A/N: I will try to write Author’s note here from now on.

I’ve hurt myself today by reading a sad angst story and I can’t get it out of my mind. Why? I don’t know!

Hyuk’s POV

I was supposed to be working today but I cannot finish even a single paragraph on my proposal so I told my manager that I am not feeling well and I will take a half day.

People in my department are so shocked because I don’t normally use my half days—even if I am close to dying already. But today is different; I cannot put myself together anymore.

Ai’Cap called me a while ago and told me to meet him up in a café near Myeongdong and I am half eager and half worried to meet him because I want to know how Ai’Gun is.

What I didn’t expect is seeing the four of them—Ai’Cap, Ai’White, Ai’Gun, and Nong Mark sitting on one table and waiting for me. I almost choke when Ai’Gun raised his hand and smiles brightly at me when he saw me coming in the café.

“Sawadee khrab P’,” they all said in union and I can’t even utter the word to them. I wai and sit opposite to all of them. This is like an interrogation table, “What do you want to eat P’?” Ai’Cap asked me right away and though I am still confused I still gave him my order, “Ahm—waffle and Thai milk tea,” and he smiles.

He pushes Ai’White, “Go White, buy our orders first~” then when Ai’White is gone, I cannot still comprehend what’s happening. “Why did you leave the office early today na khrab P’?” I am so nervous even though Ai’Gun asked me nicely. I cannot even remember this feeling because I am always their cool P’Hyuk all the time. I smile nervously, “Just can’t focus na Ai’Gun—” then I scan him.

He looks great to me. He is smiling like the usual, he is looking at me like the way he looks at me before, he is talking to me normally, “Ahm—Ai’Gun—are you okay na khrab?” I asked slowly. I don’t want to hurt him again—just like last night.

My brother smiles bigger, “Woie—I am okay na P’,” then I noticed how he nudges Nong Mark for couple of times now. I raised my eyebrow, “What is it?” but I remember how much I hate filtering my thoughts. I asked right away, “Ahm—P’Hyuk—P’Mark will say something to you na khab~” Ai’Gun said and this time he let the spotlight on his boyfriend. Even Ai’Cap is just calmly sitting beside Ai’Gun.

A deep sigh, “I’m sorry P’Hyuk—” did I hear it right? This boy was barking at me last night about hurting Ai’Gun and now he is saying sorry to me, “I talked to Ai’Title and Ai’White last night and tried to reflect on my actions.” I nod my head listening to him while Ai’Gun is looking at this boy—like he is the only one in the room. Making me a bit uneasy.

“Look P’Hyuk—what you said with Ai’Gun hurts him—” “Hum—maybe I should start first na khrab~” but Ai’Gun cut him. I can’t help but chuckled on how he cut this nong. I look at my brother who is looking at me now—his eyes are crystal clear. No grudges—no anger—just pure eyes looking straight at me, “I cried P’Hyuk not because you hurt me so much na khrab but because I am worried that P’ might be so mad na khrab at me and I don’t want P’ to be mad at Ai’Gun because I love P’Hyuk—and I know that P’ loves me—no—P’ loves Ai’Cap and Ai’Gun so much—so maybe I thought you love me less now na P’ because of my relationship with P’Mark~” I sigh in relief.

‘That’s it~’

If I can cry, I will because when did I deserve to have a brother like Ai’Gun? “So—you aren’t mad na khrab because I called you bad names Ai’Gun?” I asked him again wanting to hear the confirmation from him and he nods quickly, “Chai P’—I am not mad. I slept and woke up feeling that I should also say sorry to P’ na khrab because I might make P’ feels bad because I cried—but P’—I choose to trust P’Mark na khrab this time—can you also please give him a chance?” the bastard sitting beside my brother is looking at him in awe.

How can I hand over my innocent brother that easily? “Nong!” I called him and soon he is looking back at me, “What are you trying to say?” I asked him again because I want to hear him first before I lay down my terms.

He sighs deeply again, “What I want to say P’, what you said to Ai’Gun last night hurts him but—just like what Ai’Gun said—and like what people around me said—P’Hyuk loves Ai’Gun so much and you probably didn’t mean what you said. I also don’t want to make Ai’Gun upset by fighting with you na P’—so please P’—give me a chance na khrab to prove myself that I deserve Ai’Gun—and also deserve P’Hyuk’s trust!” this arrogant brat! But what can I really do? Every time I look at Ai’Gun now, all I can see is how Hae looks at me and how Ai’Cap looks at Ai’White.

A tray of food is placed down on our table and Ai’White is back on our table. Perfect timing. I folded my hands and put my chin on it looking at my brothers with their boyfriends, “Nong—” I sigh, “Ai’Mark—what’s your plan na khrab after this vacation?” I asked him seriously. I know that he is a graduating student from International Class—thank you Ai’Yatch for still giving a good report to me.

“I still have few weeks na khrab at university na P’ fixing my graduation but I already applied in Bangkok na P’ for job and soon start right after my graduation. I don’t really think I need to work na P’ because I like playing with stock exchange na khrab and I have enough money on my own to pay for Ai’Gun’s education—but I know that Ai’Gun won’t want that and I know that P’Hyuk won’t want that. So I will be just a responsible boyfriend na khrab—earn money for our future na P’,” I still don’t like him, Ai’Sweet talking bastard but I need to accept it slowly.

I nod, “Good enough—and yeah! I am not handling my brother na khrab so easily to you Ai’ so don’t try to steal away my responsibility to my brother!” I can even hear the bitterness from my voice but who is he to complain—right? I look at Ai’White now, “How about you Ai’White? What’s your plan?” I am still on process of trusting Ai’White—so far he hasn’t disappointed me yet—well he needs to. My brother cried a river for him.

