I just don't want to do this anymore
Crazy, Stupid, Love
Daniel's eyes widened for a moment, then quickly sharpened. "Excuse me?"
"I was wrong about you. I…don't want to change who you are just so you could be the person I was expecting you to be." She ran a hand through her hair in distress. She could feel her knees weakening. She hated hurting people's feelings, but all the hurt she'd taken was already at its limit. She couldn't take anymore. "I…I just don't want to do this anymore."
"I see. Is there something I did again? Because if you're basing this decision in the past, that's not very reasonable or fair. You said you'd forgiven me. Denying your own words is quite the hypocrisy, Suzy."
The fact that he couldn't see his faults almost made her laugh. Instead, she shook her head. "No, it's not that. It's all me. Don't think any more of it."
Daniel nodded several times, trying to understand the situation, but remained baffled. Humiliated, he walked to the door then stopped and looked back at her. "I'll see you at work, Ms. Bae." The coldness in his voice and the indifference in his eyes were unquestionable. She had never seen him in that way before.
They stared at each other endlessly. She refused to cower from his gaze, though her anxiety was through the roof. She'd held in her breath, partly in fear of losing her job and partly because she wanted to remain strong.
She let it go when the door closed shut. Suzy immediately felt tears pooling in her eyes. Beyond the disappointment and anger, there was a lot of misery that filled her heart, and hopelessness. Was there really no one for her? Was she that hard to love? All the doubts began to pile up, one by one.
And just then, Suzy gave in to it and let the tears go. Her body curled on the corner of the couch, her knees against her chest. The crying bout lasted for a good hour.
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