I Hope You Can Forgive Me
A Farewell
Dear Bling Bling Jonghyun,
You are the very reason I am here. In 2010, while watching tv, when I heard the first syllable of Ring Ding Dong, my first Korean song, I knew I was whipped. You're songs, voice, laughter, partially blonde hair, funny cuteness, everything about you was why I fell in love with kpop. Thank you for giving me the most amazing 7 years of loving kpop & SHINee. I will forever cherish this and I hope that you find the peace you deserve.
The thing is that we don't realise loss until someone very truly close to us is taken away.
I am sorry we weren't there for you. I am sorry on behalf of everyone who grieves for you. I am sorry as Shawol who didn't notice the signs of your sadness and pain. I truly am sorry from the bottom of my heart. You have done amazing and you have done enough. In a world where people are unforgiving, I hope you can forgive me.
A part of me is still unable to comprehend another day without you. Everything still feels like a horrible dream. I have to look at news and your photograph every hour to realise that you are truly gone.
I am not happy nor okay with the fact that you are gone, but I have to accept it. I don't feel okay. But I will make myself okay. For you, my dearest Bling Bling, I will try and smile everyday. You deserved so much more than this. You deserved all the love you gave to others times 10. I hope you shine even in heaven.
Your music and legacy lives on through us, your Shawols and your friends, family.
(I hope that the world learns from this loss. I hope that they realise the gravity of the situation.)
Rest In Paradise, My dear Bling Bling.
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