Gun’s POV

There was a change of plan, P’Donghae told me that P’Hyuk messaged him to go straight to their apartment and we will all eat there and not at P’Heechul’s house. Actually, I haven’t been to P’Hyuk’s house and Mae and Pa told me before going here in Korea to look at P’s house. See if P’ is living well but I don’t know what Mae and Pa was trying to see if P’ is living well because P’ looks well and healthy. He doesn’t seem sick for me.

“We are here Gun,” P’Donghae taps my shoulder and I look out of the taxi window to see a tall building in front of me. P’ on the other hand pays for the taxi and then we both go out of the taxi. I am so curious, “P’—I haven’t seen a lot of normal houses na khrab here in Korea na woie just like in Thailand, why is that P’?” I asked him while we are walking inside the apartment already.

This building looks okay and there’s an elevator too, “Well—mortgage houses here in Korea is pretty high and people cannot afford mostly to have regular houses like the one in Thailand. As you notice too Gun, there are so many buildings like this all over the country—this is what we called an apartment complex,” I nod understanding it a bit. We went in the elevator and P’ pressed 11^th floor, “Apartments aren’t so cheap but we can have loan here by the bank and also we can pay it by installment.” I nod again while trying to get all the information in my head.

“Then P’—when P’Hyuk and you get married—please live in Thailand na khrab. Houses are cheaper there na P’—you don’t need to live in apartment complex na woie~” I said right after I understand the situation. There is no way too that Mae and Pa will let P’Hyuk and P’Donghae lives in a building, Mae said she wants us all to live in our own houses, “So—you will let me marry your brother?” I got shocked by P’s question, I look at him and he looks so happy, “Chai P’—P’Hyuk already calls you his wife na khrab and Mae and Pa love you too and Ai’Cap and I like you for P’Hyuk—and lastly, P’Hyuk will kill me P’ if I will tell him not to marry you,” and the elevator door opens.

I walk out already but P’ is still inside, “P’…come one,” I called him and gladly P’ smiles so bright at me before walking out of the elevator, “You are—adorable. Ahhh—Mark really doesn’t deserve our Gun~” and he skips happily already living me feeling confused.

Anyway, I followed P’ until we reached a door and the sound coming from inside is quite loud already so I think my friends are already there. “Let me look at you,” P’ suddenly turns to me and then try to fix my hair, “Hum—” then he tried to put some strains on the other side, “There—perfect!” I laugh after P’ put down his hands, “You are like P’Hyuk now, P’Donghae~” I told him and we both smile.

P’ pressed the passcode of their house and I heard some beeping sound before the door opens, “Hae~” I heard my P’Hyuk already the moment we walked in the house. P’ told me to remove my shoes and leave it near the door. We walk in the house and saw everyone already sitting at the dining table, “WOW~” I said right away when I saw Thai dishes on the table.

“So—what can you say?” P’Donghae asked and it gives me time to look at everyone. They are all staring back at us, “Like an idol,” P’Hyuk said which makes everyone laugh. I am confused, am I the only one who didn’t understand what’s happening, “Woie! My brother looks so handsome na khrab!” P’Hyuk walks near me and even looks at me from left to right, “What P’?” I asked him still confused, “The hair Ai’Gun, it looks really good on you,” finally I understand. I smile at them and brush my hair using my hand, “Chai P’—P’Zhoumi is really good na P’. He told me na khrab what to do so that the color won’t fade easily na khrab just like my other hair color~”

I continue telling them some tips that P’Zhoumi told me on how to take care of my hair—even until I am sitting down already beside Ai’Cap who also told me that my hair color looks nice on me.

We continue laughing and sharing some stories while eating. I can’t help but look around the table, Ai’Plan and Ai’Mean are sitting beside each other and Ai’Mean is putting some food on Ai’Plan’s plate. I’d never noticed that before but Ai’Mean really likes to take good care of Ai’Plan. Then on their left side are Ai’Title and Ai’Cooheart both trying to eat silently but I can see Ai’Title looking at Ai’Cooheart from time to time and smiling at him even though Ai’Cooheart isn’t looking at him. Then on Ai’Plan’s right side is Nong Heemi eating silently. No teasing from her recently, I wonder why. But since Nong Heemi is there, P’Wang Qing and P’Dayu are also present but they are eating silently too just like Nong Heemi.

