To my dear Dino
I can't believe a day has come where I have to write this, and tell you goodbye, so early, too soon..
My heart is aching for everyone who loves and cares for you. And you, who were struggling on your own.
I didn't know that you were suffering so much. I love you for you who you were.
Your bright smiles always made me feel happy. Your music made me feel better, when I was feeling sad or down. I just had to look on your videos, and I would feel better.
I feel sad, and sorry that I didn't know that you felt this way, and that I couldn't see behind your smiles.
I am sorry you went through the pain alone. But you are never alone, and we are still with you.
I am sad that I never got to meet you, and tell you how much I love you, and how grateful I am to you for all the happiness that you have given me.
I've been with you since late 2009. You were my favorite artist/vocalist. Your voice is unique, and you always sang with your heart and soul. I could always feel the emotions in your voice and music. You were truly one of a kind, and there will be no one like you Kim Jonghyun.
You will live on through your music, and inside us Shawols.
I will never forget you.
You were our happy vitamin, our Dino Jjong, our Bling bling Jonghyun.
I will always be your Blinger, and you now shine upon us, and we will remember your sweet, and innocent smile. You were true to yourself, never hid your joy and tears, whenever SHINee won. You weren't scared of crying in front of us, and that made me love you, and respect you so much more.
You did well, Jonghyun! you did more than than well. You were perfect.
I will always be proud of you, and remember you for the sweet, emotional, and down to earth person you were.
You could bring out my emotions through your music. Your covers of One Millions Roses, and Ones Way Back, always got to me. Hyeya, always made me cry. You sang with so much emotions. I was always stunned, when I heard your singing.
Listening to your music took me away from the troubles in my every day. At days, you could be my escape from my reality.
I was just a 17 year old girl, who was star struck by you, when I first saw you.
I am now a 24 year old woman, and I am about to let go of you, too early, and I don't want to, Jonghyun.
I selfishly wish that you had found another way out. But I didn't know your pain.
I will let go of you, but I won't ever forget you, and stop loving you, Kim Jonghyun <3
I love you, and I miss you so much.
I didn't get to meet you in this life, but hope we will meet each other in our next life.
My sweet, sweet Jonghyun.
Sleep well <3