These boys are too lucky to have my brothers—it’s making me irritated, “Well P’—actually—I still have one year na khrab in University before I graduated. I will do my best for now because Cap told me to study hard and have a lot of A’s on my grades. I will tell you again P’ my plan next year when I am already graduating na khrab~” bastard, he is so sure that he will still be Ai’Cap’s boyfriend until next year. These two IC boys have the nerves and back bone.

I keep on nodding before grabbing my portion of food on the tray. “I will try to—” this is so hard for me. It feels like I am handling my daughters to marriage. Heechul Hyung and Hangeng Hyung will have a hard time once Heemi decided to get married or even have a boyfriend, “trust you Ai’Mark. I don’t even think I can change Ai’Gun’s mind na khrab—but that doesn’t mean I approve you already. You need to earn my trust—because you showed us your bad side already!” I know his dirty little works now because he confessed it.

Not only Ai’Mark but also Ai’White nod, “These are for both of you~” I look sharply at the boys who shamelessly claim my brothers, “Engineering na khrab isn’t for weak. I survived my faculty and became the head hazer na khrab….this isn’t a threat—but make my brothers cry—hurt them na khrab and I swear I have my whole faculty with me beating the living day light in both of you! All I want for them is to be happy and if both of you cannot give it to them na khrab that happiness—then break up now!” I hope what I said to them is crystal clear.

But these boys must be insane because they both smile at me. Like what I said is not threatening enough, “Thank you P’Hyuk—for the chance,” Ai’Mark said with voice full of gratitude, at least I know that he is serious, “And besides P’ I am possessive enough to hand over Ai’Gun to someone else,” still a bastard.

After that short chat, I told them about the plan tomorrow. Ai’White and Ai’Gun will go to the airport to fetch Ai’Kris and their friends and Ai’White will go back to Thailand. After that they will follow shortly to the address that I will send tomorrow because I will introduce them to my friends here in Korea and also try to tour them around.

Mark’s POV

That went well.

I know that this is hard for P’Hyuk but he still gave me chance and I will not mess up this time. I will show them how much I love Ai’Gun—and speaking of my lovely boyfriend, we decided to roam around—just the two of us.

“P’Mark, where should we go?” he asked me nicely while walking beside me. This is all new to us so I am not forcing him to hold my hand or stuff. Originally, Ai’Gun is straight and I don’t want him to do things that he isn’t used to. I tuck some loosen strands of his hair while we are still walking, “I have a friend na khrab studying in Korea na Ai’Gun—do you mind paying my friend a visit na khrab?” and I can’t help staring at his eyes.

He chuckled at my action or maybe my question, “Of course na P’—we can visit your friend na khrab. We have been in Korea for a while and I know that P’ wanted to visit many places na woie—so let’s go na P’~” damn! I am so lucky. I breathe deeply before chuckling too, “Ai’Gun—can we drop the Ai’ and P’ when we are talking to each other?” I asked him. I want to feel like we really are not friends anymore.

“What do you mean P’? I don’t want people to tell me na khrab that I am being disrespectful na P’~” he pouts and God I wish I can kiss him but I might not stop if I will and Ai’Gun might get shocked too so I restrain myself. I need to stop myself in everything that I want to do to him.

‘Goddamn it Mark Siwat! You two are just new to this! Don’t mess up!’

We are still walking while talking—the university that we will visit is near already, “You aren’t being disrespectful—” I can’t look away from him, he is so perfect, “You are my boyfriend now na Ai’Gun—I just want to—you know—change the way we call each other?” I asked him feeling weird all over. This shouldn’t be new to me because I did this before with Ai’Best—but this feels so weird—weird in a good way.

He frowns a bit, “Why P’ na khrab? Should I call you—babe? or baby? or love na khrab? Hum—maybe sometimes but don’t you want me calling you P’Mark? or you prefer only Mark na P’?” those combo attack or babe, baby, love, and Mark are too much for me.

Focus! I need to focus, “I prefer Mark—so I can call you Gun—okay? But maybe sometimes I will also call you baby—” cute, his cheeks burn, “babe—” I move closer to him to whisper making his ears red, “or even love~” and then he cover his face using his hands. I can’t help but chuckle and eventually grab his arm in case he bumps into someone. There’s no way I will let someone touch him without my consent.

“You are too much—P’—I mean—” then he peaks between his fingers, “Mark!”

‘I died!’

We are here in Ewha Womans University because my friend is currently studying here. At first, Gun doesn’t want to go in because he said this is for women but I when I told him to look around, he saw a lot of men too. The ‘Womans University’ is open to men too now.

We didn’t have a hard time looking for my friend, “P’Mark~” she called me and hug me instantly making me chuckled with the sudden attack, “It’s nice to see you too na khrab, Ai’Cherreen~” I said before she released me from her bone crashing hug.

She is—my closest cousin. I told Gun that we are meeting a friend because I don’t want him to feel awkward meeting a family member, “Oh—you have a friend with you na P’Mark,” she looks at my Gun. I put an arm on his shoulder and smile proudly, “More than—friends!” and then she goes—running like a crazy girl she is and jumping in joy while cursing every now and then.

Gun suddenly whispers, “You said you are possessive na Mark?” he asked and I nod while still watching my cousin jumps and run like crazy, “Me too—so do let anyone touch you! I hate it!” and I don’t know if I should smile or not with his statement.

‘Damn Mark! You are so lucky!’

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