You and your members went directly to the van to hide your red swollen cheeks. The 5 of you stayed inside as you waited for manager appa to get your things when your head became heavy and leaned on your leader's arm.

"What's ---. Crap! Her fever's gotten worst." she cursed and you closed your eyes as the members panicked.

You woke up in a hospital and saw manager appa fixing some rare bouquet on a vase.

"Oh. Good you're awake." he beamed and went towards you.

You starred at him and remembered what happened to you and.

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.

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Tao.

Smile Again - BOA

Your heart started to hurt as you feel it bleeding to death.

"Appa." you managed to call him before breaking into tears.

He pulled you into a hug and patted your head.

"Guenchana my child. Just cry it out." he said as he watched and listened to you sob in pain and agony.

After that crying, appa ordered a bucket of chicken, pizza and ice cream to cheer you up which really helped. While you were eating, Se7en arrived and smiled seeing you eat like you normally do, that you didn't involve your stomach with your broken heart.

"Sunbae." you raised your hand and greeted him.

"How are you kiddo?" he beamed as he sat on the edge of your bed taking a slice of pizza.

"Still alive." you replied and kept on eating.

"That's good." he said. A silence came in for a minute as you comfortably eat.

"Seomi told me what happened." he broke the silence and you instantly stopped chewing.

"Hurt?" he asked and you nodded as you try not to cry.

He patted your head and said "It's okay. You'll find your guy someday. And don't cry for that punk anymore. He's not worth it."

"You're a strong kid. I know you can go through this. We're with you." he added.

*He's right. I can't break there are people who believes in Me.* you said to yourself and turned to him.

"Of course I Am." you smirked.

"I'm not called Se7en's hobae for nothing." you said confidently.

He laughed at your boasting and said "See? You're already fine to me. Hahaha. Keep it up Rei." he said and took a chicken wing.

You raised a brow at him and he just looked back at you.

"Sunbae. I hate to break this to you but are you here to cheer me up or have a snack?" you asked.

He flicked your forehead and said "Both. I'm your sunbae so respect, I'm eating." he said and you just smiled and resumed eating.

Days passed and you finally got discharged to the hospital and resumed your schedules. Luckily, you don't have to film WGM because MBC was having problems and cancelled the show temporarily.

Your sunbaes and friends helped you a lot in forgetting the pain of the heart. After your schedules, your sunbaes or members always treat you out to eat and if there’s no one free to eat with you, Mrs. Park or manager’s appa always cook you your favorites.

2ne1 unnies and Jeremy Scot took you shopping while Tablo and his wife took you to the lotte world the next day off you had. You and the Royal slept over to Psy’s house to keep his wife and children company doing the slumber party in the process.

The park siblings often picks you up and dragged you to their house for you to sleep over and YG's wife always visit the company building with their daughter to play with you.

Everything was fun and wonderful because of your family. With them, you felt love. The pain that Tao has left was still there but with your family and friend’s efforts and love, you managed to stand with your own to feet again.

Take me away - Ukiss

EXO were in KBS building for a music show waiting in their waiting room. The members were still distance to Tao as Kris and he didn't really talked to each other. Kris explained everything to Tao and was still awkward with the maknae. While the others still can't believe what Tao told them. About you were kissing a man backstage.

EXO's manager came in nervously to the room sweating and talked to the guys.

"Boys, someone’s here to talk. Please just let her talk and don't cause trouble." the manager pleaded.

Then the door flanged open and Wiz entered and sat on the makeup table facing the boys. "Annyeonghaseyo. I came to clear things up." she said flatly.

The boys were taken aback and shocked by your leader’s cold presence and stayed quiet.

"Firstly, I'd like to apologize to EXO on behalf of my members for trashing your dressing room and leader." she started and crossed her legs.

"What about Moyou and Tao?" Baekhyun shot.

Wiz turned her cold eyes to him. "What about my dongsaeng's cheeks?" she shot back that made them shut silent.

