Think Of You And Smile Fondly
A FarewellJonghyun-ssi,
I always worried just a bit more for you, and I think it was because deep down I knew you struggled more than you let on. When you would open up about your depression or insomnia, I would worry all that much more. You always assured us that you were fine, and you always acted so happy, but I worried about what happened once you went home, because I knew the monsters in the dark had to have been waiting for you.
I wish you hadn't been lonely, and that the doctors hadn't blamed you or brushed you off. It was never your fault. It was never anybody's. You were always such a shining light to all of us, and I wish that we'd been able to do more for you too. What's happened though has happened, and we can't change any of it now. It's still shocking to think that you're gone, but I'm glad you're in a better place, and not lonely or in pain anymore.
If we ever meet in heaven, I want to smile with you happily and tell you that you've done an amazing job. I want to tell you that I missed you a lot, but that I don't blame you for leaving early. It must have been very hard for you, and you stayed strong for so long.
I know that you're looking down on us all from heaven now, and I hope that we can show you that we're doing well soon. It may take some time, but I know that only time can heal, and I hope that we'll be able to think of you and smile fondly soon.
You were a great man, and I can't thank you enough for all that you did and gave us while you were here. Thank you for opening up about so many topics that most people don't talk about, and for being such a strong supporter us all.
You did well.
Rest in peace <3
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