I Just Want You To Be Happy
A FarewellDear Jonghyun oppa,
I was once a fan of shinee, but that was before because i stop being a kpop fan since. But when i saw the news? I don't know what to feel sad? regret? angry? devastated? I honestly don't know but i can't stop the tears that was falling through my eyes.
Yes i feel so sad, mostly regret. I wish i could help you thru those times (those times when you need help, suffering by yourself, trap in loneliness, devastated because you can't be happy)
I wish i could send you a simple message that your doing well, how are you? are you fine? please rest a lot. How i wish that i can encourage you that time.
But i'm so sorry, oppa.
Because i failed to notice, i failed to help, i failed being once a shawol. I'm so sorry, i'm so sorry i can't help you at those times.
I felt so sad, really sad. Yet, i can't blame you because you only done your part. Because it's too much, right? It hurts right?
How i wish i can tell you that everything is going to be okay. That i am here for you always. I won't leave you, so please be strong. I'll make you happy like what you always wanted.
To be happy.
I'm sorry oppa.
Life is cruel,right? We only realized something if they're gone.
I love you oppa, i really do.
It just hurts so much, that i failed to notice the smile you bring is deepdown was full of darkness.
You completed your part,oppa. You made us smile,happy,overwheled,awe,inspired and helped us. It's more than enough, your really an angel. I don't want to say goodbye, because we'll see each other again soon.
Oppa, i love you. We loved you. We always love you. Please smile a lot there in heaven, please be happy.
I just want you to be happy.
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