To You
A FarewellTo you who brought me into the genre of K-Pop, and eventually, into my own passion for music.
To you who supported LGBTQ rights in a country I would not call open-minded with these issues,
To you who showed support to these people despite knowing you would be criticized,
To you who only wanted people to love you for who you are,
Thank you, and you did well even until your last breath.
Today I read accounts of you waiting outside the convenient store, making noise with your car, and even the fact that you texted your sister a few hours before you left us.
You wanted to live. You wanted someone to notice and save you.
I'm sorry nobody did. If I were there, I don't know what I would have done. Perhaps, I wouldn't have noticed. It breaks my heart that you had planned this, but even until the very moment, you contemplated.
What did you think of... I can only wonder. Us? Your fans? Your fellow members? Your family?
You weren't selfish. Even until the last moment, you were scared. I wish I could have saved you.
I knew I couldn't, but I am here. Living. And I will continue to do so... for you, Jonghyun.
I will sing and try harder to pay attention to loved ones. I will think of you every step of the way and make sure nobody around me is lonely.
Wherever you are now, I pray you are happier than you were on Earth.
I pray that you are not lonely. I pray that you are an angel singing.
You've worked hard, even now. I love you.
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