"And about that rumor you’re spreading about Rei cheating /looks at Tao/, she was in the middle of rejecting that idol's pathetic heart when you saw them.” She said.

“The guy was harassing Rei when you thought they were kissing." she said directly.

"Yeah. Right. I saw it all; you don't have to explain for her." Tao scoffed.

Wiz returned a smirk and said "Oh don't get me wrong, I'm not explaining anything to a person like you. Like I said, I'm clearing things up."

"Anyway, Rei was wearing a mask that time since her cold was getting worst. And the guy kissed her mask." she carried on then smirk.

"But of course, your pathetic brain and eyes didn’t see that and don't trust her enough to wait what she would do and walked away like a loser would do right?" she mocked.

Tao's eyes widened as her guess was right on the spot. *How did she?*

"Too bad you didn't see her knee that 's balls." she chuckled.

Tao froze as he heard Wiz's last sentence.

*Rei didn't cheat on me then? What did I just do?*

She smiled seeing Tao's reaction.

"That's right. She didn't cheat on you. Instead, she was doing that for your sake. She went there so idols would stop making love calls to her so you would stop getting jealous. She went there even though she's not feeling well just to make your pathetic feel better." she continued.

Tao just froze in shock as he took Wiz's words one by one.

*She did all that for me but I didn't trusted her and even hurt her.*

"Rei is a very loyal person. If there's something she can't do, its betrayal. She's too precious and doesn't deserve what you did. If you could feel guilt and sorry, then make it up to her by staying away from her and let her live in peace." Wiz said.

"Now. I think that's all.” Your leader stood up and was about to walk away but then turned around.

“Oh right. You've hurt her enough so do all of us a favor and don't go near her. She'll be happier without you.. Just repeating in case you don't get It." she added when her phone rang.

She saw your number and smiled as she answered while the boys watched her.

"Annyeong Rei-ah." Wiz cheered loudly for them to hear it was you who was calling.

"Eung. Hawaiian right? Okay be there in 30." Wiz chatted and hung up.

"It was Rei. She just got out of the hospital three days ago." she turned at the boys and walked away.

Tao's world darkened hearing you were sick. After what happened, he didn’t heard any news of you at all.

"Wait!" he stopped Wiz.

"What happened to her? Why was she hospitalized?" he asked.

Wiz glared at him.

"YOU happened!! That's what. Now get away from her before you kill her." she said and walked out leaving the 12 in a daze.

Tao fell on his knees and sobbed as he heard the truth realizing that he made the most important person to him hurt. He just lost life by his misunderstanding and lack of trust.

*She trusted me til the end and all I gave her was pain.* he blamed himself.

The members couldn't help but feel sorry to their brother and comforted him.

Days passed by and you're now on your way to rehearsals for the MAMA 2017 with your members. Bigbang sunbaes greeted the 5 of you at the entrance and went to the stage together.

BigbangxRoyal collaboration was the 1st to rehearse followed by the other idols. Bigbang were fooling around with Royal as you all wait for the sound checks to be done.

Then, the PD asked all of you to use the microphone and you all decided to sing and dance. You, Yume, Wiz, Nina and Seomi sang while Bigbang did adlibs as you all goofily danced with the song.

Here's their silly dancing:

Taeyang

Daesung

Top

GD & SeungRi

Wiz

Seomi

Nina

Yume

You

You're all busy goofing around that you didn't notice the other idols arriving and sat on the audience watching two famous group fool around.

EXO arrived and immediately saw you and YG family happily fooling around. Tao watched as you happily enjoy your time with your sunbaes and members, as you were moving on without him.

*Wiz is right. I don't deserve a girl like Rei.* he said to himself as he kept his eyes on you already tearing up.

"You okay?" Kris asked.

They're okay now; Kris can't stay mad at him after seeing his brother cry realizing his mistakes. The two had a man to man talk and cleared things up.

