We Will Become Stronger
A Farewell
Dear Jonghyun,
I've never been professionally diagnosed with depression. But, in some ways, I know that I may suffer from it. I never realized how hard my life was until your death. When I told my sister and mother about your passing, they told me that you were thinking too much. You just have to focus on the positive things in life. I became hostile towards them, but soon I realized I was being hostile not because I was being biased, but because I am you, Jonghyun.
I realized that I am suffering just like you. I felt like they were talking to me. I felt like they were telling me to get over everything and that I was just acting like it was a big deal. I'm not. It IS a big deal. And, you have shown us that.
Your passing, Jonghyun, has showed me that I must become strong myself. No-one who does not understand will ever listen. And so, I will have to make them listen and understand in order to let them see the bigger picture. In order to let them find those in pain and in need of a shoulder to cry on.
Jonghyun, you have given me the strength that I have been trying so hard to find all these years. I will fight, Jonghyun. I will fight for you. I will fight for everyone. I will be my best me. I will become happy once again. You have made me find the problems that I've been trying to fix blindly.
Jonghyun, you are gone, but will forever be in SHINee and in our hearts. Jonghyun, you have not only done well, but have done awesome. Jonghyun, you are not alone. You have us that will always remember you. We will not forget you.
We will come together to become a stronger us and fight to save others. Jonghyun, you have made us realize that we must pay closer attention. You have made us realize to appreciate every second of life. You have made me want to help others. Jonghyun, you have changed my life. You did it in a way that I wish you never did. I wish you were still here, making music and making people laugh, but I know you have suffered.
I wish you well and hope you feel no pain now. I hope you are the happiest you've ever been. Live the life you deserve. We love you. I hope you will always remember that.
Kim Jonghyun, you have done awesome.
Love,
A Fan
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