Mother Of A Shawol

I am a mother of a SHINee Shawol. There was never a day that she will not open her account to view the latest about SHINee. Since she's always bragging me their talents, I decided to search about SHINee members profile. I even watched their mvs'. Soon i am fangirling with the boys, too.

Then, December 18, 2017, shocked the world with the death of KIM JONG HYUN. I was on my way home and it was my daughter who broke the news to me... She was crying so hard. She can't hardly relay the news to me... all I remember her telling me was... "Ma, have you heard the news, please come home," I decided to open my phone then notifications flooded.

Even though I haven't seen them in person, it seems like I knew them well... I felt like I also lost a dear son. Jong Hyun's so sweet to his mom. I saw how my daughter struggled to cope up. We even went to his memorial service to give him our last respect.

I feel sorry for his death... just like any other mom do. I can't imagine how his mom will able to cope up knowing his son will never be home again. His sister Sodam will forever be feeling guilty of not be able to save his brother. Key, Taemin, Minho and Onew will forever be missing the spot where Jong always stay.. The whole music industry lost one of it's greatest talent.. SHINee Shawols lost someone and forever be missing him.

How I wish Jong will be born again but this time with a strong will and determination to face all those detractors and haters.

I would like to express my opinion to those haters out there.
Just because you are not happy doesn't mean you are free to make someone's life miserable. Grow up and face your enemy. Don't throw your anger on innocent people. Have fear in God.

And lastly, Jonghyun, we don't know each other personally but I considered you my son. God gave you so much talent to share the world, what happened? Did you get tired already? Sorry for not noticing your pain. All the while your laughter seemed so real that we even laughed with you. All the comic acts you did were great that we thought you are okay... Now you can rest well, you may have all the sleep you were deprived of. Today marked your 40th day of death.... I'm offering you my prayers...

You did very well KIM JONG HYUN.... Have a safe travel ... till we meet again.

We love you....

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Redofthedawn #1 Aug 7, 2023 07:53:21

I'm aware that it isn't December but I just thought of this post. December will never be easy for a lot of us. I'm more aware of my depression around that time. I just became an adult and the realization that a lot can change has finally hit me. I'm not sure how to feel. People within my family have died or are dying and it seems like the only thing I'm allowed to do is move on. I'm no longer given the luxury of grieving the way I had with Jonghyun. There are so many fond memories that I can go back to with Jjong but for them I only have memories. So much has happened these past few years and while I'm not completely okay I can say there's plenty of room where I've healed.

As year 6 approaches I want my fellow Shawols to know that healing is hardly a linear task. It's okay to not be ready but where you are there's always going to be SHINee.

And Dear Author thank you for keeping this space for all of us.

luv_kero ^{2434 streak} #2 Dec 18, 2022 09:15:11

Thank you for keeping this space for us for so many years <3 This milestone hit me a lot harder than expected, but seeing this brought so much comfort. Miss you to the moon and back, Jonghyun <3

Viola_Ella #3 Dec 18, 2022 03:56:50

Chapter 818: When I saw in newfeed I just realised today is the day. He is a sweet,kind and precious soul. I miss him.

Evelyn_64 #4 Dec 18, 2022 00:55:41

It’s been five years today and just a few days ago I turned 27, the age Jonghyun-ah was when we had to say goodbye to him. I have long since had to “become an adult” and learn what growing up means; yet every year I come back to this little space, and read some of the messages that people wrote for him, and think back to the letter I wrote at 22 and never shared with anyone. I think back to a memory of me looking at the full moon and talking to him for hours, telling him I missed him terribly. We still miss you, friend. I still remember you fondly. I still remember me at 17 dancing to Replay in my room. I’ll always cherish those memories of our Spring.

Author, I hope you have been doing well. Thank you so much for keeping this space running for so long, it brings comfort to some more than you’ll ever know.

OdetteSwan ^{923 streak} #5 Dec 18, 2022 00:11:36

I'm so glad you won the bid. I will start collecting karma points again.
Good work.

OdetteSwan ^{923 streak} #6 Dec 18, 2021 15:31:45

Chapter 818: I just really paid attention to SHINee this August. Yet, when Jonghyun passed away four years ago, I felt sad that another beautiful and caring person chose to leave this place. In fact, I didn't want to listen to any SHINee songs then.
Now, watching SHINee's MVs, I feel like I have accepted what happened and hope that he is really happy now.

Redofthedawn #7 Dec 18, 2021 15:23:33

Time keeps moving on and I wonder why I can't just go back and fix things to when it was so peaceful. So much has happened in the last four years and it feels as though there's only SHINee left to comfort me. Jonghyun for so long I've written my letters to you and I couldn't this year because I couldn't find the strength or will to when I was feeling down. I haven't cried this much since I was a baby. I promised last year that I would tread the new year with caution and that didn't work out so great. There's more I wanna say but I just wish you knew how much I love you. Thank you for being born and sharing your light with the world. Sincerely I love you. 𝑰 𝒘𝒊𝒍𝒍 𝒂𝒍𝒘𝒂𝒚𝒔 𝒍𝒐𝒗𝒆 𝒚𝒐𝒖 ❤️

lovelyfeisty #8 Dec 18, 2021 05:29:15

It’s been 4 years now and so it’s hard to believe that you left us, but I still do remember you as SHINee’s Blingbling Angel and as the brightest star that shines in the sky.

I used to feel so lonely after knowing that you left us, that I was listening to Lonely everyday for about a year, but now I just remind myself that you’re still with us, as the bright shining star watching over us from the night sky. ❤️
I will always love you.

wonpokemon #9 Dec 17, 2021 22:21:02

i was InMemoryOfJonghyun!
just thought i'll let you know so you don't add this username again~ =]
anyways, good luck with the add and for all those who come here and are thinking of Jjong and of others and themselves.

aseulmonsta #10 Jul 21, 2021 15:41:11

❤️