Tao nodded and took a seat beside Kris.

"She's really living without me hyung." he mumbled at Kris as a tear drop fell from his eye.

Kris ruffled Tao's hair and said "If you two are meant to be, then, you'll get her back someday. But for now, give her time to heal."

Tao nodded and watched you smile.

The rehearsals started and the dorky Royal and Bigbang were nowhere to be found. The stage was only owned by the professional performers and did their performance like how it should be done. PERFECT.

After rehearsals, Royal and Bigbang went to their own dressing room and prepare for the awarding.

You sat with your members beside Epik high during the 1st half of the awarding and after the performance and receiving 2 awards, Royal has to leave for an important filming on Japan.

Ugly couple won the best couple award and Tao took it alone, said his thanks pretending you two are still okay and went down.

While he was walking back to his seat, he saw GD looking at him with a blank face and remembered what he said during their talk.

- - flashback - -

Tao arrived from Canada and were picked up by their manager but Tao was picked up by GD. They went into a cafe as Tao nervously sat and waited for the sunbae to talk.

"Rei explained everything to me." Jiyoung started.

"Don't worry. I won't hurt you or anything." he continued and looked at Tao.

"Those things are normal for a couple so I understand you." he said and smiled.

Tao just bowed slightly at him.

"It's just I can't help myself not to panic when I see her down." the sunbae explained.

"I think I spoiled her too much." he added.

"Anyway, I just want you to know that I'm not mad about what happened. But could you try your best not to get her hurt? You see he's dangerously clumsy." he said and both of them laughed.

"But seriously, if you hurt her once more accidentally or not, I'll take her away from you in every way possible." GD said in a serious tone and got up.

Tao sat stiffened at the sunbae’s words but then looked at GD, who was already smiling.

"Come on. I'll drop you to your dorm." Tao was startled by the sunbaes' threat and followed him.

- - end of the flashback - -

Daddy's pillow

You were in YG's office because he said he has some matters to discuss with you. He entered his office and you greeted him with a bow.

"Take a seat." he said and you oblige as he sat on his chair across the table.

"How are you?" he asked.

"Still alive boss." you replied.

"Rei-ah." he called you and you waited for him to continue.

"I'm sorry for making you join the reality show." he said and you were taken aback.

"It was a mistake and now you're in pain." he continued.

*Daebakk. He's apologizing to me. The BOSS.* you said in your head but kept calm.

"I won't deny the fact that I'm hurt. But please don't apologize. I gained something from it anyway. I had a lot of fun, experienced things and learned." you said.

"That's good to hear from you. You're really growing Rei-ah." he said.

"All thanks to you, boss." you said.

"Anyway, I called you to say that since you've been working really hard and could use some time alone. I'll give you a week of vacation." he said.

*He's giving me a vacation? Daebakk. Being broken hearted is not that bad after all.* you smirked mentally.

"Your mother called me and asking if she could borrow her daughter." he added.

"O...kay." you managed to reply.

"You can go after you schedule to Japan." he added and you nodded and was about to go when the boss called you.

He gave you a fatherly smile and went towards you for a hug.

"Don't keep the pain inside and let it out. We're here for you my child." he said between the hug.

Your tears automatically ran to your cheeks and hugged him back.

"Boss I'm lost. I can't take it, it's too painful." you said between the sobs.

"Time will heal it Rei-ah. And don't forget that no pain no gain. But we're always be right here to bandage the wounds for you." he said and broke the hug.

"Be strong my child." he said and wiped your tears.

"You're not my daughter for nothing Rei-ah." he continued that made you smile.

"Thanks boss. I'll make you proud." you said.

"I'm already proud of you." he said and ruffled your hair.

"Now go and do that filming then go to your mom. She's been nagging me for a while now." he said and you smiled and went out to your manager appa, glad and thankful to have a family like YG family.

To be continued...

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