Don't Say That You Love Me
A Fangirl's Dream*Jonghyun’s POV*
“Gosh, Jjong will you stop bawling?” Annie said, slapping my arm.
“How can I? I’m losing you. I don’t think I can go on,” I cried.
“You silly, dramatic dino,” she laughed and pulled me into a deep kiss.
I didn’t understand how she wasn’t crying. Did she not care? Did I mean nothing to her?
“Why aren’t you crying?” I asked, pulling away.
“Because,” she said, looking at the ground. “I-I… I just really don’t cry.”
“What do you mean you don’t cry?!” I asked in astonishment.
“I just don’t; I don’t know!”
“You’re crazy,” I said shaking my head.
“But you love me,” she smiled, fixing my hair.
“So, we’ll keep in touch, right?” I stopped her hand by pulling it down and slipping it into mine.
“Of course,” she looked at me knowingly. “Then if we do see each other again we’ll see how it goes.”
“Right, we’ll see how it goes.” I echoed.
She put her arms around my neck and kissed me one last time. I let her lips caress mine, taking in the feeling and locking it up in a mental box which I told myself I’d go back to whenever I was lonely.
“I’ll never forget you Jonghyun,” she whispered, resting her forehead against mine.
“You better not!” I threatened through my tears. “I love-,”
“Shhh!” she put a finger to my lips. “Don’t say it. It’ll only make it harder.”
I sighed and rocked her back and forth in my arms. “But I do you know.”
“I know.”
“Oh, I have something for you,” I said, pulling away and reaching inside my jacket to pull out a CD.
“Jjong, what is it?” she gasped, taking it from my hands.
“It’s a CD,” I said simply.
“Well I can see that!” she said rolling her eyes with a smile. “But what’s on it?”
“Well, I wanted you to have my voice with you wherever you go, so I recorded myself singing a bunch of your favorite songs.”
She looked up at me with a deep look in her eyes and threw her arms around me. Her grip was tight, but I didn’t mind. I was probably squeezing her just as closely.
After another minute she pulled away and looked me in the eyes. “I should probably go now.”
I just nodded, unable to speak. She kissed two of her fingers and pressed them to my lips before slipping from my arms. She walked with style toward the doorway that would lead her onto the plane taking her home. I watched her silhouette fade as she rounded the corner and was gone. Even after she was out of sight I stared. When the door closed, when the plane left the boarding dock, I stared.
*Minho’s POV*
“I love you,” I let the words slide from my lips while I lay alone in the hospital room. “I miss you. I’m sorry. I was wrong. Come back. Don’t leave me…”
Not being able to see Nicole again turned me into even more of a mess than I was. The last memory I had of seeing Nicole was a blurry image of her running along next to my gurney while I was in my half dazed state. What kind of memory was that?
I closed my eyes as I came to a painful decision. I’d lost Nicole and there was no getting her back. She was gone forever now, not that she even wanted to see me in the first place. I just had to accept the fact and get over my love for her. However, this task was much easier said than done.
Isn't that picture of Jjongie just too cute? Aigoo.... <3 And I found the perfect song for this chapter!!! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r6VhcML6Jbw Kinda made me wanna cry... but I've always like this song<3
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