Fighting!
A FarewellHi there Kim Jonghyun.
I'm an ELF but I have known you and SHINee since your debut days. I always adored SHINee although i didn't keep up with your comeback and such, but sometimes I watched your show appearances. I always knew that you guys are very talented boys. I never thought you would leave us all. I'm sorry. It is just beyond my expectation. I thought you were living well as an idol. Forgive me. Even me, myself is having difficulty to believe that you are gone forever. I feel heavy knowing your are gone from this world. How can I watch SHINee after this without Kim Jonghyun in it. I thought I am getting better after few days from when you left, but the feeling still hasn't left me.
Kim Jonghyun, I once also was depressed about my life. I always questioned myself. Why I always fail. Why people can do what I can't. I didn't tell anyone, I feel worthless. I only manage to show my outside appearance, not my inside to those people. But I guess I found my inner strength. After few years struggling and building my confidence, I managed to stand up again. Kim Jonghyun, I survived! I ing survived... Tch.. (although sometimes it comes by to say hi)
That's why i'm truly sorry because I didn't know you are having the same difficulty. I'm sorry I can't help you when you needed it the most. I'm so sorry.
Now, we are only left with your memories. I guess I finally have to accept this bitter reality too.
I will always remember you, handsome man. Yeah, you actually got my attention before and made my bias list shaking. Feeling proud yet? Haha. Gah, i cried while writing this for you. I guess I will keep fighting over depression. For people like us. Let's say 'Fighting' for me Kim Jonghyun! Fighting!
I need to end this letter Kim Jonghyun. People need to write theirs too. Farewell, Kim Jonghyun. You will always be remembered by us, forever.
사랑해 김종현,
Mx_bell
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