Gun’s POV

Yesterday was one of the weirdest days of my life. I was so sleepy like I wasn’t able to sleep at all the other night and Ai’Cap was so clingy to me. He is my brother but he isn’t the type of person who likes to cling to me and he usually calls me slow which I still don’t understand why because I walk fast—so why does he call me slow? And lastly, It’s already Thursday but I’ve been seeing P’Mark so seldom. He went with us in the Korean embassy last Monday and even treated us dinner again but after that he messaged me and said he will be so busy.

“Woie P’Gun! Why do you keep on sighing na khrab?” Ai’Cooheart asked me because he is here again in our practice room because he said he misses Ai’Title but they always see each other? How did he miss him if every day they are together? “I just don’t think I feel good na khrab Ai’—like—yesterday na khrab I was so sleepy that I slept the whole lunch time na khrab with Ai’Plan and Ai’Cap and then today—I am not sure na khrab—like I am hungry—or something. Like I want something na khrab but I don’t know~” I answered him with all honesty.

Ai’Cooheart looks weirdly at me and Ai’Fluke sits down beside me too, “You are not hungry na khrab P’Gun—you ate all the pudding we’ve brought so definitely not hungry na khrab~” well yeah, I did eat a lot, “Than what’s wrong with me na khrab?” I asked both of them because they look smart for me so I think they can give me a good explanation.

The two of them look at each other and I feel so unfair because I wasn’t part of the staring contest, “Humm—P’Gun na khrab—are you sure you don’t want us to let you meet new blind date na khrab?” Ai’Fluke suddenly asked me and I shake my head right away, “I need to finish the visa na khrab and P’Hyuk told me not to play around but I am not playing around but I still say okay because P’Hyuk will not stop until I say okay,” so I need to focus on the visa for now then maybe after that I can try blind dates again.

The two of them nod and then look at each other again. As for me, I tried to look around to see what other people are doing. Ai’Cap and Ai’Toptap are happily talking at the other corner of the room while eating some potato chips. Ai’Title, Ai’Ohm, and Ai’Plan are at the other side busy checking the musical instruments because Ai’Ohm is really interested in instruments too but he said he isn’t good at playing.

I don’t know why I am with Ai’Cooheart and Ai’Fluke right now but they are good at talking so I like talking to them too, “Hello na khrab~” I suddenly look back again at the two Ai’s and saw Ai’Cooheart with his phone on his ear, “Awww P’Mark na khrab—it’s Ai’Cooheart,” I suddenly feel excited. Why? Maybe because P’Mark will give free food again. “Chai—are you busy na khrab P’?” he asked again and I did my best to listen to them.

Ai’Cooheart nods his head for couple of times, “Really? Aww—so when will you not be busy na khrab P’?” I sigh when I heard what Ai’Cooheart said. I still don’t know why P’Mark is busy but he always have time to help P’Best with his papers, “Nothing na khrab P’—I thought you might be free na khrab. We are hanging out in the practice room in college of music and P’Gun is with us right now na khrab—but P’ said he isn’t feeling well—so I thought—maybe~” am I still not feeling well?

“No no no—I am okay—” I was about to say something because I think I am feeling quite better now but Ai’Fluke talks, “Aww—where P’Gun? Did you say your head aches? Awww na khrab—poor P’Gun~” he said a bit loudly which makes Ai’Cap and Ai’Toptap to look at me. I shake my head anyway, “Eh? I thought you are busy na khrab P’Mark?” I heard Ai’Cooheart but I stop paying attention already because Ai’Cap is already walking towards us, “P’~” he called me, “Khrab?” and I asked him.

Ai’Cap squats beside me, “Are you okay na khrab P’?” and then put the back of his hand on my forehead, “What are you doing?” I asked him curiously and did the same to my forehead when he put his hand away, “Checking your temperature na khrab, P’,” he said but I don’t know how you can check the temperature by touching your forehead, “What’s the temperature na khrab Ai’Cap? I don’t know how to do this na khrab,” I told him and eventually stop checking my forehead. Ai’Cap shook his head, “But the temperature is normal na kharb P’Gun. Why did Ai’Fluke say you weren’t feeling well na khrab?”

“Maybe because na khrab—I told them that I feel like I want something na khrab but I am not sure what and then I thought I was just hungry na khrab but Ai’Fluke said it’s impossible na khrab because I finished eating the puddings na khrab,” I said because that’s the truth. “You are always like that na khrab P’Gun. To be sure na khrab, drink medicine—okay?” and Ai’Cap handed me a tablet medicine and I gladly accept it because Ai’Cap will force me to drink this if I will not do it by myself.

I stand up, “I’ll buy water na khrab,” and said before walking out of the room with the medicine on my hand. I am sure that I am not really sick but Ai’Cap sometimes acts like P’Hyuk. I continue walking on the hallway and it’s not that noisy anymore because it’s already 3pm and some students have classes and some already ended their classes. Because of that I slowdown in walking and take a good look on our building. I was almost at the stairs going to the ground floor when I saw P’Mark running towards the stairs. I am not sure why but I hide at the pillar beside the stairs.

P’ looks tired but he has his phone on his ear, “I told you na khrab that Ai’Gun is sick!” He sounds a bit mad and he quickly stop half way the stairs, “I know—I know—I understand na khrab but I am busy na khrab too and I told you last Sunday na khrab that I cannot help you with—” he tried massaging his forehead, “You do know na khrab that I am making you favor, khrab? Just—just ask someone to help you na khrab, Best,” and I suddenly feel my heart beating so fast.

I know that listening to someone is bad but I can’t just show up and say, ‘Surprise na khrab~’, “Okay okay—listen to me Best, I helped you already na khrab yesterday and I was supposed to go to Ai’Gun because—” why do I hear my name many times now? Do they like my name so much? “Didn’t I make myself clear na khrab when we talked Best? I told you—” and why does P’Mark keep on stopping while talking?

“My first priority na khrab will always be Ai’Gun so you cannot blame me Best if I will choose him over you na khrab!” then I saw how P’Mark hung up on P’Best and then groan in frustration before running back upstairs and into the corridor. When he is out of sight already, I get out of my hiding place, “Weird na khrab—why did P’Mark said that I am his priority na khrab?” I asked myself. I think the more I hang out with people, the more confusing they get.

The moment I opened the door of the practice room I heard a loud, “Ai’Gun!” and then P’Mark is already in front of me. I smile at him because I remember how mad he looks a while ago. I need to at least make him feel better, “Khrab?” I asked and then he suddenly grabs both of my arms and then turns me to the left then to the right then look at me up and down before putting the back of his hand on my forehead.

“Are you sick? Your temperature na khrab is normal and you don’t look pale. Are you hurt somewhere na khrab or did you slip somewhere? tell me~” He asked me a lot and I am not sure where to start, “Ahm—P’Mark na khrab—actually—I don’t know if I am sick na khrab but Ai’Cap said my temperature is normal na khrab and I didn’t fall or slip—I just don’t well good a while ago na khrab—but I think the medicine worked already na khrab because—I think I am better now—maybe~” I think I am okay because somehow I am not feeling bad anymore.

I wasn’t able to figure out what I want but I am okay now—more than okay I think. Maybe Ai’Cap is right—maybe I am weird sometimes.

My head is killing me today soooooo I don’t know if I will write more today~