Going back to Ai’Cooheart, sitting beside him is Ai’Fluke and Ai’Ohm, both are feeding each other—or more like Ai’Ohm is feeding Ai’Fluke as much as possible. I don’t know why they are always like that, Ai’Fluke has his hands but always let Ai’Ohm feed him. Then, there are my P’Hyuk and P’Donghae laughing by themselves while whispering at each other. My brother looks so in love. Then I am sitting beside P’Hyuk and Ai’White and Ai’Cap are right next to me. I didn’t mean to see it but when I look below just now, I saw them holding each other’s hands. So clingy to each other—and lastly—there’s P’Mark. Not smiling at everyone, just eating his meal silently.

Normally, P’ sits next to me and give me food that I like and also tried to cut meat for me—but no—P’ is sitting so far from me. “Ahh—P’Hyuk na khrab—” I look at Ai’Cap when he started talking—well not only me but everyone from the table, “Hum?” P’ responded and Ai’Cap smiles at him, “White will say something na khrab to you,” then I saw him tap Ai’White’s knee. Now we all look at Ai’White instead of Ai’Cap, “Hum—thank you na khrab for welcoming me here in Korea na P’Hyuk—P’Donghae—but I already booked my flight na khrab this Saturday—actually something came up in the house and I told Cap that I don’t need to go back home but he insisted—” “Because that’s the right thing to do,” Ai’Cap cut him and White nods, “Yup—that’s the right thing to do—so this Saturday na P’ since Ai’Cap will still go to the airport to fetch Ai’Toptap—I will also go back to Thailand,” I don’t know but I feel proud—not only to Ai’White for choosing to go back home but also to Ai’Cap.

My brother—is really amazing for telling Ai’White to go back for his family. Now, I look at P’Hyuk waiting for his answer, “Well—Ai’Cap is right—it’s your family na Ai’White so I hope you can help them once you’re back,” “Thank you P’,” I have a great family.

I thought that was the end but I was wrong, “P’Hyuk,” my body looks instantly to P’Mark the moment I’ve heard his voice. He isn’t looking at me—but he is looking straight at my P’Hyuk, “Hum?” I didn’t look at P’ though he responded already, “Can I—” then P’Mark sighs, “Can I also go back to Thailand with Ai’White too?” instantly, I can feel my breathing stops for a moment. I didn’t look at anyone; I only look at one particular person, “Huh? Why na khrab? Do you need to do something too in Thailand?” P’Hyuk asked him though I feel like P’Hyuk doesn’t like P’Mark so much, he still asked him in concern voice.

I don’t get it, P’Mark cannot even look at me, am I asking too much from him? “Well—not really P’—actually—I went to this trip na khrab to prove myself to you na P’Hyuk—but I guess—I shouldn’t prove myself anymore,” and what’s wrong with his tone? Why does he sound so sad? I keep on blinking many times, trying to understand the situation but no—nothing is clear to me.

“And why do you think Nong that you don’t need to prove yourself to me anymore?” I don’t understand the conversation—I want to understand but I wasn’t part of it again, and then what? Later P’Mark will blame me again for being clueless? “Because—” then finally he looks at me, “I don’t—deserve him na khrab!” I hit my hands loudly on the table startling everyone including P’Mark.

I stand up straight while still looking at one particular person, “You!” I pointed my accusing finger to him, “follow me!” I said with voice full of authority. I am not mad—I am fuming mad, “Alaiw—” “I SAID! ING STAND UP THERE AND FOLLOW ME!” I yelled loudly making everyone in the table yelp. I feel hands suddenly holding mine, Ai’Cap on my accusing finger and probably P’Hyuk on the other, “P’ Gun—calm down,” Ai’Cap is already standing beside me and whispering to me but no—I am so mad right now. “Ai’Gun—listen to P’Hyuk—come on—I think you’re tired,” P’ also stands up and whispering to me.

‘What am I? An Elementary kid?’

I shook my head but didn’t spare them a look, “This is between him and I! I am ing tired already of not understanding and then blaming me in the end now what? Running away back to Thailand and saying that he doesn’t deserve? Who? Me!?” I’ve never raised my voice to any of my brothers before—but I am raising now.

