(W) Press MUTE
A FarewellFor Jonghyun,
I'm not really good with words, I can't express my anger or sadness or vent which led me to always choose physical pain over enduring the mental or emotional pain.
Since I was young I didn't like saying how I feel or If someone hurt me I just take the hurt and keep it piling up till I finally explode.
I have a history with self harm but since last year It became more frequent, Being attached to everyone gets in my life led me to always trust and never question until the last few years I learnt the hard way that you can be good and nice to ppl yet they choose to hurt you and break you.
Sometimes Everything become too much to endure and the desire to just mute the whole world and putting a blindfold on your eyes is so hard that you wish you had a remote to press MUTE and pause everything.
After reading Jonghyun's message to his friend I know why did he choose to leave, He wanted to rest.
He wanted to be happy, to feel alive, to be free from stress and the feeling that he is a burden to everyone around him.
Ppl might see it as it's just an escape but it takes bravery to do so, to choose to leave than to live like a zombie, void of the desire to be alive.
To everyone else, be mindful of what you say, some words might be light but It can shatter a life.
Lastly, Dear Jonghyun I hope you found the peace you longed for. You have done well. You will always be in our hearts.
Thank you Jonghyun.
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