like looking away. Specially now that there was some 'jealousy', spreading her heart.     ____________       Yuri who has been playing with the water was disturb when she suddenly caught the sight of Seohyun, wearing a bathrobe making her way near the pool. She was about to call for her attention when she saw Grandma Im greeted her and give her a cocktail. Both sat down at the near bench, immediately having this so called conversation.   "It seemed Yoona won, eh?" Sooyoung who was on the water snickered, as she swam over the edge - reaching the tan girl.   "Yeah. But I wonder how did it went? I mean, I know Seohyun's stubborn nature. You've seen it on their fight earlier."   "Well, Yoona can be so serious too Yuri. Let's just say, Seohyun also wanted to have fun? Who knows she change her mind?"   "You thought so?"   "Forget about it. It's I guess good to think that Seohyun is here... "   "Then Yoona is sick."   "While Yoona is sick, couldn't able to get some fun. Poor, Yoongie." Sooyoung couldn't help but feel bad as she think of her friend. But somehow, she thinks it should be that way so both parties are peaceful.   "But I wonder if Yoona really wanted to be sick. Of course, you heard her complain."   "Aigoo, Yuri. Don't think too much. Yoona will be alright. Hm? Let's just play." Grabbing the ball floating on the side, Sooyoung playfully throw it towards the tan girl, earning her chuckle. The ball went back to her, but before she could throw it again, Yuri get on her feet.   "I'll check on Seohyun." Yuri said, as she make her way to the bench wherein, Grandma Im and Seohyun are currently talking happily. "Hyun! How's Yoong?" right then, she asked Seohyun loudly. Grandma Im got up and walk to the table where the food are being place, as she let Yuri approach Seohyun by the bench.   "She's alright." Seohyun replied, with a sip on her cocktail.   "Omo! Isn't that alcohol?" Yuri frowned, even though she actually saw Grandma giving it earlier. Seohyun giggled at her reactions and pointed to Grandma behind through her lips. Turning a little, Yuri smiled amusingly, as she found Grandma Im now on the pool - yet staying by the edge of it. "I really do think she's faking her cancer."   "Well they say, if a person knows you only have lesser chance to live in this world, they wouldn't waste a single time and enjoy the remaining days, hours, minutes and seconds of your life. You know, I would do the same. Live life to the fullest. You see, it'll be worth it." Seohyun commented. Having been able to read varius of books around.   Yuri turned to face the young dj again beaming with a smile. As expected from a friend who has rich of words. "By the way, what did you and Grandma have talk about?"   "Hmm? Oh, it was just nothing - simple."   "Okay, if it was... then mind sharing?" Yuri stole Seohyun's glass and have her drink. She got up and sat next to her instead. The young girl looked at her with an amuse smile. "Why? I don't have the right to know?"   Seohyun sighed. "Of course you do."   "Then what?"   "It's just about Yoona's childhood." Seohyun truthfully confessed. "It was about how she and her parents are actually not Okay - well even until now. Of course, I do know about it because she shared it to me a long time ago. But I just realized how painful it must be for such a young age at six to have known your parents divorced. To grow up in your sister and grandparents care only seemed really change the way she is."   "She was six?"   Seohyun nods. "Yes."   "But why are you guys laughing just before I arrived?" asked Yuri, confused.   "Oh! It was because the topic change to me. I mean, when I first met Yoona. She laugh because she just know I was the first one who slapped Yoona. And take note, in our first meeting." Seohyun giggle a little, eyes are back to Grandma and Sooyoung talking by the pool. But her bright face quickly died when she thought of what happened a couple of minutes ago. Yuri who sense it put her hands on her shoulders, put the coctail down and give her some gentle massage.   "Were you thinking about the fight?" The tan girl guessed.   Seohyun stared into Yuri's eyes with such amuse. "How'd you know?"   "Your face change to frown. And I have to guess, it didn't went good?"   Pouting, Seohyun nodded. "Yuri... I don't know what's wrong with her... it feels so weird out of a sudden... " She sighed afterwards. She bit her lower lip and held Yuri's wrist, stopping her momentarily.   "Why? what happened?"   Seohyun is always so comfortable sharing her feelings towards Yuri. So she never hesitated and have her thoughts heard. "Yoona... she-she... ask me about getting official. But when I ask her back, she wasn't sure if she really ask me. She was clearly out of her mind."   Yuri who frowned, immediately got interested. "She ask you?" and wanted to make sure she heard them right.   "Yes. Just before I went out our room." Seohyun pouted. "Is it-"   "W-wait... let me clear this. She confessed?" Yuri couldn't exactly understand it.   "Confessions? Was it? Oh, she ask me about getting official - she did." Seohyun was slightly puzzled with the tan girl's reaction.   "So she only ask you like that. She never said something along the line... 'Seohyun, I love you. Let's get official.' She never did that?"   "You mean if... she confessed she loves me?" asked Seohyun to clarify. Yuri only nodded to her. "She... never did. Just the fact she wanted to be official with me. I mean, for our relationship to be official - from best friends to a real lovers." she stated further, heaving a quite sigh at the end.   "Wow. So she has realized her feelings, already?" Yuri ask with glee. If that will be the case, she would be celebrating.   "Huh?"   "Yah! Seo Joohyun! I know you can see it clearly too! Yoona likes you even before - but it just got obvious today because you two are posing as lovers. Hear it?"   Seohyun raised an eyebrow. "Oh, that... Um..." she paused, and continued, "I'm not really sure for my part. I would only believe it if it's Yoona who'll say it to me."   "Aigoo, this girl. But you said she wasn't sure? You mean, she took it back? She doesn't want to be official with you, anymore?"   "She didn't... actually... mentioned about that. I was saying, she wasn't sure about her feelings yet. Honestly, I ask her if she like me then she said... yes, but then she doesn't know if she does."   Yuri's face were so blank - couldn't understand well.    Seeing how puzzled the tan girl's face, Seohyun explained it further. "Okay, so she ask me if I wanted us to be official... but since I myself couldn't honestly believe, I ask her if she likes me. Then, she answered back... maybe she does? But she's not sure."   "Damn, she's going nuts, isn't she?"   "Well, she looked like she was. Perhaps of the fact that she ask me to be hers whilst, we are best friends... tch, it's complicated." Upset, Seohyun picked up the coctail and have some few drinks before a heavy sigh escape through lips. She could feel her heart - it wasn't like the same when she heard Yoona was asking her. Maybe because she was too happy that time. Now that it was clear for her, it hurt her a little. It literally just upsets her. But above all, she hated the deer.   Yuri got closer and put her shoulders around the girl's shoulders. "It's Okay. But isn't that... a way for you think that she did... like you? Only that, she's not really sure of it, yet. At least, you know you have break the friend-zone you thought over your best friend?"   Seohyun smiled. "Did I?"   "Who knows?"   Seohyun tilt her head to the right, making her face so close to Yuri's. "Should I do something about it? Or... I will just let that way? You know, I was thinking... if this will continue - I probably can think of a broken friendship, instead."   "Tch, think positive, will you? But... before that, let me do something." Yuri smirked and suddenly inchec closer and closer until their noses were co