Smiling at Key I hold his hand, obviously he looking at me confused as I’m holding back tears with a smile. I know he can see right through it but I’m determined to go through with this. “Kibum.” I start staring at the handsome man before me him frowning immediately at hearing his real name.

“Sunyoung?” he says quietly in a very distinctive tone, he knows what’s coming, I mean how could he not. He knows me better than anyone else, and that may not mean much to the random passer-byer. I don’t let people close, not close enough to hurt me. I like feeling like I won’t get hurt, not having to fear the pain of someone leaving or when you have to leave. “Is something wrong?” He asks looking at me, squeezing my hands his.

Pursing my lips I in a breath of air. “Kibum, I’m going to go.” I whisper feeling tears sting my eyes, threatening to fall. “I can’t let this chance go.” I whisper looking up at him, my tears falling seeing the loving look twisted with pain and understanding.

“I figured this was coming.” He whispers letting go of one of my hands to my face, his soft hands like silk. “I don’t blame you.” He whispers wiping my tears away. “Just don’t forget about me while you’re over there in America.” He says caressing my face. “And don’t you dare blame me for waiting for you to return.’ He whispers into my ear.

Wrapping my arms around him tightly and squeezing my eyes shut I breath in Key’s scent, I don’t want to forget it. I don’t want to forget anything about him. “It’ll be two years. I’ll be back as soon as I can.” I whisper. “I love you.”

“I love you.” He mumbles back, the pure sincerity in his voice only made this harder, I love Key, I love him with all my heart, but having the chance to study abroad won’t come back to me. I have to take advantage of it while I can. While I still can.

The two years sped by as though they were nothing, I became fluent in English in a matter of months, and I achieved my goal. Serving my internship in New York with a designer. I enjoyed every moment, yet I spent every moment wanting to return home, ready to apologize to Key.

Seeing Jonghyun standing there to pick me up I smile at him, waving casually as I make my way over to him. Engulfing me in a hug I feel slightly better with how everything turned out. “Is he happy?” I ask him quietly in the airport, too afraid to see the look on his face.

“Honestly, he is.” He says gently. “I know that you both intended for you to get back together, but he is happy with So Hee.” He says hugging my tightly. “Are you sure you don’t want him to know you’re back?”

Nodding my head against his shoulder I pull away and smile at him. “As long as he is happy I’ll manage.” I tell him honestly. Key and I couldn’t manage with just phone calls, texting, web cameras…It just wasn’t enough, it wasn’t the same. We began fighting, talking less, until eventually we just broke. We couldn’t handle all the agony we were putting each other through. “You’re a good older brother and friend.” I tell him as we walk out of the airport. “Just let him have this. I’ll be fine.”

“It’ll slip out eventually.” He says quietly as we get in his car. “I’ll just screw up and mention you’re back in Seoul.”

Chuckling I nod my head, I know my older brother and he isn’t wrong, but for now I’ll pretend it’s a joke to get through the hard goodbye, and possible hello.

I'll be posting a series of these types of one shots. I'm leaning towards one for each member, from either point of view. Sound good?

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