''It has actually been a while since I've seen him.'' the female confessed to her closest friend that somehow had to fly across the world because of a marriage or whatever it was the problem she had told Hyerin about. ''I bet he still remembers you anyways. You were his first love, right?'' ''I wouldn't exactly call it first love, I mean...'' ''Please, I was there. He never looked at anybody else like he looked at you.'' ''He did, I was his best friend anyways.'' this conversation was depressing Hyerin who sat in her bed, looking at her feet. The fact her mother warned Jiwon would be back in some days made her worry about their past and the things they left unsaid; would they matter? Would they even make sense to think of at this point? She wasn't sure. ''Hyerin, he's coming back for some reason...'' ''Work. My mom spoke to his mother, he told his mother he was done with colleage and the next step was looking for a job. He got an offer somewhere nearby.'' ''He's using that as an excuse to come see you, don't you get it?'' the female on the other side of the line seemed to be pissed; she knew she was right but Hyerin kept denying the obvious. ''Can we not talk about this? He's coming back tomorrow and I don't want to have this on my mind, we may get awkward with each other if I bring up my feelings.'' ''Whatever, girl...'' ''How's stuff going there?'' that seemed the perfect distraction and it was indeed ''My sister is pregnant, can you believe it? I thought I only came to assist her marry that dude she was so in love with but...I guess I'm going to be an auntie soon~ Anyways, I gotta go, talk to you later~'' Hyerin didn't have enough time so mumble a soft 'awn' that someone got stuck in ; her best friend hang up the call, giving her enough time to think about the day that was coming tomorrow and what it actually meant. 

Her eyes landed on the mirror across the room as she let go of the phone she was holding onto a few moments ago. She didn't feel ready psychologically nor physically to meet the guy that had once meant the world to her. She had been there for him since he was a little kid but he soon moved away and they didn't talk often anymore. He sometimes called to talk about his girlfriend and the problems he was having with her, until Hyerin found her life unfair and stopped picking up the calls; it wasn't fair the fact he got to be with someone and she didn't. It wasn't fair the fact he never looked at her as a potential girlfriend when all she wanted was him. It was never fair...for her.

The best decision she made that day was going to sleep. Her eyes however, couldn't close as her brain was wide awake due to the half excitment and half fear she was feeling to meet Jiwon. Her eyes glanced at the clock that was by the nightstand and only at three in the morning, she forced her eyes to close and her brain to sleep. Lately, she had been dealing with so much stress that she wasn't able to sleep peacefully, having Jiwon added as another small problem was the last thing she wanted but just like mentioned before, things for her weren't fair...at all.

Enough. Enough with the sleep. Her brain ordered her body to get up from the bed two hours later. She was nervous to meet the male; how would he look like? Would he still remember her? Would he even he happy when they met? Probably he would pull off a smile like he always did and just play it off. Maybe he hated her for ignorning his calls when he needed her the most...but what could she do? She was tired of being the one hurt in the end. 

''Honey, is everything okay?'' a voice sounded. The female could recognize it from anywhere. It was her mother. Hyerin nodded her head, resting her hand over her forehead as she closed her eyes. She had came downstairs to drink water to calm herself down. ''You've been up since five...'' ''I'm fine, mom.'' she assured. ''Is it because of Jiwon?'' ''Mom, I... what if he doesn't want to see me anymore?'' she suddenly asked, turning to her mother who chuckled. ''Honey, you two are so close...'' ''And yet I turned my back on him when he needed me the most...'' this phrase was whispered as if she was afraid her mother would scold her. She didn't. All she earned was a tight hug and soft kisses on her head. ''You did what you needed to do, honey. You can't always help others and let yourself down.'' it looked good, the way her words were placed in the sentence, as if it was no sin. She nodded slowly, thanking her mother when deep down she knew Jiwon probably didn't think the same.

''It has been a while...mom'' Jiwon chuckled, holding out his arms to take in Hyerin's mother. God, how she missed hearing him calling her mother like that. It only gave away the fact she was right about what she thought; she would never have any chances with him. The female stood back, not wanting to interupt the moment, it was not like he was going to look her way anyways. His eyes however, focused on her, who had grown up to be such a beauty. His arms were still around her mother but his brain was already thinking about how it would feel to have her in his arms instead. ''Are you staying for long?'' her mother asked, pulling away to look at the male who shrugged his shoulders ''Deppends.'' that simple word got the female's attention; what did it mean?

Much to her surprise, he walked up to her and took her in his arms, giving her a tight hug; she stood still, not hugging him. When exactly did she decide to turn cold towards him? She wasn't sure but it seemed the best for her. Her hands pushed him away as she didn't dare to look at his face; it fell into a straight face. ''Kids, let's go.'' almost automatically, her hands reached for his bag, taking it with her as it was usual for her to do when they picked people up from the airport. Jiwon followed her behind, along with her mother; his eyes stared at her back while her mother asked him questions to which he successfully answered with no difficulty. It was weird to have her treating him like this. He was hoping to be recieved with wide open arms. No, he actually wasn't. Yet, she still managed to surprise him.

During the ride home, the two sat on the backseat as her mother asked them to, so they could catch up but her answers were soft 'hmm' or no answers at all. Jiwon eventually gave up and rest his head over the window, staring at the outside that didn't have as much interest for him. ''How about we get ice cream?'' nobody answered to the question her mother asked, this was their favorite thing when they were kids. This would solve any problem, when they were mad at each other, her mother would take them to get ice cream and magically, all the problems flew away. The thought of this made Jiwon smile. ''I'll wait here, please get me a vanilla one.'' her mother asked as soon as the car was parked; her daughter sighed, knowing about the plan. She didn't find it entertaining or what so ever but it was not like it was going to change a thing.

