FORGIVENESS
author:anonymous

"Hey, you're home."

Tiffany impassive voice greets Taeyeon when she arrived at their home from a week long outstation. Adorable 5 years old girl comes running to her arms.

"Appa."

Taeyeon smiles widely and open her arm wide at the cute sight.

"Did you miss me?"

She pouts and nods. Taeyeon chuckle and gently kiss her daughter. She turns to the quiet lady who is watching them with a blank face. It hurts Taeyeon to see this bubbly lady turn to a walking zombie.

"Fany, don't you miss me too?" Taeyeon decide to try her luck and look at her hopefully. Tiffany was surprised at the sudden question. She didn't have any answer.

"It's okay. You don't have to answer that." Taeyeon mumbles and bring Seohyun to the kitchen lifelessly with Tiffany watching her sadly.

"Hey, Taeyeon." Tiffany drops the thing she is holding at when she saw the sight that kills her heart.

Taeyeon froze at the bed when she hears the husky voice. She quickly jumps of the bed and put on her shirt to run after her fleeing wife.

"Fany."

Tiffany got into her car and drives away in tears.

That night Taeyeon sleeps alone and it was a cold night.

"Hey, Tiff." Jessica greets Tiffany and pulls her into a loose hug. "How is life?"

"Same old, same old." Tiffany replied with a hint of sadness. Jessica notices the change but brush it away.

"Yuri want to make a gathering, do you think you can get Hyoyeon? Since she is working with Taeyeon?" Tiffany expression slightly winces at the mention of her wife name.

"Okay."

Jessica looks at her sympathetically. She put her arms around Tiffany gently.

"You still can't forgive her?"

Tiffany let out a sigh.

"I'm trying." Tiffany eyes glistens at the painful memory she saw during a quick drives to her home. "I can't forget."

"It's okay you know, not to forget because honestly no one can forget hurtful things like this but you got to learn to let go and move on, please? For the sake of Seohyun."

Tiffany shoulder hunch down.

"She asks me yesterday if I miss her after a week outstation. I find myself being unable to answer her."

Jessica pats her shoulder for comfort.

"It's okay, Tiff. Take your time."

Taeyeon holds Seohyun in her arms tightly and cries to herself. She watches as Tiffany pull her luggages toward the boarding area.

"Mommy." Seohyun struggles in her hold, calling for her mother.

Tiffany stops and turns around. The sights of her crying daughter and disheveled Taeyeon brokes her heart. It throws away her resolution to leave. She pulls her luggage toward her daughter and brings her daughter in her arms.

"Mommy, don't leave Seohyun and appa."

Tiffany hugs her tightly and cries with her daughter.

"Mommy won't leave you again."

Seohyun held out her pinkies.

"Promise?"

Tiffany smiles in her tears and link her pinky with her daughter.

"Promise."

Taeyeon was crying too. She watches the mother and daughter reunion with guilt. She hung her head low.

"I'm sorry, Fany."

Tiffany heard the silent whisper of apologies but she remains passive and concentrate at their daughter together.

"Mommy, appa let's go home." Seohyun held her mother hand at the right and her father hand at the left sensing hostility between her parents.

That night was suppose to be happy for Taeyeon but Tiffany didn't utter any words to her and she spends the night alone crying to herself at their cold bedroom.

"Yuri invites us for gathering at their home. Jessi ask you to relay the message to Hyoyeon too." Tiffany told her in flat tones as she arrives home after picking up Seohyun from her mother house.

"When?"

"Sunday noon."

"Alright."

Taeyeon gave her a small smile and kiss her softly at her cheek. It was the first after months of the unfortunate event.

Tiffany expression change. She was surprise by the action but she remains impassive and took the sleeping Seohun in her arms.

Taeyeon just smile sadly and watches her silently.

Taeyeon searches for Tiffany everywhere. She calls each of their friends only to receive the same answer. She silently berates herself for her stupidity. She really loves her wife but against her better judgments, she succumbs to temptation. The first time she did it with her assistant, it was a drunken night and she promise herself to never repeat it again but she find herself in the arm of her assistant whenever she had find opportunity to do so.

'Mrs Kim, I'm sorry she saw us.' The text from her mistress added more guilt to her heart.

She drives to her wife best friend house only to be greeted by a punch and a slap.

"How dare you do that to her?" The usual sweet voice was fills with acid of hate. She couldn't reply and only stood silently, receiving whatever insult spews by Jessica.

Yuri shakes her head in disappointment as Jessica walk in to their house in anger.

"Why did you do it, Tae?" Yuri disbelief voice feels like an arrow to her heart. "You said you love her."

"I do love her." Taeyeon said the word in whisper, feeling undeserving of her wife love. Her loyal wife.

"Then why?"

"It was a mistake. A big mistake and now I'm losing her."

Tiffany looks around the shelves and took Seohyun favourite cereal. She froze when she hear the familiar voice greeting her. The very voice that almost destroyed her marriage.

"Mrs Kim, can we talk?"

Tiffany didn't know where her logic go. She found herself sitting across her wife former assistant.

"When did it start?" Tiffany surprise herself by being calm.

"When we went for outstation at Japan, we got drunk and things happen." The fidgeting girl answer truthfully.

"I see."

"I'm truly sorry, Mrs Kim. We got lost in lust and temptation."

"Do you love her?"

The girl is surprise at the question. She hung her head low.

"I see." Tiffany heart clench in pain at the obvious answer on the girl face.

"I do but she doesn't. She only loves you even when we're together, she only calls your name." The girl smile at her sadly. "I make a mistake, we make a mistake. I shouldn't have seduced her. She was drunk during our first time together and I continue to throw myself to her."

Tiffany feels like a thousand dagger stabbing to her heart.

"I know I don't deserve your forgiveness but I'm truly sorry at what I did."

Tiffany sits alone at the restaurant lost in her pain.

Tiffany come back to their home and packs her things. Their house was dark and cold. She couldn't even look at the bed they shared together. Her tears started to roll down again when she sees her daughter clothes. She tearfully packs one shirt with her.

Jessica hugs her tightly and cries with her.

"Are sure about this?" Jessica looks at her frowning. "What about Seohyun?"

"Look after her for me."

Tiffany looks at her sleeping daughter and kisses her. Jessica watches her friend sadly knowing she couldn't change her mind.

"I'll send you to airport."

Jessica and Yuri were the only one sending her to airport. The other were disappointed at her decision to leave Seohyun and at least work on her marriage but she couldn't bear to see Taeyeon and she couldn't trust herself to stay for the sake of her daughter.

"Comeback when you heal." Jessica hugs her tightly.

"We"ll look after Seohyun." Yuri hugs her too.

Tiffany watches them leave and pull her luggage towards boarding area lifelessly. A wailing voice calling her stops her.

She turns around and saw her disheveled wife holding her crying daughter who is calling her name.

She runs toward them and hold her daughter, finding herself unable to leave.

Taeyeon find herself cursing her stupid self every day. She never forgets the day Tiffany found her at their bed with someone else. Her assistant immediately resign and left Seoul due to guilt. She herself never forgives