JOON: 

 

 

I walked into that room. I thought I was ready to face my worst fear. Why was something so small making me feel like this? I felt weak and afraid. 

I was about to walk into his room. 

 

I walked slow at first. My heart began to accelerate when I got closer. 

Luckily, he was asleep. 

 

I stopped when I reached the crib. 

This was the first time I saw him. He layed on the crib so comfortably. He looked so at peace. 

For a second, just one…I felt a little warm and peace in my heart. 

 

The last thing I wanted to do was wake him so I didn't reach out for him or say anything. I tried to contain my tears and I did. All the pain went to my heart. It hurt so bad. 

 

I tried to end this little child's life. 

 

"Changsun-san, here you are. President is looking for you" Rin came into the room. I broke away from my thoughts and cleaned my eyes with my sleeve. 

 

"Oh- did I interrupt something? Gomen nasai!" she was about to leave when I told her everything was okay. 

"You don't have to leave. You should stay with him…I'll go see what father wants" I made my way to the door, avoiding any eye contact with Rin. 

 

"President just wanted to know if you already had dinner…he just came back from work" Rin said. 

I stopped and faced her. 

 

"Uh, no I haven't.." I rubbed the back of my head. God Joon, why are you being all nervous? 

"Really? Should I go make something for you Changsun-san?" Rin offered. 

 

I nodded. Anything to get me away from that room. 

Rin lead the way to the kitchen and made me soup. I sat and watched her make me food. 

 

Even though my gaze was on the food, I couldn't stop thinking about the baby. I couldn't help but let in all the negative thoughts i was thinking about before Rin came in the room. 

 

"Changsun-san…are you feeling alright?" Rin asked me when she noticed my odd behavior. 

 

"I can't do this" I said. 

 

Rin looked confused. 

"What do you mean?" 

 

I shook my head. Why was I going to tell this girl anything? She wouldn't understand. 

"I don't want to talk about it." I shut down. 

 

Rin nodded.

 

 

 

"Here you go Changsun-san. 

What ever is troubling you…Um- I mean…If you ever need anyone to talk to about anything…I am here…" 

she blushed. I only looked at her. 

"No offense but I don't think you'd be able to handle it." I began to eat. 

 

"…I would like it if you told me anyway. Even if you think I'm too weak to hear whatever you have to say I would much rather you do so then have it affect your son in any way. I have already taken a like to Leo and I wouldn't want anything to happen to him. I will protect him from anything. Even from you if necessary, Changsun-san." 

 

I nodded and continued eating. "If that's what you think is better for him" 

I was hoping that she would drop the subject about Leo, only that she didn't.

Rin was surprised. "Do you really not care about Leo-kun, sir?" 

 

I stiffened. I threw my spoon on the table and my jaw tightened. I pushed the plate away from me and spiled it.

 

The last thing I wanted to talk about was him. I already had mixed feelings about him as it was.

 

"Can't you let me eat in peace!? Why do you have to bring him up when I am trying to eat? You just ruined my dinner. Just leave now!" 

 

"What the hell is going on here?" Ren came into the kitchen. 

 

Great.

 

"Nothing Ren-san. I said something I shouldn't have…gomenasai." she bowed and began picked up my food. 

 

Ren grabbed her wrist and brought her to where I was sitting. 

 

"Ren-san.." 

she looked terrified.

 

"Apologize to Rin." Ren ordered me. 

 

I scoffed. "Why should I? She should be the one apologizing for being such a stupid girl" 

 

Ren's eyes flared with anger. 

He let go of Rin's wrist and took my shirt and slammed me to the wall. 

 

I looked defiantly at him. 

"I don't know how you're use to treating girls but around me you do it with respect." 

 

"Ren-san! Don't do this…please release Changsun-san! I was the one that did wrong" 

Rin cried.

 

I smirked. "You heard her. Let go of me" 

Ren was furious. I could tell by the way he was gripping my shirt.

 

"Ren what the ?!" A few guys that looked around Ren's age came into kitchen.

There was about 3 of them. 

They all had a really rough style to them. All of them wore black, from head to toe, just like Ren. 

 

New Characters! Introducing...

 

(Ren and them are in a j-rock band) 

 

 

Jang Keun Suk

-22 years old.

Japanese/Korean (in this story)

-Closest To Ren. 

