Day 35:

I stood in front of the closet searching for something to wear. I need to look good today, and most important - I need to radiate something different than usual. I searched through my closet, but nothing seemed appropriate.

"Eun Hee, can I borrow this shirt?" I asked, holding a tight white shirt with a nice cleavage.

"Are you sure? It doesn't look like the clothes you usually wear.." she asked hesitantly.

"Yes. I want to try something new." I smiled, hoping it will convince her.

"Take it." She smiled as well. Luckily we are in the same size, so we can borrow clothes from one another.

I borrowed a pink mini skirt, a little shorter than what I usually wear, from Yujin and finished doing my hair and make up.

I left the dorm with a smile on my face. This is going to be a good day.

~

"What is wrong with her today?" Yujin asked after Hyeri left for her schedule. Hyeri is definitely weird today.

"I have no idea.." Eun Hee said.

"Maybe Yongguk finally dumped her and this is her way of getting over it.." Sumi suggested.

"You wish. Yongguk will never dump her." Sey said, glaring at Sumi. "It must be something else.."

"Oh well.. We need to get ready as well, we have practice." Eun Hee said and stood up, heading the bathroom.

~

I got to the car earlier than Yongguk, for a change. I checked my phone to see if I look okay and put it back in my bag. Yongguk got in the car shortly after, looking weirdly at me. Unfortunately he sat next to me. It's bad he is this close to me because it can ruin all my plans. I act like I'm strong and like I don't care, but truth is he affects me more than I want to admit. I lose all my confidence around him, no matter how much I try to work on it. I have only one way to ignore his presence - Music.

I noticed he was staring at me the whole time, but I pretended I didn't notice and that I didn't care. If he is staring then it means my plan is working. I smiled to myself. 

I was absorbed in my thoughts when I felt something fell on my legs. I looked down, only to see he covered my legs with his jacket. I looked at him confused.

"You'll catch a cold if your'e not dressed properly." Yongguk said dryly.

"I don't need you to worry about me." I said in the same tone and moved his jacket away, throwing it onto his lap.

"Impossible person." Yongguk sighed.

"Impossible to who? You are the only one that finds me diffcult." I argued.

"Yeah, right.." he snorted. "Do you even know what people say about you?"

"I don't care." I lied. I care a lot, I just don't think I will be able to handle it, and I don't want to cry in front of him, so it's better to avoid the subject.

"Whatever.." he rolled his eyes and moved to sit on the other side of the car. I felt my heart twitching. Did I just scared him away for good? That was not what I meant..

I shrank in my place, trying to think about my next actions.

~

Yongguk flopped his body onto the seat opposite to Hyeri, frustrated. He only wanted to make sure she is not cold and that she won't feel uncomfortable since her skirt is way too short, why is she so mean to him?

Why is she dressed like that anyway? She usually wears this kind of clothes only when the stylist gives it to her, and not on her free time. He sighed. She looked good wearing these clothes, even too good. Now other guys will probably get closer to her and he doesn't like that. At all.

He doesn't like to admit it, but although he said he doesn't see her as y, she still manage to drive him crazy. She is the iest to him when she doesn't think she is and when she is not trying to be y. Not that he doesn't like it when she dressed ily from time to time, it just that he gets jealous when it's not meant for him and when other people enjoy it as well.

Maybe it's time for him to remind her she is still his.. He knows how to affect her when he wants too, she is just too simple to read sometimes.

~

"Unnie.. Do you remember the red dress that Yongguk hated?" I asked the stylist while she was fixing my dress for today's performance.

"Yes, what about it?"

"Can I wear it tomorrow?" I smiled as nicely as I can.

"Are you sure? You said you weren't comfortable with it.."

"We changed the choreography a little, so it should be fine now."

"Yongguk won't like it.." she mumbled.

"Well, he is not the one wearing it, so it has nothing to do with him." I reasoned.

"Fine, I'll bring it tomorrow if you want to." She smiled.

"Thanks." I smiled. Another mission accomplished.

~

"Hyeri, give me a massage." Yongguk smiled brightly while asking. We were now in Jinu's office, talking about the schedules for the next couple of days.

"Go to a masseur." I said dryly.

"I have you." He smiled innocently.

"Jinu!" I whined, hoping to get some help from him.

"I'm not getting involved, solve your problems with each other on your own." Jinu shrugged. I frowned, while Yongguk grinned.

"That's not fair! It's your fault he is ordering me around, and he is not going to give up. What if he ask for some weird things afterwards?"

"Like what? I won't you or anything, even if you think I'm capable of doing it." Yongguk got annoyed.

"I never said that!" I trailed off. Does he really think I will think he is capable of it? I didn't mean it in that way.. I'm just scared from my own feelings. I'm afraid of losing control if we get too close to each other, and I'm scared since I don't know myself when I'm around him. It's like I'm possessed by a different Hyeri, who acts differently and thinks differently.

"I will never think you'll hurt me on purpose, it's just that you are ordering me around too much." I said after a short silence.

"I only asked for water in the morning and now this. And it's not like it's the first time you give me a massage.." Yongguk said dryly. He sounded mad. Did I cross the line?

"Oppa, can I talk to Yongguk alone for a few minutes?" I asked Jinu.

"Sure.. I'll give you five minutes." Jinu said and left the room, leaving me with Yongguk.

I looked at Yongguk, but he didn't look at me at all.. I guess I hurt him too much. Me and my stupid mouth.. Why can't I think first instead of saying whatever crosses my mind?

"I'm sorry." I said quietly.

"About what?"

"For accusing you and if you misunderstood me about thinking you'll hurt me. I'm just tired, and you ordering me around is not helping.. I don't really think straight right now, so my judgment is a little off."

"Do you think that makes it okay?" He glared at me.

