(W) He’s So Charming
A FarewellJonghyun, You are very talented and have a bright personality.
You wrote, sang, composed, and danced. Whenever I would look at SHINee videos, you stood out the most to me because of your vocals and strong facial expressions. I remember the one time I watched SNL Korea, you were on it. I thought "he's so charming". The skit where you became the artificial "best friend" of the lead actor had me on the floor laughing. I enjoyed it lots. Jonghyun, I too suffer from depression. I almost took my life, back in August.
It was a tough time and I felt like nothing mattered anymore including myself. We are similar; both sensitive, kind hearted, restless, sad. The only difference is that you actually had a (or what I thought was) a fulfilling, successful career, with tons of ppl that loved and supported you. I am nothing but a broke girl, struggling in college, that is far below the standards in my country. I read your letter. I don't know what's more frightening: the parts I empathize with, or the parts I did not? I can't tell. I did not know you well enough to know that you were suffering for so long. You felt like a restless ghost that was trailing through life. You were exhausted, huh? I get like that too. My dream for happiness is what has kept me here. That's my last ray of hope. I wish I could've shared it you. I will grieve peacefully and honor you in my thoughts. I will also support the other members of SHINee and cheer them on like I know you would. Jonghyun, you will always be remembered. You were an angel, with/without wings! You've done well. Please, find peace and rest well, Jonghyun…
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