“What are we going to do?” I ask Kibum quietly holding his hand tightly, tears still falling from my eyes. “Kibum?”

Pulling me close Kibum simply kisses the top of my head. “It’ll be alright.” He whispers so only I can hear him. It seems unfair with people passing by, happy, laughing, enjoying everything that life has to offer, and nothing ripped from them. The time passes painstakingly slow, thoughts that I never knew that could hurt so much stabbing at me again and again. Sitting with Kibum trying to make sense of everything how it could have happened, what could have gone wrong, anything at all to make my life seem okay again. “Stop it.” He whispers forcibly. “It isn’t your fault stop trying to justify it so it is Jinri.”

I wish I could have something to say, that I would miraculously believe that, but I can’t. “But how then? Why? Why us? Why?!” I ask him falling to hysterics again. My tears falling faster, my thoughts becoming muddled into nothingness; all I know is Kibum is pulling me closer and trying to impede the seemingly endless tears.

Reading the test results I silently question them. “We can try again, Jinri I promise you I’ll be here.”

Hiding my face into Kibum’s neck as the doctor comes in I can sense how tense it is, I just I don’t want to hear what I already know. “This is common, Mrs. Kim.” The doctor says, he says it like I should be happy it is. “You and your husband can try again.”

“See, it isn’t the end.” Key says rubbing my head patiently. “Jinri come on.” He says nudging me lightly.

Sighing I wipe my tears away and glance at our doctor. “What can I do so it doesn’t happen again?” I ask him quietly. I don’t want to go through losing a baby again, it may have only been a few weeks into the pregnancy, but it hurts still.

I listen quietly nodding my head knowing full well that Key and I are both taking what he is saying down in our heads.

“Kibum?” I call quietly as he drives us home from the doctor’s office. He glances at me, a soft smile on his face. “You promise not to leave me right?” I whisper quietly, sure it may be childish, but we both want a family.

Kibum chuckles lightly before his lips part slightly letting out a sigh, moving his hand to grip mine Key glances at me again, “I promised you the day we met that I’d never leave you. I made it known to the world when I proposed to you four years ago, and I when we said our vows I swore I would never leave you, I promise you Jinri I’m not going to leave you ever. This is just a small step we’re taking together. We’ll have a baby, so please don’t kill yourself over things you can’t control.” He says with all the love he can express.

Nodding my head I squeeze his hand a little tighter. “We should try again soon.” I mumble blushing.

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