Hyerin was surprised to feel his hand grab hers when they reached the red light; just like before, he looked out for her, protecting her. She wondered if he did that to his girlfriend too. She wanted to take her hand away but he gripped tighter onto her hand. He even dared to rub his thumb against the back of her hand, forcing Hyerin's eyes to land on their hands ''I wish we could go back in time, to when you and I were fine.'' he spoke, noticing the light turned green. He pulled her with him, leading her across the road, towards the ice cream parlour. ''That's life.'' she spoke back to him. ''Don't you wish you could turn back time?'' ''What for?'' ''I've made a mistake.'' she nodded her head slowly and finally pulled her hand away when they were entering the ice cream parlour. ''We all do, you can't be judged for that.'' ''Yeah but because I made that mistake, I may have lost something special.'' Hyerin sighed quietly, rubbing her forehead ''Then why did you come back? Go make it up to her.'' she spoke, tiredly and mad at the way he managed to turn the soft touch into a conversation she wanted to avoid; did he not understand she stopped speaking to him because she couldn't take it. ''I'm trying.'' ''You're not trying hard enough, she's not even here, how are you trying?'' she sighed more and walked quicker to run away from this conversation.

Her hands rest over the counter as she asked for a vanilla ice cream, a strawberry one and finally chocolate. He walked up to her as if this was always planned. Truth was, he had imagined just how many ways this conversation could end and he didn't like any of them, expect for this one as he wasn't letting himself slip through this. Her hands hit the counter furiously as she tried to keep in all the things she was feeling in that moment; she didn't want him to access to her feelings like this, not again, not to ignore them and leave her alone...he wasn't fair if he did. ''She's so mad at me...'' he continued, not minding the fact she was going to explode if he kept talking like this to her. Hyerin bit her bottom lip, knowing that the second her lip slipped past her teeth to it's original position, she would break down. Jiwon stopped beside her and rest his fingertips on the counter, looking foward. ''She's so mad at me, I should have known. I should have made it right to her but I never really noticed how much I cared for her until I lost her. I never thought I'd miss her this mu-'' ''Stop it.'' she suddenly shouted, turning to him. ''Stop it, will you? I got it. I got the fact you're sad over your ex and that she's perfect for you and everything but goddammit, I'm here too. Have you stopped for a second to think about me too? How I feel? Do you even know why I didn't answer your calls anymore? Or did you never notice?'' his eyes focused on the scene by his side, the female had her eyes full of water, if one more drop decided to join the party, it would burst and die into two rivers that would run down her almost white cheeks. It was like jumping into a pool. As he compared her eyes to two pools, the tears slipped down her cheeks; did she want to cry in front of him? No. Did he answer the question she didn't want to have answered? No. ''Because I love you, you ing idiot. Because you're so ing blind to see I was there all the time.'' with this, she turned to the waiter and held out the money, sniffing quietly ''I'm sorry'' she apologized to the person working behind the counter and took the ice cream she just ordered, holding out the chocolate one for him before storming off.

''Dude...what are you doing? Go after her'' Jiwon turned his head, to the male on the other side of the counter, suddenly remembering he really had to follow the indications. ''Thanks.'' he shouted, running out quickly. He never really thought she'd burst like that, much less confess her feelings for him like this. He felt lost, especially because the only person he lost was Hyerin and he was aware of that. The second his eyes landed on her, the male ran quickly towards her and stopped her. She didn't bother to look at him; she knew it was him by the perfume he used; the soft yet manly scent was what her father used and probably he had gotten the perfume from there. ''You're wasting your time with me, Jiwon.'' she told him, letting him wipe the tears away from her cheeks; it didn't fit her, even if they had the rainbow on it. ''No, I'm not.'' ''Just go make up to her already.'' she cried out those words, having him sighing quietly ''I was talking about you. I know I lost you. I felt the worst when you didn't pick up my calls and then I realised why; I always called you because I needed to get it off my chest but I never really gave you time to talk, I never knew anything about your life and I regret it because I missed you. I tried my hardest to finish colleage. I wanted to come to you.'' he sighed, wiping away the last tears he could see; his ice cream was left somewhere behind, being a waist of money. '' you.'' she whispered, hitting her head on his chest; her arms wrapped around his torso, carefully because of the ice cream she was holding onto. '' you.'' she repeated, but he could only hear her sobbing into his chest. Jiwon rest his chin over her head and waited until she was done throwing out her feelings.

Once there were no more sobs heard, he pulled back and wiped, yet again, her tears. ''Can I kiss you?'' he asked. The female shook her head but he knew that was not what she meant. A smile crossed his lips as he leaned down, gently kissing her lips like he always wanted to. On the other hand, this was the kiss she always waited for, the one she imagined...not in these circumstances but still the kiss she always waited to recieve. A loud horn was heard; her mother was waiting by the other end of the road and even though she didn't want to interrupt the couple, she still wanted her vanilla ice cream that was melting into Hyerin's hands. They pulled away; Jiwon took the ice cream that belonged to Hyerin in his hand so he could hold her hand in his. 

''Why did you come back?'' she asked him as they waited for the green light; the conversation she had with her best friend the day before made sense in her head now. ''I needed to talk to you and I guess I managed to find work here, so I'm staying.'' he informed.

A.N.: aye here you go < 3 I hope you like it! Feel free to request again anytime~