A Shoulder To Lean Oon
A FarewellNever has someone's demise caused me so much pain and I'm sure what I'm feeling is not close to what the SHINee members are feeling at the moment.
I regret a lot of things, Jonghyun-ah. Firstly, to assume that you were happy when in reality, you were suffering. You always put on that lovely smile on your face and our hearts only admired it in a shallow manner. You wanted a shoulder to lean on and listen about the voices that threatened you. Even when people helped, you felt your condition went too far. I'm sorry for not even leaving a comment on your SNS. You worked hard and you shined like a star on stage. I don't understand why some felt you were lacking, but then you could have walked out of SHINee any day instead of doing this.
I was devastated on reading the news. I, at first prayed it was a mere attempt but then when articles came on in, I began to shake at the very thought of not seeing you and not living in the place where you don't exist. You were one of a kind, Jonghyun - an idol who allowed his fans to near him. You were humble, down to earth, talented, handsome, kind and passionate. You had everything, Jonghyun. Not to say your members who walked hands in hands with you. This universe looks so colourless without you Jonghyun. Everything looks grey and hazy, I didn't want to see you all comeback in this form. You have punished us in the worst way possible and if it gives you any relief, I will live with this burden.
The memories you left will never replace your existence, Jonghyun. We love you, forever.....
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