I shoved both P’Hyuk and Ai’Cap’s hands on mine, “Are you going to follow me out or what!?” I asked again and this time I am ready to pounce on him or anything to vent my anger out if he will not follow but this P’ stands up calmly, “Not here Ai’Gun,” his voice begs me, “out!” I said finally before marching out of P’Hyuk’s apartment. I picked any random slippers on the front door and didn’t waste any time.

Mark’s POV

I am terrified. I watched as Ai’Gun angrily shut the door loudly, “He is mad,” I heard Ai’Plan. I know he is mad, “No—he is very mad,” Ai’Cap said this time and everyone has worried look on their faces, “P’Hyuk—what are we going to do? P’Gun—” but P’Hyuk shakes his head on Ai’Cap before looking at me, “Do you think you can calm him down?” P’ asked me as if I am a miracle worker.

Can I? “He is mad P’—because of me,” I responded finally and his cold face becomes colder than usual, “I know—that’s why I am asking you if you can calm him down!” he isn’t mad at me but he is demanding on me. I gulp loudly before walking, “I will—try,” I said before running towards the front door, wearing my slippers and following Ai’Gun out of the apartment.

Outside, I saw Ai’Gun leaning on the wall, he is looking at the ceiling, “Ai’,” I called out to him and when he saw me, he snarls before walking again.

We walk in silent, I didn’t try asking him anything because I am afraid to make his madder and he also keeps on hissing and mumbling. I don’t understand what situation we are in right now and I also don’t understand why he brought me here in the fire exit of the building. As soon as the door closes Ai’Gun throws his most hurtful gaze on me, “Why P’?” he finally asked me but his voice is still the same. Demanding, hurt, angry, “What do you mean why?” I asked him managing to get enough courage.

“Why do you want to go back P’?” I breathe heavily by the question, “Ai’Gun—I am giving you back your freedom.” I am trying to move on from him but he is making it hard for me, “What freedom? What giving back? P’! Make it clear to me because I don’t freaking understand anything!” I bit my lips because of his tone. My sweet innocent Ai’Gun is gone. This Ai’Gun in front of me is full of overwhelming emotions, “I told you last time na Ai’Gun that I will forget about you. I will stop bothering you too and will stop trying to prove myself to your P’Hyuk.” Because I am causing too much trouble already and I know that people around me is right—I don’t really deserve him.

But why does he look so hurt right now? Why is he showing me this kind of facial expression right now—like someone kicked him out already, “So—you are tired already P’? You are tired because you realized that I am just another clueless guy and that P’Best is right and maybe you should—” “Ai’Gun! Best and I—it will never happen anymore!” I cannot control the rush of emotion anymore, this whole time—this has been so unfair for Best and I don’t want Ai’Gun to think that Best likes what’s happening right now. Best is still my friend.

“See—” he points his finger to me again, “I am right P’—you still love P’Best—you still want to be his boyfriend! You keep on telling me too that P’Best is like this and like that—I am getting tired of hearing about P’Best!” his voice keeps on raising and raising and damn it, I don’t want to get mad but I am really close to that, “Don’t involve him into this Ai’Gun! Best may be dumb too for loving me so much but I don’t like that you are trying to blame him when in fact I should be the one to blame!” my chest keeps on raising high and low.

Ai’Gun isn’t even afraid to show me his hateful look, “You are defending him again P’—why is it always him? Did you really use me P’? When Ai’Mean talked about you before—and about not moving on to your ex-boyfriend na P’—I don’t believe him because I thought you were not that kind of person and you’ve been so honest to me that it’s making me irritated already—but seeing you now P’—I think he is right! You used me before by announcing to the school that you like me but in fact you are still in love with P’Best!” “STOP IT! DON’T PUSH IT AI’GUN!” I yelled at him.

All the emotions are eating both of us, “It isn’t you I used—it’s Best! I used him okay! This whole time Ai’Gun—I’ve been using him and he isn’t complaining at all even though I keep on telling him that we should stop already because I don’t want to hurt him anymore!” and what hurts me more, “I think—using him—and hurting him—it only hurts both of us in the end Ai’Gun—he didn’t get what he wants and I didn’t get what I want,” and this has been eating me up since I talked to Ai’Plan. He is right, I am selfish.

