Mark’s POV

I sigh for the nth time already, “Gun—listen first. I really need to go back home na khrab so that I can talk to my Pa’s assistant and make sure no one will follow you again,” I explained for the nth time already too. It feels like—I am explaining to a child—an adorable child.

I am squatting while holding Gun’s both hands and my boyfriend is sitting on the edge of his bed. Yes, I am in his house again, in his room while Ai’Captain is sitting beside him trying to pat his back again and again and their parents are standing behind me near the door.

Gun shook his head for the nth too, “No—no—please na Mark—stay—you can—” he looks around, “Sleep here na khrab—right—Mae? Pa?” he even asked his parents but I shook my head.

“Love, you need to rest. You are just tired na khrab and got scared—promise—I will be here first thing in the morning,” I grip his hands tighter but soon panicked when his eyes started to moist. As far as I know, he is the type of person who doesn’t cry easily.

“P’Gun~” Ai’Cap called him as soon as he noticed the visible tears.

“Dear, it’s okay—we think our Gun na kah must be so stressed out—do you want us to call your parent so that you can stay over?” I heard the gentle voice of mae and all I can do is sigh.

I turn my head to look at his parents and they have worried look on their faces, “Sorry na khrab mae and pa, I should have—” “No no Ai’Mark, you did good enough for our sons na khrab and we are really grateful. You are always there for them—and we will trouble you again tonight to stay,” Pa said and how can I decline anymore?

I sigh and smiles at them, “Okay na khrab mae, pa, I also don’t live with my parents but I need to make a call na khrab later,” I said before turning back to Gun who still looks like someone who is ready to cry.

I smile, “I’ll stay—” he smiles so big, “Now behave already na khrab. P’ needs to call someone—okay khrab?” and he nods so fast.

I let go of his hands and caress his cheeks, “Ai’Cap—do you mind coming out with me?” I asked his brother even though I am looking at Gun. I didn’t hear any reply but I know that Ai’Cap will follow.

When I let go of Gun, he looks more at ease now. His mae and pa just smile at me, “We will look after him dear,” mae said to me.

Ai’Cap and I walked towards the dining room where we sit opposite to each other. I was too focused on Gun that I forgot to check on Ai’Cap.

“Yes P’?” he asked me. The Ai’Captain that punched me straight on the face when he found out my intention to his brother was strong, brave, and fearless—what did love do to him? He looks so fragile right now.

I tried not to scare him—well intimidate him, I mean, “Well—are you okay na khrab?”

He frowns, “I wasn’t—the one who—” he sighs deeply, “I am okay P’.”

I shake my head, “You aren’t—I understand Ai’Cap, you might be so confused right now na khrab. Ai’White isn’t around too lately and—how much faith do you have on him?” see, I am not good at words—especially to other people. I might intimidate him in the end.

His eyes started to look at different direction—and I hate it when people stop looking at me when I am talking, “Ai’Cap!” I called him.

He is still unfocused, “I just—I am—” then finally he looks back, “I have faith in him na P’—I do—but—I want to see him—asked him what’s wrong. P’—he—” he shakes his head, “He told me to believe in him na P’ but I can’t feel him na kharb. Honestly, I feel bad—to you—to P’Gun—to people around me—they got into trouble na P’ because of my relationship with White and I just really really want to see him and to tell me that everything will be okay—that—I can trust him on this na P’,” I know the frustration he is feeling right now.

He wants to cry but he cannot because he doesn’t know why should he cry, “And then—P’Gun got into trouble na khrab today and I feel like—this is all my fault na P’—that if I just show myself to people na khrab maybe—no one—especially P’Gun will be into this position na khrab—and I want to get mad at those people but what can I do? I am just an ordinary person na P’—and I am against the whole country!”

I tap the table to make him stop, he is over thinking and over stressing, “Hey, Ai’Cap—I am not saying this na khrab out of obligation but I am saying this because this is what I want to do. You aren’t a burden to everyone na khrab and the reason why everyone wants to help you Ai’Cap—is because you are important to them. I must admit—I want to do this at first because of Gun and of course because of your brother na khrab but—I think—you should also know that I want to help you—genuinely help you. So—please—don’t think that what happened to Gun is your fault. No one wants that—” “P’ make sure that they will get punishment for this!” his voice changes when he interrupted me.

This is more likely the Ai’Captain I’ve known, “You don’t need to remind me—no one will be left untouched with what they did to my Gun,” as wicked as it sounded, I will make them pay.

Now, there is one thing that I want Ai’Cap to know, “Actually—I didn’t call you out na khrab just for Gun’s incident—what I really want you to know Ai’Cap—” and I hope Ai’White isn’t late to make Ai’Cap feel secure, “Ai’White is staying in my apartment—na khrab.”

Mae let me borrow pajama from Gun because I wasn’t prepared for my first sleepover at Gun’s house—in his room—but of course Ai’Cap is with us.

Speaking of Ai’Cap, I promised him that I will let him and Ai’White talked tomorrow.

About Ai’Gun’s incident, I have it cover already.

I crawl to the bed—on the right side to let Gun be in the middle. He has been sleeping since I entered their room. Ai’Cap is on the left side but back facing us.

I pulled the blanket and tuck Gun first before getting in the blanket and preparing myself to sleep.

“Mark~”

I smile, “I thought you were asleep already, Love,” I settle myself with enough distance from him but Gun isn’t going to make it easy for me. He turns to my side with an uneasy eyes, “Sorry na khrab~” he said.

I turn to him too, “For what?” and tuck some loosen strands of his hair, “I am being clingy na khrab,” then he sighs, “Ai’Plan warned me about this na khrab, that you might feel like I am trying to control you na khrab because I am being clingy and I don’t want you to feel that way na Mark. Also, I am not being careful today—that was why those people was able to scared me na khrab, I am really sorry na Mark~” he looks so cute with his pouting lips but I chuckled because this is more like the Gun that I know.

I didn’t know when did it start but it looks like Gun did his best to cope up with the situation and by helping him Ai’Cap—he became less and less of himself. He wasn’t as noisy and as worrywart as before. He doesn’t even talk longer and he also wasn’t aware of his environment anymore.

But I am not brave enough to touch him more, I know my limits so I keep my hands to myself, “Did I complain about Gun being clingy na khrab?”

He shook his head.

“Did P’ said about Gun controlling him?”

Again, he shook his head.

“If P’ didn’t say it, then Gun shouldn’t worry about it. You know na khrab how much P’Mark loves Gun—right?”

He nods this time.

“Then Gun should stop worrying about it na khrab. P’ will not get tired of being here for you—P’ will always protect you and P’ will make sure no one can harm you again~” I am being soft but I am not complaining because I am only like this to Gun.

That gummy smile shows up again and I feel my heart skip a beat in that one smile.

It wasn’t the end of it when Gun decided to reached out for my waist and pulls himself closer to hug me tighter—did I say we are on bed?

He hides his face on my chest while I feel numb with the sudden closeness—too much closeness.

“Gun loves Mark too—so much na khrab~”

I can’t help but to hug him back and bury him on my chest, “don’t be this cute and lovely na Gun—P’ might not be able to hold himself longer~” I whispered to him earning a confused look on him when he peeks at me.

“What aren’t you able to hold na Mark? Did someone hold you na kharb?”

One thing I forgot, “Gun—you are so cute~” he is innocent.

The next update will probably be tomorrow as long as I don’t have classes. I will finally write down the reunion of WhiteCap and also—might be a hint of other couples.

Who are on the rocks?

Who broke up with whom?

And who wants someone back?