"I know I messed up, and I'm sorry. I didn't mean it."

"Sorry doesn't always fix things." Yongguk said dryly. "Tell Jinu I'm sorry and that I'll talk to him later." He said and went out of the room. I fell down to the floor and started crying. How did things get this bad?

Day 36:

"Oppa.." I called happily when I saw Yongguk. He just ignored me.

"Do you want a massage? Does your ribs hurt? Do you want water or anything else?" I bombarded him with questions when he didn't react.

"I want you to stop bugging me. I told Jinu your'e dismissed from taking care of me, so you don't have to do things for me anymore." Yongguk said dryly.

"Oppa.."

"Wer'e not close, don't call me oppa." What? It felt like a strong kick in the stomach. Idiot Hyeri, what have you done? You hurt the only person who cared about you..

"I'm sorry to bother you, ahjussi. It won't happen again." I said and walked away so he won't see the tears that started to fall down my face.

"Why are you crying?" Sey asked when she found me in the restroom. Just the person I didn't want to see..

"I'm not." I wiped my tears quickly.

"Did Yongguk do something?"

"No."

"Then what is it?"

"He doesn't want anything to do with me, and I don't know how to fix this.." I started crying again.

"Relax.. It will be alright." She hugged me, and it made me cry even harder.

"It can't be alright, he hates me."

"He doesn't hate you, he is probably just mad right now. What did you do?"

"I don't want to talk about it." I shrugged, pulling away from her embrace.

"Do you want me to talk to him?" Sey offered.

"No.." I wiped my tears again. "I need to solve this by myself."

~

Himchan went to the gym and found Yongguk hitting the punching bag mercilessly.

"I figured you will be here.." Himchan said. Yongguk just ignored him and kept punching and kicking the bag. "Do you want to talk?"

"I want to be alone." Yongguk said dryly.

"What did Hyeri do this time?"

"Don't mention that name around me, I don't want anything to do with her anymore." Yongguk kicked the punching bag strongly. It moved back and forth a few times until it stopped.

"You know, she cried like crazy to Sey.."

"She can cry as much as she want, it doesn't matter to me."

"Are you really okay with it?" Himchan questioned.

"Yes. It's not my business and she is not my burden anymore, someone else should take care of her, if he can. Or maybe it's about time she will take care of herself instead of relying on others.."

"You know you don't mean that.."

"I do mean it this time." Yongguk turned to Himchan, furious. "I had enough of her bull. She thinks she could say and do whatever she wants and people will always forgive her once she say she is sorry and cry. It doesn't work on me anymore."

"Try to understand her a little.."

"I WAS THE ONE THAT TRIED TO UNDERSTAND HER THE MOST! I TRIED WAY MORE THAN ANYONE ELSE HERE, SO DON'T GIVE ME THAT !" Yongguk snapped. "You wouldn't survive a quarter of the things she did to me. The only reason I managed to tolerate it is because I like her, but I can't do it anymore. I give up."

"That's why you fit together so well.. You understand one another the most and you can control each other better than anyone."

"Himchan!" Yongguk glared at him.

"Bbang.."

"Get out if your'e going to keep talking about her." Yongguk muttered and turned back to the punching bag, ignoring Himchan.

~

"Do you feel better?" Sey asked when she saw me curled up to a ball in my bed.

"No."

"Just talk to him and apologize for whatever you did."

"He doesn't want to talk to me."

"Then make him listen."

Day 37:

Jinu felt the tensed atmosphere between Yongguk and Hyeri the moment he went inside the car. It was impossible to miss it. He sighed and started driving, hoping that at least that way they won't fight like they usually do.

I got the infamous red dress from the stylist. Yesterday I was really happy I can wear it, but somehow today it just didn't feel right. Well, it was too late to regret it, so the least I can do now is to hope it will affect him somehow.. That was the main purpose of wearing it. I just need to act confident, even if I feel the opposite.

I took a deep breath and did my best, but Yongguk barely looked at me. Even when he had to look at me his expression was blank, unlike always. It felt bad. I was being rejected again, and it hurt. I can only blame myself for taking him for granted and exploiting him too much.. Am I that heartless?

~

"Hyeri.." Jinu called me over after the performance.

"What?"

"Did you sleep last night? You look terrible."

"I'm fine."

"What happened?"

"Nothing." I shrruged. I know what he meant, but I don't want to talk about it.

"You messed up. Go make it up to him." he put his hand on my shoulder.

"He doesn't like me anymore." I said sadly.

"You two will drive me crazy someday.." Jinu sighed.

"Do I really need to teach you what to do?" Jinu asked when I didn't react. I looked at him curiously.

"Everyone wants love, just show him you care. Go make him a romantic candlelight dinner, buy some wine and apologize until he forgives you. If you really have to then stop being an iceberg and show him some affection, okay? All guys are the same, show them a little skin and they will do whatever you want them too."

"Oppa! That's embarrassing!" I covered my face from embarrassment. My face was red as a tomato because of his last sentence.

"Embarrassing, but still work. If food doesn't do the trick then your body will, trust me." He smiled. "But you didn't hear it from me, okay? I'm not supposed to encourage you to date or to have ."

"We are not having !" I exclaimed.

"Yeah, yeah. You can thank me later." He smiled mischievously. "Just don't forget to use protection!" he winked and walked away, leaving me by myself, shocked.

I can't believe we actually had this conversation..

Author's Note:

That escalated quickly.. But Yongguk has his reasons.

Today's lesson - miscommunication is bad :\

by the way, I started writing the next chapter and I might have done something in the next chapter.. Or maybe not :)

Sorry if this chapter is crappy, I will make it up to you in the next chapter, I promise!

Thanks for reading, commenting, etc.

M.