To Kim Jonghyun,
You were so kind to us, Jonghyun. Yet we were so unkind to you. We didn't appreciate you enough. Your childhood was not perfect, you trained all your life to show your perfect side on your stage, yet our malicious eyes chose only to see the imperfections you carried. I loved you from top to bottom, you were the soul of SHINee, the ever crying kid when receiving awards on stage. We condemned you for the slightest of your actions, I never saw through the smile you wear most often. If I were a friend of yours, I wouldn't have left you alone like that Jonghyun-ah, because I know how it feels to be all by ourselves. I began to live independently and the whole credit goes to SHINee's music. I never will get your problem - a problem is a problem, doesn't matter if it was big or small. You survived, worked hard with tears, appreciated your members and showed dedication in your work. But you let some inconsiderate words get you. You were sleepless all night while we were asleep and you suffered for our joy. You were helpless when we thought you were happy. You got chased by yourself and in the end, your own hands took your life. In the meanwhile, you made us some beautiful memories to look back and wonder if you really were happy. Whatever your problem might me, suicide is not the solution. You are too pure for this earth and maybe that is why you decided to leave us. You left us in the middle just like that. You physically ended everything, my love. YOU DID WELL, YOU DID GREAT, YOU WERE AWESOME, YOU WERE BRAVE, YOU WERE SWEET, YOU WERE PERFECT, KIM JONGHYUN. I mean everything I said.
It's too early for you to settle down in heavens, so go there, say hello to angels, shine as a star for a while and come back to this earth, where you feel is the safest for you, and land in the lap of a beautiful family, good friends and non- judging, stress less society. This birth, was so short for you, next one will be the longest and best one for you. Fall in love and be loved. World was cruel to you and now, you made us sad by bidding farewell.
This is not farewell Jonghyun, this is not. Good bye is not for you Jonghyun. You have some business left, you have some happiness left over, come and enjoy it asap. With the power of all the love and dharma in this world, may you come back and live the life you wanted.
Meanwhile, you will live in our hearts as a smiling Jonghyun who liked puppies and SHINee. We won't say good bye, but I wish you rest in peace, for a while.
We will carry your burden, we will cry, we will feel guilty for not seeing you.....one day, we will learn to accept that you won't be here with us anytime soon.
Come back, Jonghyun-ah.
Sincerely.