Broken Up
The Warrior Ice Prince
The Warrior Ice Prince
Chapter 88 : Broken Up
Your POV:
It was awkward. It was awkward for you and it even seemed to be awkward for him as well. Minwoo had his hands folded together, thumbs constantly on the go and brushing over each other. His head was down and he wouldn't look at me. It was dead silent as I watched his hunched back move up and down slightly with his breathing. It was like he knew what was coming.
Unsure of how to go about this, I stared at Minwoo instead, the person who had been taking care of me for months now. The guy who deserved so much more. I sighed lightly.
"So?" He finally said, not looking up. "Aren't you going to say anything?" His tone was deflated, devoid of the usual energy I was used to hearing. I opened my mouth to start, but closed it up again. "Ah-" My mouth couldn't form any words just yet.
I'm sorry? We just can't be together? I can't be your girlfriend anymore because I'm in love with your rival, but I hope you won't hate me? I sighed, harder this time. Why was breaking up so difficult.
"Go ahead." He prompted and finally looked up. A few seconds past, then a minute, but I just didn't know what to say. "Just say it already. I can take it, I can." His voice rose, startling me and I realised that maybe he really knew what this meeting was.
"I know that you don't love me in any shape or form. I know that it's Yoseob, that it's always been Yoseob and I know that you want to tell me that you want to break up with me." Minwoo's voice broke in the middle as did my heart. I was making him feel this way. I'm the one that hurt him.
"I...I'm sorry." What more was there to be said? He basically said everything already.
He took some time to lower his head back down and discreetly wipe the corners of his eyes before rising again. "Sorry...that's all you can say." He scoffed, rolling his eyes bitterly. It was the first time I've ever seen him this way. There was no way I could blame him though.
"Minwoo, I may not love you how you want me to or how I wish I did, but I could never repay you for everything you've done to me. I care for you more than you know and you are special to me. I'm sorry that it took so long for me to realise I can't run away from the truth, but now that I know, I don't want to continue with something that is fake." I spoke softly, gently. If he wanted to yell to me, say mean things, I would let him, but I would not do the same thing to him.
He let out a shaky breath, recollecting himself. "I'm sorry for saying that to you. I shouldn't have said that. I'm more glad that you wanted to end things with me when they were going no where instead of letting it go on."
"I can't pretend that I'm okay, but I understand that it's probably for the best. I'm just not the one for you."
"Minwoo..." I almost wanted to cry and beat myself up. He put up a hand and shook his head. "I was the one that pushed you into this relationship anyway." He took a deep breath, then smiled. Suddenly I could see the Minwoo I was used to. "Alright then, I guess it's official. I'll see you around, I guess." I wanted to comfort him, but I knew that it wasn't what he wanted. Not from me. "Okay. Thank you for everything. See you..." I rested my palm on the back of his hand for the last time then stood and walked away.
"I'm proud of you." Mir said, petting my head. I couldn't help but sigh. "I know that it was the right thing to do, but why does it feel like the exact opposite?" I asked, drawing nothing specific on the counter with my finger. "It may feel that way right now, but trust that this is the best for him and you." I nodded in understanding, but didn't feel any better. "I think I need to talk to Luna." I pushed myself away from the counter and hopped off of the stool.
As I made my up to my room, I pulled out my cellphone from my pocket and tapped on her contact. Her information showed up and I pressed my thumb down on her number.
I belly flopped onto my bed with the phone ringing in my ear. Would she pick up this time? Or was she busy like usual? After what seemed like forever, the call was connected.
"Hello?"
"Oh hey! It's _____. How are you?" I asked. My, how long has it been? "Good. What about you?" I smiled, rolling onto my back. "Same. Are you busy right now?" She answered in the affirmative. "I'm with Sungjong, but we're not doing much." "I have news to tell you if you have time." She said to go ahead so I told her that I broke up with Minwoo. "What?! Why?!" Luna exclaimed. "Did he do something wrong? I thought he was a sweetheart..." "What about who? Tell me too!" Sungjong's voice was picked up. "I'm going to put you on speakerphone."
I waited a few seconds before telling the two everything that happened. I almost didn't want to tell Sungjong, but I figured that it would be fine if he knew as well.
"Did you tell him?! Did you tell Yoseob yet?" Luna asked excitedly. "W-what do you mean? Tell him that I broke up with Minwoo? No! You guys are the first to know after my brother." I was taken aback by her question. Honestly, I only got as far as ending the relationship I was in. I hadn't even thought of talking or telling Yoseob at all, but it would make sense. I no longer have a boyfriend because of him.
"Are you going to tell him?" Sungjong used that tone of voice that I've come to recognise. It was like whatever he asks in that voice he already knew the answer to. "Well I haven't thought about that yet..." "Hmm...okay." I could almost see his face smoothed over with secrets. It was probably the creepiest thing about him. That he knew more than he should.
