Dear Shinee, Shawols, and his loved ones,

I won't be saying anything to Jonghyun because I know even if I try to call him now, it would be so futile. But I just want to tell and show everyone that even though I'm not a Shawol, Kim Jonghyun played a huge role in my life as a Kpop fan. He became that someone that I would always look up to. He was an aspiring songwriter and artist that motivates everyone to keep living on and be happy. It's a huge disappointment to me that we can't do the same to him. And now he's gone. Forever. I wanted to dedicate these to the left 4 members, his loved ones, friends, and to all of the Shawols out there. From what I've heard, Choi Minho collapsed after crying so much, Key locked himself in his room, and Taemin was seen lying down on the floor, staring at the ceiling. He wasn't crying or anything. He was just simply spacing out, probably taking in the realization that his hyung he grew to love so much had left the world. Only Onew stayed strong and attended his brother's funeral. To them who are still alive but felt like their world just collapsed in front of them, I'm sorry. It must've been so hard for you. Me myself is already hurting this much even when I'm not a Shawol. I can't imagine what you're going through. But please, be strong. The fans need you. We need you more than ever. Keep in mind that Jonghyun would never like it if you try to harm yourselves because of him. His death wasn't for us to mourn over for the rest of our lives and it especially wasn't for us to harm ourselves. It was for him to end his sufferings. It was his way of telling everyone that he became so much strong already and he's already exhausted trying to be one still even when he knows he just wanted to close his eyes forever and take a rest. It also served as a lesson for us. Just because he gave up and let go of himself and everyone, doesn't mean we should too. Even if he's gone now and he won't be finding out what we're doing, let us be strong. Let's not be like him. He wouldn't like that. For sure, all he wanted is for us to move on and be happy. He wants us to learn how to be happy without him. There's nothing we can do anymore. Death was already calling for him and he was already close to giving up. We should live our lives the way he wanted us to. Let's say goodbye to all the memories of him but never forget about them. And now, To Jonghyun whom I know is already somewhere else. I know what place you're gone to. But I won't tell. Instead, I want to tell you all of these: You did good. So good that you got everyone crying and mourning for you now. I won't be asking why. Why you did it. Why you couldn't stay strong. Why you ended it in such way. Why you couldn't let anyone help you. Because I know. I know how hard it is. I know how hard you tried to fight it. You did. But nothing lasts forever and you're just a human, you can also feel pain. Don't worry. You've worked hard. You had won a lot of battles we knew nothing about. But just like any legendary heroine, there would be the day and time when you couldn't hold it any longer. You were so strong. Until now, you still are. You shined so bright. So bright that we couldn't see all the mixed emotions your eyes were giving out. You were so sad, hurt, lonely and miserable. But we were such a fools and we weren't able to see it. Please, do not worry. You've made us happy. Forever, you would always hold and own a special place in our hearts. You inspired us and now is the time for us to do the same to everyone else. You were so lovely, you still are. You were so beautiful and that would never change. Please give us time to take these all in. Give us time to accept the fact that you're never coming back to us. Soon, we would be able to let go of you. Just like what you wanted. Please rest in peace and be strong wherever you are.

We love you our lovely Kim Jonghyun.