Letting Your Voice Ease And Soothe My Heart
A FarewellDear you,
How do I even start this? Never would I have imagined I would write something like this for you.
I discovered you by a chance a little before I turned 13 and you were the one who caught my attention. For nearly 8 years, you've helped me. I cannot think of my highschool days without thinking of you.
You brought me up when I was down, comforted me in a way no one else could. How many times have i listened to your songs, letting your voice ease and soothe my heart when I felt like the pain was too much for me to bear? You have saved me when I couldn't take the pain, you're one of the reason why I'm still alive and I'm still fighting every single day.
I hope that you aren't hurting anymore.
I pray that you are in a bright place and that you are no longer in pain. "I can handle this much pain and suffering if only you are with me in my life; I can suppress whatever pain and tears, all I want is you in my life." Do you remember this song? It's my favourite and Jonghyun, you'll always be in my life, in my memory and in my heart, I promise I will try to live well and that I will find my happiness so that I can remember you for as long as I can.
I may not understand why, I may be crying and my heart may be torn into pieces right now but I don't blame you, precious Jonghyun. I don't blame you. It has been difficult, hasn't it? It must've been. You were so strong and I'm so proud of you.
Thank you, I love you, I'm sorry the world wasn't gentle with you. Please rest now, you've worked hard and you've done well. From the bottom of my heart, thank you.
-stella
Ps: please don't hit anyone who is taller than you up there, violence is not the answer, Jong. If you can't find any insoles, ask God to create them for you, okay? I love you.
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