"You know, I so want you to go for it, but at the same time I really worry that this will backfire on you...again." I smiled sadly, mixed feelings also churning inside of me. "Don't worry about me. Whatever happens, happens. I feel like I'm finally going in the right direction and I'm too tired of being too scared and ending up making the wrong decision."
"If you think it's right then just do it. We're here for you if you need us." Ah, it's wonderful having a bestfriend. "Thanks, Luna. You too, Sungjong. I suppose you have something to do? I won't keep you." I smiled, knowing that Luna's face probably just became a few shades more red. "Oh yeah! Okay, see you!" Luna practically squealed. I could only hear part of Sungjong's goodbye because the line cut before he finished.
"Aigoo." I chuckled and shook my head.
Suddenly, it was quiet and I was become very aware that I was alone. At moments like this, my thoughts took over and I knew that I would be thinking a lot. I sighed, and flipped onto my back.
I went to school on Monday feeling refreshed and confident. I don't think I was ready to face Yoseob and confess to him a second time, but I felt so much more light and that confirmed that I was going the right way.
When I arrived, I said happy good mornings to friends and got a coffee. I went to class and saw Minhyuk setting up his drums.
"Morning, Minhyuk. Where are the guys?" I asked, placing my bag on the ground and moving to the storage room. "They're going to be late. Those punks slept in." I laughed and got the newest instrument I've been working on; the violin. I took it out of it's case and started tuning it.
"You seem happy today." Minhyuk noted, sitting down on a stool in front of his drum set. "Look at that smile. Did something good happen?" He played a short beat, ending it with a clash of the biggest symbol. "Well...I'm not sure I'd call it a good happening." "Oh? Enlighten me. What sort of thing could have happened?"
And that was how the news circulated around until I was met with it again when another person in my year asked me if it was true during lunch break. I knew that sweet Minhyuk wouldn't blabber off to everyone so I figured that someone had overheard. Probably that gossip loving girl who always talks and laughs loudly.
As I chewed on my rice, I couldn't help but wonder if Yoseob had gotten word. I had no plans to talk to him, but I would catch myself subconsciously looking for him. I just wanted a glimpse, something small. As the day progressed, I realized that I really wasn't ready to face him, but maybe a few stolen glances would be satisfying enough. I hadn't seen him all day.
I ate up all of my lunch and went to my next class and my next class and got many questions. Not to mention the whispers and looks from those who weren't bold enough to come up to my face.
By the end of the day, the news that I was single again was out and there was no sign of the reason for it. So, I stepped slowly, reluctantly toward home deeming the day unsuccessful. I hadn't seen Yoseob even once.
"Tomorrow's another day, tomorrow's another day." I said to myself under my breath. I closed my eyes momentarily and sighed. When I looked back up, I nearly jumped up in shock.
There he was, one hand hanging a jacket over his shoulder, the other in his pocket. His hair, tousled in that messy cute look and his gait was signature him. The only thing was different was his eyes. They were so open, so somber, like an ocean. Clear, cool, but not cold.
I regained my sanity and as coolly as I could, walked straight past him. Once he was behind me, I breathed out only to get it caught again.
"Hey. _____." I froze then slowly turned. "Hey...what's up?" I tucked my hair behind my ear and avoided eye contact. "I heard that you and Minwoo broke up." He paused. "Is that true?" I gulped and answered with a yes. "Oh. Well that's surprising." Another pause and the silence seemed to say for him 'I thought you loved him.' "Why is that?" "Oh, uh, we just weren't good for each other." I placed an awkward hand on the back of my arm. "Oh."
The silence dragged on and quite painfully. When I looked up, my eye caught something white on Yoseob's head. "Hey, you got a thing..." I stepped up to him and pulled it out of his hair. It was a pretty, fluffy, white feather. "Mmph-" Suddenly I was pulled into his chest. His heartbeat raced just as fast as mine.
His arm squeezed me tighter and I was too stunned to move. "I love you. If not Minwoo, I can't help but hope it's me. Please tell me that it's me."
What do I do? What should I do? Tell him? Push him away yet again? Hug him back? Kiss him?
I decided to do as my heart told me.
"Yoseob, it has always been you." I whispered, but his ears caught every syllable he needed. The next thing I knew, his lips were on mine and this time, I kissed him back.
Okay, so it's been a crazy I don't even know how long.
First, there's school,
second, choir,
third, play rehearsals & the shows,
forth, my dance recital is soon
and fifth to top it all off, I have been sick.
So I'm sorry and I hope this chapter makes up for it.
And one more, just a heads up! Exams are coming up next month! Yay...
Sorry...
See you when I can update again!
Hey all, I know it's been a really long time, but I have some words I'd like to share with you if you would be so inclined. I have it in the currently one, but will be two new updates so please read them! Thank you so much for your time, SarahChi1023
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