Annyeong Jonghyun oppa,

To be honest I'm not a shawol but I like shinee and I admire there talent and uniqueness. Kim Jonghyun? I was always amazed and moved by your powerful voice. Actually before I have come to know about shinee, I hear your voice first on my favorite ost in city hunter your song "so goodbye". The first time I heard about the news of you, I thought it was just some sick joke and I wish it is! Cause I was just watching the episode of "The Master Key" at that time and the guest includes your brothers Minho and Key, And then after that I heard about the news. It’s hard for me to believe and I read some updates on twitter and some say that you have already rush in a hospital and they are giving you therapy to revive you. After I've read that it gives me hope I prayed to God that night to give you another chance to live so that when you survive you will be able to see how strong you are and how much God loves you even if you feel that the world hates you. I prayed that night and go to sleep hoping that tomorrow when I woke up, I will receive an answered prayer to God that you have been saved and has given another chance to live. But It’s not what I received is a confirmation of your death.

It’s hard for me to think that we will not see more of you. But you know what jonghyun oppa? Although I am not a big fan of yours and shinee. when I think about your death, Why do I find and think of myself as useless? I say to myself if I could just notice your sufferings. I imagine myself if I were close to you, I would pray in front of you, talk to you about your sufferings. It’s frustrating because I can only imagine that things. I want you to be saved and continue to live the life that you wanted but it’s too late now cause you’re already gone. I'm sorry oppa I'm so sorry.

Thank you oppa for all the amazing things that you've done to the world, to the people you love and to the people that loves you. We will forever cherish you in our hearts. You've worked hard oppa, you can finally rest now.

And to all the people that is also suffering right now. Don't give up dear, whatever your situation right now ask God to take you out of that situation. Don't listen to the demons inside of you! They are a liar. Just remember sweety, whenever you think of yourself so small,unworthy,unloved just know that their is Jesus Christ who died on the cross. think of his sufferings on the cross of the calvary he is thinking of you at that moment he doesn't deserve that suffering because he is the son of God. But he did because he loves you he wants you to be free from all the sins and sufferings. Do not waste his hardship for you, for us. Do not listen to the voices inside of you, find god in your heart and life, Surrender all your pains and sufferings to him and he will help you out of the darkness. This the words that I wanted to say to jonghyun if I could have a chance. I have also experience the life that you were in darkness. And God became my salvation he took me out of darkness. Just remember the struggle is real, but so is God. Keep on fighting chingu!