Ai’Gun stomped his feet on the ground and groan, “Then why? Why did you keep on telling me P’ that you will get back to him soon and keep on going to P’Best house and always helping P’Best? Why did you keep on going to him then going to me too? You are confusing me P’!” I grab both of his shoulder, “Isn’t it really clear Ai’Gun? Isn’t all of this really clear to you?” he looks at me, “God damn it! Ai’Gun—I used my ex-boyfriend just to make you jealous! Just to ing make your realized that maybe—you like me too—I don’t care if it’s not love yet—but as long as there’s like for me to you then it’s enough already! And I know I am wrong—I shouldn’t use him—I know Ai’Gun—I tried to stop—I told him we don’t need to do this but Best thought it might be his last chance to get close to me again!” there I said it. All those burden on my chest.

What hurts me now is that Ai’Gun still looks mad at me, “And you thought—using P’Best to make me jealous—is good for the three of us P’Mark?” I shook my head and I grip on his shoulder tighter, “No—I know it’s wrong~” I answered then Ai’Gun tries to get free from me but I didn’t let him, “You can ask me P’—you can always ask me—” “Then what Ai’Gun? The last time we talked—you threw me away and told me that you are straight and you don’t even have any feelings for me.” And it hurts me until now.

I breathe deeply, “I am selfish Ai’Gun, I am manipulative, I want to get what I want, I am annoyingly honest, I am jealous bastard, and super possessive, this is who I am and you are seeing the good and the ugly in me right now—and I am not afraid to show it to you because this is who I am—this is the kind of man who falls for you—do I deserve you? I asked myself that questions too when people keep on telling me that I don’t deserve you—you are pure and innocent~” I loosen my grip on his shoulder and drop my hands. Looking at him now, seeing the damage I cause to him right now—it’s a good reason for me to believe in people around me.

“P’—I am dumb! I am slow, I am not pure or even innocent—I am just purely slow person na P’, I love my friends so much that and above all I love my family. Music is my life and I am not perfect—but why me P’? You can have anyone—you can even have everyone—but why this dumb person P’?” I bit my inner cheeks trying myself not to say something during his speech—but I can’t, “Because—you are you Ai’Gun—I don’t need to have any reason,” I grab both of his cheeks this time and look at him and he looks back at me.

Those round brown orbs are looking at me—the same gaze I saw when I first saw him on stage. We stay like that for a while, just looking at each other’s eyes, “P’—you can ask me,” he said softly. The stone cold expression is gone. He looks calm and normal—the normal Ai’Gun, “I am vulnerable Ai’Gun—when you are around.” I mumbled and ne nods at me.

“I am Mark Siwat Jumlongkul, not perfect, hot headed, always jealous, but will stay with your forever—” I smile before asking, “Gun Napat Na Ranong, would you like to be my boyfriend?”

He smiles at me, “I have 3 conditions P’,” I didn’t realized how much I am leaning my face on him, not until I noticed that he is whispering his words already, “One, always tell me what’s happening na khrab when I don’t understand it,” I nod, “Second, no more ex-boyfriend or plans of making me jealous or even getting close to P’Best,” why didn’t I notice it? He really is jealous to Best, “hum,” I mumbled, “And third, we will tell this to P’Hyuk,” that I gulp. “Like—right now?” I asked him and this time he nods, “Like—right now P’. So—are you okay with it?”

His P’ will kill me for sure—no—not only his P’ but also Ai’Plan, Ai’Mean, Ai’Cap, and maybe even Ai’White, “Then let’s go together na Ai’Gun,” I finally said it to him. He is trying not to smile so big but failed and soon I saw his gummy smile again, “Then—I accept too P’,” he said still smiling widely at me.

I buffer, “Huh? What?” I asked him and Ai’Gun makes our forehead touch each other.

“I said…I love you, P’Mark~”

My babies—my happy tears—shettttt I’ve waited long enough for this!

ing 100 chapters before they got together! You are so slow Mark!!!!

BTW: Gun's hair here is his latest ash blonde hair :)

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