Hi Jonghyun. It's been a little while. It still doesn't feel real you being gone. There are some days I can hardly bring myself to watch or listen to any video or song with you in it. Then there are days where all I do is go on youtube and just watch any clip you appear in or just replay all your songs. It gets to a point where I forget you are not here now. I laugh watching you laugh and smile throughout the whole duration I see you smiling and having fun with other members on screen. I never truly realised how much time I spent watching and listening to shinee. Also didn't realise how much joy and smile you brought. Can you believe it? I hardly have any English songs on my playlist. It's all full of Shinee and all sounds so familiar to my ears that I didn't realise till my sister asked to play my english playlist (she doesn't understand the awesomeness which is Shinee). Everyone is slowly picking themselves up. It will take a long while but slowly does it right? You should see some of the posts fans are circulating on Internet about you teaching other artists up there Ring Ding Dong. Who know maybe you gave them those ideas? But it lifts my spirits whenever I come across something like that. I hope you are happy.
Onew, Key, Minho and taemin recently posted letters for you and the fans. They will go ahead with the 2018 concert. It will be the 10th year debut anniversary soon. Honestly, it will be hard to listen to but we will all support them fully. I can never even begin to imagine how hard it will be for the members. But they are strong and they have you watching over them. Did you know your mother was the one to encourage them to go ahead? You got your strength from her, didn't you? Missing you. Still wish things turned out differently but if you are happy and at peace then i guess i can live with that. I will go now. You did well Jonghyun.
Will write again
5HINEE forever!
Happy New Year Jonghyun!
Trying to advertise this for the 18th but someone else is bidding really hard so I am running out of karma (already bought more for over 30dollars) so if you have some spare you are willing to donate, I would be really thankful.
I'm aware that it isn't December but I just thought of this post. December will never be easy for a lot of us. I'm more aware of my depression around that time. I just became an adult and the realization that a lot can change has finally hit me. I'm not sure how to feel. People within my family have died or are dying and it seems like the only thing I'm allowed to do is move on. I'm no longer given the luxury of grieving the way I had with Jonghyun. There are so many fond memories that I can go back to with Jjong but for them I only have memories. So much has happened these past few years and while I'm not completely okay I can say there's plenty of room where I've healed.
As year 6 approaches I want my fellow Shawols to know that healing is hardly a linear task. It's okay to not be ready but where you are there's always going to be SHINee.
And Dear Author thank you for keeping this space for all of us.
Thank you for keeping this space for us for so many years <3 This milestone hit me a lot harder than expected, but seeing this brought so much comfort. Miss you to the moon and back, Jonghyun <3
It’s been five years today and just a few days ago I turned 27, the age Jonghyun-ah was when we had to say goodbye to him. I have long since had to “become an adult” and learn what growing up means; yet every year I come back to this little space, and read some of the messages that people wrote for him, and think back to the letter I wrote at 22 and never shared with anyone. I think back to a memory of me looking at the full moon and talking to him for hours, telling him I missed him terribly. We still miss you, friend. I still remember you fondly. I still remember me at 17 dancing to Replay in my room. I’ll always cherish those memories of our Spring.
Author, I hope you have been doing well. Thank you so much for keeping this space running for so long, it brings comfort to some more than you’ll ever know.
Chapter 818: I just really paid attention to SHINee this August. Yet, when Jonghyun passed away four years ago, I felt sad that another beautiful and caring person chose to leave this place. In fact, I didn't want to listen to any SHINee songs then.
Now, watching SHINee's MVs, I feel like I have accepted what happened and hope that he is really happy now.
Time keeps moving on and I wonder why I can't just go back and fix things to when it was so peaceful. So much has happened in the last four years and it feels as though there's only SHINee left to comfort me. Jonghyun for so long I've written my letters to you and I couldn't this year because I couldn't find the strength or will to when I was feeling down. I haven't cried this much since I was a baby. I promised last year that I would tread the new year with caution and that didn't work out so great. There's more I wanna say but I just wish you knew how much I love you. Thank you for being born and sharing your light with the world. Sincerely I love you. 𝑰 𝒘𝒊𝒍𝒍 𝒂𝒍𝒘𝒂𝒚𝒔 𝒍𝒐𝒗𝒆 𝒚𝒐𝒖 ❤️
It’s been 4 years now and so it’s hard to believe that you left us, but I still do remember you as SHINee’s Blingbling Angel and as the brightest star that shines in the sky.
I used to feel so lonely after knowing that you left us, that I was listening to Lonely everyday for about a year, but now I just remind myself that you’re still with us, as the bright shining star watching over us from the night sky. ❤️
I will always love you.
i was InMemoryOfJonghyun!
just thought i'll let you know so you don't add this username again~ =]
anyways, good luck with the add and for all those who come here and are thinking of Jjong and of others and themselves.
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