 

 

JIN AKANISHI 

-19 years old

-Youngest. Most Immature & a Player

-Guitarst of Band

 

Tamayama Tetsuji 

 

25 years old

-Mysterious, quiet, dark and really handsome.

-Oldest of the four. Most Mature and drummer of thier band. 

He has a big crush on Ren's sister, Keiko.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

"Stay out of this." Ren brought his attention back to me. "If there's anything I can't stand is someone that doesn't know manners. You live in my house, you aren't with Lee Min Jae or your hyung anymore. This is a different household. Your childish behavior will not be tolerated here." 

Ren looked me straight in the eye.

 

 

I looked away. He was right. I wanted to change, change for the better. Just what the hell are you doing Joon? 

 

 

"Let me go." I said. Ren loosed his grip and released me. My back hit the wall behind me lightly.

 

"Changsun-san!" Rin ran to me and held on to my arm. I didn't move. 

"Ren-san why are you like this? Don't hurt Changsun-san. It wasn't his fault" Rin defended me. What a naive little girl…she reminded me of...her….

 

"Rin, don't get to close to him. I warned you about it…" Ren told her. I looked up. This kid….he was already bad mouthing me before I even got here. 

 

"Oi oi oi….I think Rin-chan likes your brother Ren" one of his friends laughed. Rin turned red and shook her head and looked to the ground. Ren looked pissed. 

I no longer wanted to be a part of this stupid matter so I grabbed Rin's hand and we left the kitchen. I finally let go of her when we reached the baby's room. 

I closed the door and looked straight at her.

 

"Why did you do that? After I was like that to you…" I couldn't help but feel a little ashamed. 

 

"I don't know what happened before you came here…but you seem like a person that's been through a lot of pain. Instead of being like Ren-san, I want you to feel welcomed." 

 

"How can you tell that I've been in pain?" I raised a brow.

 

"Your eyes…they look, sad. Changsun-san" 

 

"Don't call me that Rin. Just Changsun is fine." 

I quickly remembered when she use to call me Joon-ssi. I must of spaced out because Rin was in front of me (closer) asking me if I was alright. I shook my head.

"I am sorry. I have a lot on my mind." 

 

"Oh it's okay Changsun-sa--" she covered with both her hands when she saw me glaring at her. "SOrry" 

 

"Don't apologize for everything." I sighed. I looked over at Leo's crib and cautiously approached him. 

 

Rin followed. 

"By the way, thank you for earlier. Ren-san's friends are really mean sometimes." 

 

I stayed quiet. 

 

"Especially Jin. He always picks on me." 

 

"He must like you" I said. 

 

She shook her head furiously. I smirked. She was so innocent it was absurd. 

"Jin likes to be like that to girls." 

 

"Ah. He is a player. Hm" I shrugged. "I was like that once." 

 

Rin's mouth opened wide in disbelief. "Really? But why?" 

 

Was she really asking me why? I laughed. 

She blushed. 

"Uhmm. I mean…it's not nice.." she looked down.

 

When I stopped laughing I looked over at her and said, "I was just trying to have fun. There is a lot of people like that in the world Rin. You just have to…deal with it." 

 

"I guess I wouldn't know about that. Your father took me in when I was young…I have no memories of what my life was before. I wish I could remember..

Changsun, one day…when you feel comfortable around me, I'd like to know all about you." she smiled. 

 

My heart skipped a beat. Why was she so curious to know? 

No one except one person in the world had ever had an interest to know about me.

 

"Your father told me that you are very good at playing the piano." 

 

"Did he? Well I am." I smirked. "I haven't played in a while…" 

 

"Why?" Rin asked.

 

I told her all about my accident and every time I tried to play my fingers hurt really bad. She cried. 

 

"Yah…why are you crying. It's not even that big of a deal." I shrugged.

 

"But it is Changsun! If I had something that I loved doing so much and one day it was taken from me, I would be really sad." Rin said.

 

"It hasn't been taken away from me. I…can still play. Do you want me to?" I said. There was happiness in her eyes. "But will it hurt?" 

 

"I'm not sure. I haven't played in so long." 

 

 

 

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A/N: HELLOOOOOOOOO EVERYONE!!! HOW IS EVERYONE!? I missed you guys :) 

 

So another update! I hope you enjoyed it! 

Please don't kill me for bringing Rin to this story haha. Yes, she and Joon are beginning to get close but remember Ha Na has not died yet! She will come back from her coma. But will she be the same? Hmmm Lol. Keep commenting and subscribing!!

 

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