Genres: angst
Pairing: yunhyeong x jisoo (reader)
Request: yes [scenario]
Via: tumblr
Small resume of the request: sometimes the hardest decisions are the ones people thank for
Inspired by: D.A.M.A. - Não dá
Lenght: 1236 words
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Both stared at each other quietly. The female sighed quietly, taking this as an excuse to look away from him whose eyes were on her like she was the only thing he saw - if we took time to look through his life, it was almost that. She was very imporant to him and it was too bad that she couldn't realize that. 

Since she was the first one to look away, the male took the chance to speak firstly ''Why are you doing this?'' his calm tone almost scared the female who had no answer to such simple question. Why was she doing what? Why was she choosing to live her life? Was it wrong? Jisoo scoffed quietly at how harsh his question sounded when there was just no need for it. ''Why can't you simply stay with me?'' he asked again, making Jisoo's brain ask the same question to herself. Why couldn't she just stay with him?

''Why can't you support me on this?'' she asked back, making sure to glare at the male who looked at her confused, if he didn't understand her words. She was just not making a lot of sense in that moment - every since they argued, she stopped making sense to him. Her words were almost like the wind; it could be as noisy as it wanted, it would never really make noise to make people understand what's being said with those whistles.

Jisoo found the situation annoying, maybe even something she needed to be mad about since the male didn't seem to get how imporant it was for her. She stood by his side when he needed her too and for some reason, he wasn't even trying to understand her. It hurt her more than she could expect it to; it was like she stood alone in the world. His backup was important for her but he didn't seem to notice that either.

''I want to make something useful out of myself.'' she sighed, looking down at her hands as if she actually needed to justify herself for him, almost like she was begging him to understand and support her. Jisoo peeked over at Yunhyeong who had an expression that was hard to read off his features; mostly his face was just so happy that this was almost hard to take. The female frowned at the sight of the male but was this so wrong? She needed to move on; he was a superstar and she needed to be someone in her life. She needed to be the main character.

''What about us?'' his words made the female sigh quietly. She shrugged her shoulders gently, not because she didn't care but because she didn't know what to answer him. Her brain had an answer but for some reason, her lips stopped her from saying it out loud; it would sound bad, like she didn't care for him when that was nowhere near the truth.

''We will go on with our lives, Yunhyeong.'' her answer couldn't go any more honest than this. The male stared at her quietly, wondering if he meant that little to her; her words seemed to exit just way too easily and that hurt him more than she could ever understand. It was his fault; he kept his problems to himself, worried those would bother Jisoo who now stood on the side of his problems rather than at the solution. He stood up, sighing quietly as he shook his head, smiling slightly at all this situation as he still didn't want Jisoo to feel bad about it - he knew he was standing in the way anyways and he had no right to do so.

''Alright then, do well.'' Jisoo didn't look at him. She let him leave to look at the door as it closed. How bad was he actually feeling with this? Just as bad she was, or even worst. But she had do to this. She knew she had. Even if it was nowhere near what she wanted; she shared just way too much special moments with the male to forget him like that. She was unable to understand how she held onto herself so easily while she talked to him, like it was a natural thing - a break up. It only hit her a few minutes later; without knowing, she started to cry at the thought of the male she just left behind; her life would obviously go on but could she really call it life without him?

It was more like surviving. Life was something she had when she had Yunhyeong by her side, he gave meaning to that word. Now that he was gone, it could be called anything but living. Surviving fit this situation the most, in her point of view. However, sometimes the hardest decisions are the ones people thank about later. At this point, the female only wanted to turn back time and forget about the decision she took two days ago - she was going to study abroad.

Jisoo headed to her room, stopping by the door at the sight of a small box. She smiled just a bit, wondering if she should take a look at it or simply pull it away and move on from this situation. She decided to sit by her bed, sniffing as her eyes landed on what was inside the box. Yes, she parted from Yunhyeong simply to make it easier for both - she wasn't planing on coming back for a while and this could lead him to a complicated situation. He could fall in love again and she didn't want to stop him from experiencing it with someone better, better than her, according to her thoughts - good thing she didn't let Yunhyeong hear them; he'd deny it all. 

Her hand reached for a few letters, tied with a small pink ribbon that was pulled by the female just so she could seek for comfort on the words those letters had. She opened the first one, smiling softly as she remembered what happened the day she recieved that letter. It was the cute way Yunhyeong found to confess to her. She liked the fact he messed up and put the wrong letter inside the envelope. She chuckled as she noticed the words that were crossed out; simple things like ''This is Yunhyeong'' or even ''I think you're beautiful'' that he managed to write in a nicer way on the letter he was supposed to deliver to her. Good thing this was the one she recieved because it made her giggle, even today after everything was over.

Yunhyeong was someone that made her happy no matter what and she decided she'd watch him from far if she couldn't have him. She'd support him and move on with her life, perhaps she'd be able to meet him later, somewhere, somehow and things would work out this time. Who knows?

Jisoo peeked inside the box once again, smiling at the polaroids inside it with silly descriptions written by both. The photos looked silly too - that was the most comforting thing about them. Those memories were like gold, the only difference was that gold wouldn't be enough to compare to how worth those were. The female sighed, sniffing as a sudden wave of regret hit her. She did the right thing for him, she knew it.

A.N.: OMG THIS WAS THE HARDEST THING EVERY CAUSE YUNHYEONG /ugly sobbing/ honestly this ray of sunshine is life ; u ; and I just wrote an angst with him - what am I doing with my life? ; n ; anyways, thank you so much for requesting! I hope you enjoyed this honestly because I guess were on a wave of angsts rn? Haha. Also, I'm really glad you liked the Donghyuk angst one, I've been asked to write a second part with happy ending therefore it may be up soon /winkwink; slapped/ I guess that's all I have to say? haha. ENJOY c: